"Everyone's A Little Bit Autistic"

Pile I   -  Friedel Anderson , 2013.

German,  b. 1954  -  

Oil on canvas , 80 x 65 cm

I truely adore this...❤ he deserved so much better when he was alive. He is a true legend in my eyes.

I was thinking the other day and this thought came to me. When I finally decide to do tattoos , at least one of them is going to be Vincent van Gogh related, as my ode to him ( one of my favourite painters ) , cuz he only thought that he is the only person in the whole world that will forever love paintings that he made and no one else will do that … well I will carry one until my last day on this Earth so think again Vincent . I truly hope that he is in better place now and that he actually became one of his oh so adored stars that made him happy so lovingly much.

Here’s a small, pretty personal comic, about how growing up with undiagnosed autism has led to me struggling to share negative emotions with other people. (I think unfortunately many can relate to this)

Big mood

hey i don’t know who needs to hear this but your pain is bad enough. when you are used to pain, it’s easy to think that only a 7/10 or higher is reason to rest or be kind to yourself or even just to count as bad. your pain does not need to be the worst you’ve had to deserve treatment. your pain does not have to be as bad as someone else’s to deserve treatment and compassion. if you are in pain enough to be thinking about it, you are in pain, and that pain deserves compassion.

(Tw for ableism and lack of autonomy)

I want to talk about the issues with touching somebody's AAC device, and how it feels when people do that to me.

I've spoken about this a bit before, but I have more thoughts on it now that I feel like expressing.

People touch my device a lot, and they very rarely have permission. Whether its because they want to prevent me from moving too far away so they'll grab my devices strap, or they press random buttons, or pull it toward them, or push in my puffy stickers, or to search through my private folder, or something else, people tend to touch my AAC device without my consent. It has gotten to the point that my lockscreen has to say "My communication device functions as a body part, do not touch it without my direct consent." And I have a label on the back of the case that says "COMMUNICATION DEVICE PLEASE DO NOT TOUCH!".

When people do these things it feels extremely invasive, like someone touching your mouth or putting their hands in your throat. Its gross, uncomfortable, scary and weird.

It is also super important to note that a lot of nonspeaking people have sensory issues. You have lotion on your hands? The lotion rubbing off may have just ruined that persons device until cleaned. Also, bacteria is very much a thing.

I have to wipe down my device with sanitary wipes a lot, because I set it on all sorts of surfaces, and lots of people touch it. People who probably have dirty hands.

I personally don't, but some people attach chewies to their AAC device, or bite on the case. That makes the sanitary issues even more intense.

I also stim using tangles a lot, and I also have a ton of anxiety around children touching me or my things. Last school year, a kid at my school touched one of my tangles despite me telling him not to, and then I was unable to use that one for at least a month. My point of bringing that up is just, please don't touch peoples things without permission, especially disability aids.

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Autism traits in girls

Creative talents

Loves animals

Practices conversations in mind

Routine is important to them

Dislike of conflict

Anxiety

Adopts behavior to fit in

May talk a lot about favorite topics

Artistic

Sensitive

Unique sense of humor

May appear shy

Trusting

Escapes through imagination

OCD tendencies

Enjoys spending time alone

Love of writing

Unsure when it’s their time to talk

Perfectionist

Musical

May feel out of place in this world

May appear young for their age

Unusual eye contact

Note: individuals can have these traits and not be autistic

Autism

And finally we meet Lune!!! :D She seems nice, and fabulous!

Edit later: I’m on mobile so I’ll fix links and stuff like that later!

Me: *knitting casually* LOUD THUNDER CLAP Me: 😱😬😳 *KNITS FASTER*

Me on the weekly 🤧