Enjoy-it-while-it-lasts - 🔜

the mountain goats make music for people who spent their entire lives convinced they would die before they were 17 except now they're 26 and they have a job and friends and hobbies and they're not sure what they're meant to do now that they've survived

i take immense pride in being able to break away from the zeitgeist of celebrity worship culture. i do not give a shit about their personal lives, i don’t care who they are dating or what they’re wearing, i don’t want to meet any of them. i love how they don’t know who i am, just like i don’t know who they really are. celebrities don’t care about me and i don’t care about them, i only care about their work. and that’s a very healthy mindset to have.

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“A self that goes on changing is a self that goes on living.”

— Virginia Woolf

in other news, my grandfather died yesterday. he was suffering from dementia and got physical four years ago when i last visited him. he was in and out of hospitals for a while. i was told there was some kind of tumor. they just dropped it on me nonchalantly. i feel nothing. i want to disappear and never be found.

Hokkaido - Japan’s Northernmost Island