oh my god. i can finally see. my dad didn't get "less abusive" because he isn't yelling at me as much. the erosion and violations of my boundaries has been the abuse this entire time.
he isn't terrorizing me anymore because he has less of a reason to. it's not because he's better at controlling his anger. he's just using different methods of manipulation and force.
this feeling of being a daughter-wife that i have. that has been the goal the entire time. it's literally just coercive control and enmeshment.
and i think my apprehension to post this probably speaks for itself (tw for the tags)
Am I the only one who lowkey wishes their mother was dead
Like most people are always all "cherish your mom while she's still around! you never know when she'll be gone!" but I'm honestly not going to miss her at all once she is
I know some idiot is going to be like "yes you will you're just saying that bla bla bla" but like you don't understand, I GENUINELY will not miss my mother once she's dead
A lot of times she'll remind me of why I think this way, such as now, but it's one of those horrible thoughts that live in the back of my head that I don't really tell anyone because it's such a shocking thing to say
But honestly...? I don't even feel bad for thinking it. She's done so much damage to me emotionally that I just don't even care about her at all anymore. The reason I retreated to my room to cry is because I didn't want her to know she had the power to do that to me, I stay stoic so that she stays thinking I don't care about her
Because I don't, and I'm not sorry about it.
Boing boing
squad stuff, woo-oo. 3rd pic base by @little-geecko
I blocked them
I have forgiven you for what happened during the fight :)
The Kinger analysis post was a fight??
FUCK CRINGE CULTURE! EMBRACE CROSSOVER SHIPPING!!!!!!!! POMNI AND MEL SHOULD KISS!!!!!!!!!
generative AI literally makes me feel like a boomer. people start talking about how it can be good to help you brainstorm ideas and i’m like oh you’re letting a computer do the hard work and thinking for you???
I’m addictive to sugar and catnip. All I know there was a blue flash of light and when I woke up yesterday I was her!
It’s a FULL YEAR swap too, started in February and (maybe not sure) will end at December or The New Year.
The kid I swapped with is autistic I thinks she infecting/influencing me….oooh bird!
*notices he's sitting in a therapy chair* ?? uhhhh- how does that make you feel. Do you have deficits in social-emotional reciprocity and restricted, repetitive patterns of behavior, interests, or activities?