#PrisonStrike

im still super fuckin salty that 2 of my instructors for my psych degree specifically mentioned not wearing makeup and feminine clothes as a sign of “deteriorating mental health.” specifically, that if a woman walks into your practice, and you’ve never seen her before, and she’s not wearing makeup or dressing up or shaving, then she’s going to be a “difficult case” and when she starts to do these things it’s a sign that therapy is progressing well.

especially since when i was at Rock Fucking Bottom ™ i was over-performing femininity as a) a way to dissociate from myself, my trauma, and the dysphoria i was experiencing and b) a last-ditch effort to get Approval, Validation, and Attention when i felt like i was unattractive and worthless. don’t let anyone tell you that “psychology used to have a misogyny problem and issues with pathologizing gender nonconformity, but it’s solved now because more women than men are earning psych degrees!!” because the problems are still very much there, they just change forms every couple of decades.

controversial: dumbledore would’ve made the right decision taking the 1991-1992 house cup away from slytherin even if harry and co. hadn’t saved the school and stopped voldemort from returning to power

so, i'm just daydreaming about geralt and jaskier,

as per usual,

and i made myself sad thinking about geralt apologising for snapping on the mountain, kinda curling in on himself, feeling slightly ashamed but also wary? cause when has he ever been graced with forgiveness? how often do people allow him to explain his actions? how many humans take the time to listen and be patient as he tries to express how... difficult it is, processing emotions when all his life he's been told he has none. so he resigns himself to losing his friend completely, prepares for a dismissive tone and a cold rejection,

and then,

hearing jaskier sigh and tell him that it's okay, that sure he was sad and a little angry at first, but time has passed and his love has always been stronger than his hate, and sure they'll need to talk about it more when ciri isn't around because they both need to be more communicative, but for now, it's okay and he forgives him,

but, not only that, he's sorry too! he should have given geralt maybe some time, a little space - for he had just lost yennefer and maybe he shouldn't have made light of the situation in the same breath as geralt's heart being broken?

like,

can you imagine?

geralt's reaction??

like how many people have apologised to him in the past? how many people have forgiven him but then went on to offer their own sincere regret in regards to the actions they've taken against him??

like, visenna will never apologise to him for what she did. the elder witchers will never apologise for what they did. stregobor won't, other witchers and humans and mages won't, geralt has probably never had someone offer themselves up for his forgiveness! either because they think there's nothing for him to forgive, or that he should simply shoulder what they've done, or they think themselves above such quaint little customs.

and idk,

geralt being apologised to,

jaskier forgiving him,

all the feelings which blossom and flood geralt's veins, it makes him a little dizzy, a little winded, his throat closes up and his mouth falls open in a silent acceptance - ciri probably softly elbows him to jolt him out of his stupor,

but jaskier shakes his head because he understands. with a small smile, he cocks his head and says i understand,

which probably rocks geralt even more, because even now, after the years that have passed, the bard can still decipher him on levels not even vesemir can touch,

and invites them to drink with him.

a gentle offer of friendship reborn,

and one which geralt takes with eager appreciation.

You get to the river of Styx and I’m the boatman and I tell you to get in and it’s just a big one of these

this is gonna be controversial (lol), but y’all gotta remember blogs aren’t celebrities with their own PR teams.

if you find something a blogger said insensitive, it probably is! privilege & social environment leave way too many blindspots for that to never happen. and it’s super okay to alert people to their blindspots! but do so with the awareness that those not used to having their speech policed by strangers may respond with baffled defensiveness if you come at them aggressively.

and when that happens, whipping out the “you’re not the man I thought I married” speech, and giving yourself permission to go into full cuss-out beast mode is like………………unproductive and kinda mean-spirited

I see a lot of “yennefer made a choice and chose being transformed over having kids, then regretted her choice” and I think that… honestly really overestimates the amount of agency she had (or felt that she had)

At least according to the books, mages from Aretuza (where ugly/flawed girls go) must be transformed to hold court positions and all mages in general are forcibly sterilized. Taken in as young, gifted children, manipulated by their elders, taught that they have to do magic this way or risk going insane and/or being hunted down for being a rogue mage.

So… yes, she had a choice. In a sense. Making the choice that would allow her more (perceived) freedom serving a court and then realizing that that’s not how it actually worked makes it understandable to feel regret.

Someone linked me this. (https://www.facebook.com/mcgregazil/posts/10218725218181118)

Goldilocks & the 3 bears joke.