Thoughts For A Do-not-disturb Sign I Need As Goth With ADHD:

I walked past a goth shop today and it looked really cool so here's a drawing about a goth shop :-)

The idea that being autistic is now “trendy” and a diagnosis can give you social clout is so laughably divorced from reality. I can assure you that beyond Extremely Online Niche Communities, autism is still incredibly stigmatized. You can lose custody battles over your children or be coerced into a conservatorship based on an autism diagnosis in America in 2024, “Autistic” is still very much used as an insult among edgy teens, and I’m seeing the r-slur have a bit of a resurgence. I, an autistic adult, am afraid to tell employers about my diagnosis lest my superiors treat me like a child or decide that I’m not a “culture fit” and fire me. There are still “treatment” centers that use electric shocks on their autistic charges, and autistic students die in “quiet rooms” (aka solitary for disabled kids) at schools or end up being murdered outright by their caregivers for being “too much”. In many scenarios, it is unpleasant or unsafe to be visibly autistic, and the idea that people are somehow gaining “clout” with their autism diagnoses is a gigantic slap in the face to the many autistic people who are being subjected to horrific ableism right now.

Neurodivergent alt kids joking about “Autistic Rizz” on The Clock App do not an accepting mainstream society make. Please go outside.

I've only ever seen this post in screen shots so im not sure who posted this originally on this fine ass site but i need to talk about it

Story time

As a young girl I as introduced to Star Wars by my uncle he loves Star Wars more than me and that saying something. He even LOVES the prequels... Which I admire him for.

Anyway I was brought up by my mum and dad on your traditional disney princess story i.e. Girl must find man to solve her problems and to be happy. Bless my mum she always tried to tell me that that I didnt have to do that but was like "whaaattt but cinderella had to find a prince so must I!" But heres the thing I never wanted to be the princess i wanted to be the one who did the saving but i felt like i couldnt because thats not what girls do.

Then!

Then I watch the original star wars trilogy for the first time my mind was blown (yeah yeah the bikini was a low point) BUT Here was a woman who was also a princess who was sassy could shoot a fucking gun and out talk most of the empire without trying. I found my first role model who i could truly relate to AND aspire to be like.

As i grew up misogyny became a thing i was acutely aware of (fucking high school bull shit) but i kept going back to my role model my princess and resisting the idea that i was a second class citizen just because I had boobs. I delved in the the interviews with Carrie Fisher and i grew to love her more than her character! She was a real person who told people to fuck off and did what she wanted. I love her so much

When she died it hit me hard, dispite never knowing or meeting me in person she had helped shaped me in to the woman I'm proud to be today. And now she's just not around anymore.

So when people say stuff about Star Wars in a negative way it hurts because it shaped a big part of who i am today. I'm just saying this so y'all know George Lucas did this by accident he didn't intend for Leia to be a bad ass woman Carrie Fisher acted her that way, so its not a perfect example of women in film. But sometimes you have to take what you can get. That is why star wars is my favourite films of all time forget the lightsabers and the cool bad guys in masks. It inspired an 8yr old me to love myself all because of one woman

Carrie Fisher you are an amazing woman and I love you and I'm sad you are gone

I will leave you with my favourite quote of hers that one day i will probably get a tattoo of

"Stay afraid, but do it anyway. What important is the action. You don't have to wait to be confident. Just do it, eventually the confidence will follow"

Now you’ve read all my ramblings please enjoy this thing I made

me aged 13: I will kill myself and everyone around me if I get another maths homework sheet 🤬😡 [gothic music plays]

me now: haha I can purchase a new beverage at any time. tee hee [gothic music plays]

Carrie Fisher photographed by Douglas Kirkland in New York in 1980.

The thing about ADHD is that the "lack of reward chemicals in your brain" doesn't just mean that you don't want to do any tasks that don't feel particularly yummy :(, it means that your brain will look at chores and tasks that need to be done like "doing this would be painful and tedious for absolutely nothing to gain from it, Do Not Do That." The same thing that your brain tells you about everything else that would feel really bad and hurt the entire time that you're dying. The part of your brain that stops you from doing the thing is the same part that keeps you from shoving your arm into a wood chipper.

With unmedicated, unmanaged ADHD, "I have to do this assignment or I fail and my life will be ruined and I die" feels like a SAW trap, every single time.