I Know Many People Have Said It. I Know Everyone Knows. But I'm Going To Say It Again.

If you ever feel like a failure romance wise, just remember that Kavinsky manage to fumble Ronan Lynch over text, then he fumbled him again whilst he was high, and then fumbled him again so badly he actually blew himself up

Now that I finished my second read of tsc, there's only one reasonable thing to do.

*Neil Josten let his cigarette burn to the filter without taking a drag.*

holy shit

Work’s finally chilled out a bit!

POV: Nicky is taking pictures of the team arriving for another match 🤭

i get the feeling that aaron doesn’t like andreil much 😔

reference picture:

i was scrolling through pinterest, saw this picture and thought: it’s them it is so them.

(is it bad that i want to do a clean version of this silly thing??)

Are you coming to the fourth?

i have a problem BECAUSE HEARTBREAK HIGH X THE RAVEN CYCLE CROSSOVERS ARE MAKING ME GO FUCKING CRAZY AND I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO ABOUT THIS (this shit is full of shit and long, but hmo)

I am talking about Cash & Chook = Ronan & Kavinsky parallels, you see

Chook & Kavinsky are pretty obvious, i think. Both are from fucked up families, we can assume both are from families with drug problems and overall substance abuse. They both were kids whose fate was pretty much laid infront of them to follow.

Ronan and Ca$h, also pretty fucked up families, parents gone, not many people from family to lean on, choosing found families, choosing to get better. (word of the day) Also both, are connected to self harming in a way or another.

We also have the scene in HBH where Woodsy calls Chook by his real name (Michael Cooper) and Chook shouts

"That's not my name!"

I am aware this is very subtle and on the border of overanalyzing (and might just be the characters whose pov Kavinsky was told from) but not a single character in trc has called Kavinsky only by his first name (hear me out now)

Later on when Chook and Cash are stuck in the middle of the lake we get to know how Ca$h got his name, Chook saying that he gave Ca$h his name. So I can only assume Chook also gave himself a name. Maybe to be separated as a person from the person he was before.

How we get to Kavinsky is that maybe Kavinsky is all the same, separating his own persona from him by only using his family name.

Getting to other parallels, (now remember Ronan = Cash)

We don't know shit about details (whats that? never heard?) but we can assume.

Chook was the one who helped Ca$h before Nan was in the picture, gave Ca$h a name, a place, a family (more or less), a place to belong

Kavinsky offered all the same, obviously we know that there was some sexual attraction and tension and just Kavinsky pining. But Kavinsky asked Ronan to be one of his, offered Ronan a place to belong, where Ronan could shamelessly be himself. Kavinsky saw all of Ronan what Gansey didn't want to know and acknowledge, that Ronan could be the same as Kavinsky and is the same as Kavinsky, dangerous, destructive, the list goes on.

Ca$h, young Ca$h didn't have anyone else than Chook, but then he did. Then he did have Darren, Harper, Quinni, Amerie, all of them. There isnt such a difference. Kavinsky doesn't have anything else (worth staying for, it seems) but Ronan has Gansey, has Gangsey.

Chook had chosen his lifestyle, Cash even offered Chook that he could change too, Chook declined and said that its his shit. He chose his future.

Kavinsky, too, had chosen his lifestyle, or maybe either of them couldn't think that they could get away from it. He chose his fate, by not getting down and getting killed by his own demon. It was his shit.

So back to the lake scene, now paralleling the last dreaming day and 4th of July.

Let me put these two scenes here, first from TRC

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The difference between us and Kavinsky, Gansey whispered in Ronan’s head, is we matter.

“You don’t fucking need him,” Kavinsky said.

Ronan released the parking brake.

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Chook: Look can we stop fucking about please. You're one of us. So why don't we just cut the shit and get back to how things were?

Cash: You don't get it, I can't.

Both, at the end refused to get back to whatever it was they had, they chose to get better.

While Chook & Kavinsky didn't. (yes im repeating this because theres so so so so so many times Ronan offered a possibility to Kavinsky and Kavinsky didn't take it because he couldn't have Ronan anyway (Cash wasn't that hopeful and asked only once))

Now, there's (still the lake) scene where Chook talks about how it was "me, who took care of you, me who.. , me me me." and theres Kavinsky, who taught Ronan how to dream.

More lines !

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Cash: I haven't been taken in by some other world. I just saw ours for what it was. And it made me sick.

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Going to how Cash and Ronan both, realised that the world they lived/could've chosen is not good. Is the wrong way and leads to more harm than good.

To the last part.

Cash telling Chook that he'd rather be dead than come back to Chook, go back to the world he now despises, (or always has.)

There's the way that Chook breaks when he hears that. The blinks his tears away, nods, gulps, sniffs, turns away and grunts, spits, acting fine. Tries the boat again and says, "Guess I just needed to show it a bit of love."

Now I haven't been able to actually get full sense of that line yet, but theres a deeper meaning to that (which rlly fucking annoys me that i dont know) But theres also Kavinsky when Ronan leaves the new dreamt up Camaro, hitting air, turning around, threatening, his voice shifting, expressing his feelings with rage but still hiding them. Like Chook did.

I'm aware there's probably many stories like this with character's like these, but their actions too, their personalities (not Ronan and Cash so much but I can see a (canon) Kavinsky variant in Chook, both running around with their pack of dogs.)

Anyway if you're as fucked as me and read this through, lmk what you think, (i repeated the same things over and over again but spare me)

sometimes im normal then sometimes i think about how many teenagers die in trc and how gut renching eacho f their deaths are and like bro. it really shows how muc hthey love eachother and even just how much they care and how pure they are even when one of them is literally Not Human and stuff. like ive never read another series of books that is so l.ike this. even with Kavinsky's death Ronan is like oh my god oh moy god he just killed himself wtf wtf and he literally shouts "Get down!!" to K before the dragon literally gets him. and like Noahs death even tho noone but welk (blueurhggh) whitnessed the inital death they are all like extremely rattled and greve him still. and likeGansey dying oml oml gannnseeyyy dying and everyones reactions oml. theyre so human it hurts so fucking bad. and also ronans suicide attempt (i have thoughts on this ill make another post) and how gansey had been so fucking focused on him afterwards like he cares so fucking much. declan cares so much about him too he was so worried about ronan and i genuinely think its beyond his love of matthew. even when welk gets trampled they arent like "YAAAY villian dead :)" theyre like oh my god thats a dead guy thats a fucking dead guy they are so human i love them so much so much so much

the story of the damned generation of young witches and wizards, who were placed to a war before they even lived

or how everyone dies

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hell if i know how to promote fics here but if you're feeling angsty and want something angsty to read, im writing a marauders fic where everyone dies

and thats the plot, 11 chapters for each marauder's death in order

at this moment (this day, this minute) i have posted 2/11 = Regulus' and Evan's deaths and next in line is Marlene

I've once again used songs as inspiration and every chapter has it's own song and lyrics where its inspired of

Will never ever everrr get over the boat scene in the dream thieves cause what do u mean there was so much hetero tension, with tits and male hornyness flying around that ronans only response is to laugh his head off??? Like for an uncomfortably long time?? Iconic kinda