The cutest lifeform
oh my god. i can finally see. my dad didn't get "less abusive" because he isn't yelling at me as much. the erosion and violations of my boundaries has been the abuse this entire time.
he isn't terrorizing me anymore because he has less of a reason to. it's not because he's better at controlling his anger. he's just using different methods of manipulation and force.
this feeling of being a daughter-wife that i have. that has been the goal the entire time. it's literally just coercive control and enmeshment.
and i think my apprehension to post this probably speaks for itself (tw for the tags)
BREAKING NEWS
Local nuisance "Jax" found at barely over 5'4, charged for deception are being pressed.
What- I'm telling the truth-you're just jealous
Am I the only one who lowkey wishes their mother was dead
Like most people are always all "cherish your mom while she's still around! you never know when she'll be gone!" but I'm honestly not going to miss her at all once she is
I know some idiot is going to be like "yes you will you're just saying that bla bla bla" but like you don't understand, I GENUINELY will not miss my mother once she's dead
A lot of times she'll remind me of why I think this way, such as now, but it's one of those horrible thoughts that live in the back of my head that I don't really tell anyone because it's such a shocking thing to say
But honestly...? I don't even feel bad for thinking it. She's done so much damage to me emotionally that I just don't even care about her at all anymore. The reason I retreated to my room to cry is because I didn't want her to know she had the power to do that to me, I stay stoic so that she stays thinking I don't care about her
Because I don't, and I'm not sorry about it.
Can't sleep...3 a.m.....might as well draw these tire fires whom I cherish with all my sleep deprived heart - đź‘€
would you pet the bungy rabish .
all these arguments about the new harry potter casting but all i can think is that every person involved in the series has willingly signed up to work with such an outspoken transphobe
gonna keep remembering the people i've heard say that substance use is what kept them alive long enough to be able to begin to heal. gonna keep the feeling i have in my heart that i am like them; i relate. i feel. i am not alone and i will be okay.