I Wish There Was Like, A Petfinder Website But For Catgirls

there’s a comic thing i want to work on but i’ve lost the ability to draw again

TwT

You should listen to this album

do it

i don’t want to talk about how many hours of wilds i’ve played since it came out but wow

I'm working on a card game for my final project in my game design class and I have to have all the cards finished by tuesday

i have to make art

for 32 cards

by tuesday

i may be a little bit fucked

my tits are FINALLY leaving beta

the one thing i’m actually pretty excited for about going back home for the summer is being able to make more fursuit stuff again

the worst part about never finishing anything is that i always think i’m going to finish the thing

i just had a family dinner and people were talking about their dogs for a bunch of it and the whole time i was thinking about HDG and thinking about it like affini talking about their florets and i had to like physically restrain myself from saying anything

i am losing it

i feel like i don’t fit any depictions of women i see

and i don’t fit any depictions of trans women i see

and both of those are defined so heavily as groups by suffering they experience

but because i just look like a cis guy to basically everyone who would be inclined to be shitty i just don’t get those

and this along with some other things makes me think i should put more effort into presenting feminine

but is it worth it to change how i present myself just to be seen by random people in the way i want

i like my more masculine presentation

but it makes it harder for me to be seen as a woman

and maybe that’s mostly for me

or maybe i just have some things to get over

but i don’t feel very visible

my apartment might just be the worst sleeping situation i’ve ever had. my mattress is a box spring that should’ve been replaced years ago. it’s fucking concave. i sleep on my front usually but that’s not really possible unless i want to be sleeping bent backwards. also the outside of the mattress is so fucked that with just a fitted sheet over it the springs are still digging into me. i had a box spring mattress last year it was so much better than this (not good but still way better) and the only way this mattress is remotely ok is if i put my thickest blanket on top of the mattress and sleep on that

so it takes me a while to fall asleep

but then there’s a construction site across the street from me that starts work at FIVE THIRTY IN THE FUCKING MORNING and is EXTREMELY LOUD

i’m going to go insane