I Found These Passages Incredibly Important.

Irritates the hell out of me when people respond to a post or comment like, "everyone does this, it's not just [disorder/illness/neurotype], it's called being a person."

Yeah and everyone coughs once in a while but it doesn't mean someone with pneumonia doesn't cough?? It doesn't mean pneumonia doesn't cause coughing??

Everyone gets dizzy once in a while but it doesn't mean vertigo doesn't exist??

Just about every symptom or group-common trait is going to be experienced by people who don't belong to those groups or have that disorder. It's about the frequency and intensity with which that symptom or trait comes up.

People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.

I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.

I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.

There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me

y’all gotta give it to got7 bc they could have left jyp and be done with it but here they are coordinating comebacks and making music together just for the love of the game like jaebeom has become got7’s attorney just so they could hang and make music together and hold concerts for their fans it wasn’t expected of him but he’s been at it for years on top of getting all the other members together between different countries and schedules and enlistment bless this man and thank god we have got7 releasing their bangers every few years to remind us why music and being a fan is fun

Sometimes I have the feeling there's a monster living in my head. Sometimes I think I'm going crazy.

All these thoughts scare me to death. I know that I will never follow one. I know that I am not violent. Yet I can't look myself in the eye and I feel so lonely, so wrong about it.

I wish my head would just be quiet...