Sirius A And B Taken On 13th December 2005 By Hubble Space Telescope

46/100 days of productivity!

To-do: 19.1.25

Read _1P

Textbook session _1P

Class recap_2P

Matlab _1P

Take a walk

Meet up with friend

Journal_mental health check

Yoga b4 bed

sometimes i feel like school sucks everything out of me. i have all this motivation and excitement at the beginning of the week, but then school happens and i have all this useless homework. meanwhile there is stuff i actually want to do and am interested in... but i never have the chance to do them because i'm so tired and i still have homework to do. i feel like i'm sacrificing a bit too much of my self just to please my school and my teachers

on a brighter note, i think i discovered the identity of the unknown acid! i'm super nervous to go back to the lab now though and collaborate with my team. hopefully i'm right :)

🍒 7 feb | D-86 | ⭐️3.5/5 16 / 100 DOP

Time studied: 6 hr

Zoe // 16 // she/her/hers // INTJ

Currently studying physics, chemistry, computer science, calculus, photography. Topics in physics I’m learning about are E&M, thermodynamics, relativity, standard model, cosmology, high-energy astrophysics, and fluids.

I’m interested in dark matter and CMB research. My academic goals right now are mostly focused on getting into university with a major in physics. I want to get a PhD in either physics or astrophysics and work in academia doing cosmology research.

Other fun facts: I play golf and am training in calisthenics. I really like listening to music and I have a really cute cat (he’s a little chunky tho). My favorite show is Voltron Legendary Defender, and my favorite movie is a tie between Oppenheimer and The Social Network.

writing emails at midnight to 850 recipients will never go wrong, right?

physics feels so inaccessible.

like what do you mean the only information on this topic is a power point presentation from ten years ago with only half of the information on it?

or you tell me there's three ways to download the software i need for the calculations, but only one of the ways actually works and you don't even tell me how to do it!!!

never mind the sheer amount of prerequisites. i never struggled with math too much, but i also never took the opportunity to skip a level in math. when i was starting out, you can't do anything without trig. so then i went and learned trig on my own, but then i needed matrices. so i went and i learned matrices and vectors on my own, but now i need calculus. and holy shit is there a lot of stuff within calculus.

half the important papers are hidden behind paywalls and the diagrams are so confusing they take me forever to figure out. maybe i'm just inexperienced, but isn't the whole point of diagrams for the information to be more accessible?????

i might be wrong since i'm young and inexperienced, but it seems as if there's this tone of exclusivity in physics. why is it so hard to find mentors, and when i do, they have such trouble believing in me? i might be young, but i can still understand and help with something. why would you ignore all my emails and just tell me to take the easy way out? i'm in it for the long run.

Study Challenge (13/100) + Board Exams Study Challenge (3/21)

08/February/2025 (Saturday) [👩🏻‍🎤]

Productivity Stars: 0/5 ⭐

📝🌲: 2 hours

🎧: Sailor Song - Gigi Perez

💌: Despite barely studying anything today, I feel relieved. The reason is that my sister and I sang a lot to karaoke. My throat hurts from all the high notes I tried to hit, but voice cracks were the only thing that blessed my parents' ears. 😹

☕ 27.01.2025 // I completed my to do list and had a latte with a friend (Yes, we both took a latte ahah) 🩷

📖 X

🎧 The adults are talking - The Strokes

it’s a grey week so far— the kind where you can already smell the petrichor and the grass is damp with anticipation but there’s no droplets of rain when i look up at the sky

its an endless sea of fatigue. constant repetition of the same days and same assignments and same hopes and dreams. everyone expects every ounce of your energy or none at all— a limbo between pressure and vengeance

i’m trapped inside my own head, wishing for an alternate existence knowing i need to face the world. hopefully i get the courage soon

45/100 days of productivity!

Morning loves <3 It’s the weekend … I’m taking a slow day…

🎧kai

to-do:

Morning yoga

Morning reading session

Laundry and meds

Run few errands

Class recap 2P

mental health check _journal

Call home

Read before bed