artist in denial of being depressed: omg this 2 month long art block has been crazy... sorry i haven't updated any of my fics in a long while! it's just been super difficult to daydream! so weird that i've lost a little bit of passion for my current comfort character and ocs... this couldn't possibly have any implications or alternative explanations
Eyes narrowing with a sharp, intense stare.
Clenched jaw and pursed lips.
Crossing arms defensively.
Making snide or sarcastic remarks.
Glancing repeatedly at the object of jealousy.
Trying to outdo or one-up the rival.
Faking a smile that doesnāt reach the eyes.
Speaking in a tense, clipped tone.
Avoiding eye contact with the person theyāre jealous of.
Drumming fingers impatiently on a surface.
Feeling a burning sensation in the chest.
Sighing loudly or rolling their eyes.
Gritting teeth and taking deep, forced breaths.
Biting their lower lip hard.
Tapping foot incessantly.
Passive-aggressively commenting on the situation.
Mimicking or mocking the rivalās behavior.
Frequently changing the subject away from the rival.
Feeling a knot tighten in their stomach.
Casting resentful, sidelong glances.
Early morning sparring becomes routine, Pros- Cullen & Ali are able to reach mutual understanding & respect, Cons - Josephine thinks its ridiculous (Leliana thinks itās hilarious)
Cullen & Ali argue non-stop even while sparring, but by the time their at Skyhold its more about challenging each others views/plans/fighting style to improve each-other rather than mindless disagreement. Plus both of them are out of practice, so sunrise training is just convenient (nothing more.. definitely not becuase it helps them see the other as more human).
these type of kisses. like he couldnāt get enough of you. like when he grabs you and pulls you back into kiss even if you gasp for air. he just canāt stop once he started to kiss you, heās addicted. and his kisses arenāt too rough. he just begs to feel any part of you against his lips so he could worship you properly.
these type of hugs when he squeezes you onto his body and wonāt let go. he just canāt. so he pulls you onto his lap and holds you until his stress and anxiety melts away.
(please delete pinterest from my phone cus i canāt stop_(:_ćā )_ i have at least 12 boards for desperate looking men T-T)
I deserve love. I deserve to feel adored. I deserve kind words and sweet gestures. I deserve gentle kisses and warm hugs. I deserve the love he gives to me. We deserve the best of each other.
A very totally incredibly non-delulu list by Writerthreads
arm/shoulder/waist/SMALL OF THE BACK touches
HANDS BRUSHING, BUT TOO NERVOUS TO DO ANYTHING MORE
calling them by their name ("What's your opinion on this, X?") (they way they say their name makes their heart do funny things)
the way their voice goes heavy/breathy
CHIN RESTS ON THEIR SHOULDER
whispering into their ear and the way their breath tickles
non-affectionate nicknames just for them
recognising their laugh and trying to make them laugh just to hear it again
little private smirks/winks, watching their reaction when someone makes a joke
sniffing their hair/recognising their on their shampoo
eye contact so deep they feel like sinking
SMALL PECKS ON THE CORNER OF THEIR MOUTH/CHIN/FOREHEAD
recognising the sound of their footsteps
co-existing in the same space, acknowledging their presence and feeling safe
CARESSING THEIR CHEEK WITH THEIR THUMB
recognising their nervous ticks and comforting them, like putting a hand on their bouncing leg
tracing scars, freckles, moles, lines of their muscle, you name it (SCREAMS)
grinning when they blush
watching with pride as the other does a presentation/leads a mission/takes charge
making up private signals for each other
HAND KISSES
NECK KISSES
playing with their hair/brushing their hair/braiding their hair
Ah, love. That lingering warm, fuzzy feeling in your chest. I love love.
Making a Character Whine in Monologue
Iām a big believer in letting characters bleed quietly. You know, the kind of emotional tension that simmers just under the surfaceānot the dramaticĀ āI am torn!āĀ speeches. Hereās how I like to sneak internal conflict into my writing without making my characters feel like they belong in a bad soap opera... Have Fun! (ļ½”ā„āæā„ļ½”)
Saying the opposite of what they feel.Ā Like insisting theyāreĀ fineĀ while gripping a coffee mug like it personally insulted their ancestors.
Pausing before responding to something simple.Ā Because sometimes the silence says āIām thinking too hard about thisā louder than a whole paragraph ever could.
Changing the subject when things get too close to their emotional soft spot.Ā Classic evasion. Bonus points if they pretend it's forĀ someone elseāsĀ sake.
Making choices that contradict their stated goals.Ā "IĀ swearĀ Iām over them"ācut to them rerouting an entire road trip to pass by their exās hometown.
Being too nice.Ā Yep. People-pleasing? Avoidance in a trench coat.
Fixating on a tiny, irrelevant detail while avoiding the bigger thing.Ā They canāt deal with their grief, but they can definitely spend 12 minutes lining up pens perfectly.
Snapping at someone they trustāthen immediately regretting it.Ā Because pain has to leak outĀ somewhere, and itās usually not in a convenient monologue.
Doing something ājust in case,ā but obviously hoping for the opposite.Ā Packing a goodbye gift they never plan to give. Writing a message they never send.
Rewriting memories in their head.Ā āIt wasnāt that bad. They didnāt mean it. I probably deserved it.ā A spiral in slow motion.
Being hyper-aware of how others are reacting to them.Ā Internal conflict often turns into external paranoia: āDid she flinch? Was I too cold? Did heĀ seeĀ that?ā
Having a really long-term hyperfixation that has since faded is terrifying yes but it's also so embarrassing. Hi I used to think about Scrimblo Splungus 25/7. Yeah, for 2 years straight. Nah, I don't think about them anymore except for with a vague sense of melancholy as I recall how they used to make me feel. Anyways this new one, Blimpkins McGee? I'm gonna think about them forever and the cycle will NOT repeat in 2 years. Trust me guys.
Gets into: A Fight ā ...Another Fight ā ...Yet Another Fight
Hates Someone ā Kisses Someone ā Falls in Love
Calls Someone they Love ā Dies / Cheats Death ā Drowns
is...
A Child ā Interacting with a Baby/Child ā A Genius ā A Lawyer
Beautiful ā Dangerous ā Drunk ā Injured ā Shy
needs...
A Magical Item ā An Aphrodisiac ā A Fictional Poison
To be Killed Off ā To Become Likable ā To Clean a Wound
To Find the Right Word, but Can't ā To Say No ā A Drink
loves...
Astronomy ā Baking ā Cooking ā Cocktails ā Food ā Oils
Dancing ā Fashion ā Gems ā Mythology ā Numbers
Roses ā Sweets ā To Fight ā Wine ā Wine-Tasting ā Yoga
has/experiences...
Allergies ā Amnesia ā Bereavement ā Bites & Stings ā Bruises
Caffeine ā CO Poisoning ā Color Blindness ā Food Poisoning
Injuries ā Jet Lag ā Mutism ā Pain ā Poisoning
More Pain & Violence ā Viruses ā Wounds
[these are just quick references. more research may be needed to write your story...]