1 Week left to easter, 2 weeks when we come back , then that is …. it for school . forever
we are off for exams from may but our final official day is june …. i’m going try and come in and see her frequently before this
it actually rips my heart up though because although i’ll probably ask her if we can stay in touch , i’m not guaranteed to see her ever again
i think our story just ended. made a reason to go into school today and she had left by the time i got there. tomorrow is the last day of term and there’s so little chance of seeing her and i have no reason to be there . but i wanted to apologise for the email and leave a way to get in touch but our last interaction is now just a normal conversation and that stupid email. i know it’s stupid to think that her leaving early today had anything to do with me but i can’t stop thinking that she wants to avoid me.
she’s not going to be here all summer as she’s going travelling so i can’t even dream about running into her some random day, and the next time i could see her is next year now if even .
i don’t want to email her again because i feel like she hates me but i feel so…. crushed
how does 7 years and all those chats and silly memories just end on a random week day and i didn’t even know it was the last one ?
Dark Academia | WLW
j told me how she loves x files and gillian anderson so naturally i had to start watching it (also may or may not have looked at her facebook many times and one of her old profile photos is gillian anderson. i’m so sad she doesn’t use social media anymore though she said she doesn’t like it )
Auguste Rodin - Eternal Springtime, 1884
i want to cook her dinner so bad
why does a fucking teacher need to look so hot
the doom in our blood comes back.
- sophocles, antigone, trans. seamus heaney
also gillian anderson avatar fuck yeah. she’s so hot and kind of looks like j 🥰also j said to me that she’s hot once so ….. even more reason
she said talking to me is always pleasant and that she thought about me yesterday ??????