I Need To Be Knocked Out

There’s something so bittersweet about August.

About trying to savour those last little bits of the summer. Of the constant ache in your chest. The sunshine. The uncertainty.

I drive by so many empty childhood homes. They look the same, but there’s a solemn silence. You used to live there, remember that? I do.

The summer is ending. The leaves are changing.

But as always, August comes and goes, and with it so do I.

I embrace it, and I embrace you. Crying, and laughing, and saying goodbye with a smile.

(Maybe) I’ll see you again next year

Sincerely,

A girl homesick for a place she hasn’t left yet

Took a long time to register heh😅

We try to act fun to make the other person feel comfortable. But this doesn't work. We act the other way. Again this doesn’t work. Or any other way. If a person is not even an ounce of interested in you, even if you try a world of things, it won't work any good. This is how my balance gets disrupted. Never change to make people happy. You will suffer. Always be yourself

quote from Dead Girls Don’t Cry ✟

The trick is to do it without shame. Literally anything could be cool if you just did it shamelessly

The pain is overwhelming and there's nothing I can do or take to stop it. Cutting myself isn't enough.

“We need fantasy to survive because reality is too difficult.”

— Lady Gaga

I want to die.

But, I'm not gonna try to kms

Too much commitment

… I realized I’m an outsider again

I worked so hard to avoid this feeling

But it seems I always isolate myself with my mistakes

I put to much pressure on myself

and my relationships

leaving me to start over and once again,

be alone

- Divine