I Need To Be More Obnoxiously Trans

i think i might start streaming again

a little

i think i'd have fun playing noita on stream

i’ve decided that instead of going back to a dating app i’m going to set up a big cardboard box propped up with a stick in my university’s park and i’ll put some pink monster energy and estrogen under it and write GAY PEOPLE on it in sharpie and then pull it down on top of anyone who goes for it

my brain has decided it’s time to remind me every 5 minutes that i’m not performing gender roles enough and like

yeah?

that’s kinda how i gender?

but it still insists on telling me that i’m not gendering enough?

egg

it feels more and more like the internet is dying every week

there’s always some new thing happening to fuck up some website i use and all of it just keeps getting less and less usable

i honestly kind of hope we go back to having forums and things like that

my apartment might just be the worst sleeping situation i’ve ever had. my mattress is a box spring that should’ve been replaced years ago. it’s fucking concave. i sleep on my front usually but that’s not really possible unless i want to be sleeping bent backwards. also the outside of the mattress is so fucked that with just a fitted sheet over it the springs are still digging into me. i had a box spring mattress last year it was so much better than this (not good but still way better) and the only way this mattress is remotely ok is if i put my thickest blanket on top of the mattress and sleep on that

so it takes me a while to fall asleep

but then there’s a construction site across the street from me that starts work at FIVE THIRTY IN THE FUCKING MORNING and is EXTREMELY LOUD

i’m going to go insane

i’ve been working on one writing project for a while and another one is sneaking up on me and the only thing stopping it from taking over is that i have no idea how to draw people properly

nvm figured it out lol

I really want to get back into making youtube videos but i just have no idea what to do

what do i make

how do i get people to actually find my channel

i’m getting frustrated about this at this point and i just want to make things again

Maybe they should have kept it casual...

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