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Hayao Miyazaki

a reminder for you (but mainly for me)

the ideal university experience is a myth - all your mutuals on instagram posting about all their cool parties and cool friends don't live everyday like that, they probably don't look like that everyday either, people will only show you their best moments. people can be immature in uni just like they were in college and in school, coming to uni doesn't suddenly make you mature and neither does it make anyone else either. friendship breakups and all that petty shit happens to everyone. you're there to get a degree and not make friends, if the living environment or the people put you off, do you really want it that badly? i think i lost all my uni friends today because of a misunderstanding, some of them are in my classes and one is my flatmate who i can't avoid. but its only my foundation year and i'll meet other people next year. and when people have real jobs they have to work with people they dont like aswell, so its kinda like practice for the future. i think i'm gonna get back into movie reviews, drawing and painting again, and i was considering starting fencing? i think it would be fun. and i'm going to take my iron medication and vitamins too. because being alone isn't the end of the world. until next time (which is probably soon) Amina

The Boy and The Beast (2015)

Following the story of Ren, a nine year old boy who runs away and becomes the apprentice of Kumatetsu, a brash beast. Together, they fight obstacles within themselves and one another amidst a journey to save the world. To be completely honest, I haven't watched any movies in a long long time, but I was on a nostalgic spiral the other day and one of my childhood youtubers TheAnimeMan recommended this movie in one of his videos. My interest in this film was further sparked as it's directed by Mamoru Hosoda, the mastermind behind Wolf Children (2012), a film which I love dearly.

The narrative takes an alternate twist on the structure of a Heroes Journey. I loved how Ren and Kumatetsu defy the typical dynamic of master and student, their dynamic fuelling their character arcs on both sides. Films within this genre often change the core personalities of their protagonists within their arcs, however Ren and Kumatetsu both remain lovably the same in that aspect,stubborn, boisterous and impulsive. The world of Jutengai is vivid, colourful and immersive, in both visuals and character. Soft world building is impeccably done and draws you in as you learn about the kingdom alongside Ren. His journey in identity as he wavers between the two worlds is something I relate immensely to. There's not a lot more I can say without giving away spoilers, but I will mention I love the dynamic between Ren and Ichirohiko, and the unexpected friendship between Ren and Jiromaru. Please do watch the film, I heavily encourage you all! As I've returned to tumblr with a warmth in my heart. I hope I can watch more like it. Until next time!! Amina

All the bad hoes STILL on tumblr.

guess whos back

whats up!!

i'm officially a university student and a year has passed, i'll catch you guys up soon, right now i'm sat in the library trying to organise my life on notion.

i hope to get back into movie content and diary posting, currently im studying media, film and television production with a foundation year. i'd like to think this blog had a part in that.

i'll see you all very very soon :) - Amina

twas the night before aqa sociology and ocr media paper 1 and your former study obsessed girl had given up on life

Yumi Sakugawa

STOP WAITING FOR SOMETHING THAT WILL NEVER COME!

THERE WILL BE NO CALL TO ADVENTURE, YOU HAVE TO CHASE IT YOURSELF!!

“I don’t think that there’s anything worse than being ordinary.”

American Beauty (1999)

it's 00:06 am and I'm 18, I can't stop crying over this email from my sociology teacher lol.

what's up, it's 1:33 am and I'm watching twinkling watermelon bc my schools IT dictator forgot to ban kdrama websites, hopefully I'll have 6 months of recaps for you by 8pm tmrw! I'll have to borrow a library computer to edit them though,

c u later lol

Amimi

i really dislike it when people don’t understand perfectionism.

like, it isn’t always “person who has tons of motivation and spends a ton of time making this thing *just* right”

wayyyyyy more often than not it’s:

”I know that if I try to make this thing, it won’t be perfect, so I simply won’t try.”

which definitely sounds bad, right? but when you realize that it doesn’t just apply to voluntarily making art, then you realize how perfectionism is not at all a good thing in any context. 

“i know that if I try to work on this assignment right now, it won’t be good enough, so i’ll wait until the last possible moment so that I have something forcing me to do it.”

”i know that I should start going to the gym, but I won’t see any improvement right away, so I just won’t.”

”i know that i should brush my teeth tonight, but that won’t be good enough to undo the fact that i haven’t brushed them 4 days in a row, so I just won’t.”

perfectionism isn’t the uncontrollable impulse to make things “just right”. (although it can occasionally manifest as this.)

perfectionism is the absolute, psychological inability to accept the concepts of “good enough” and “better than nothing”. even when you spell it out for yourself in a long text post like this.

isn’t it weird how it’s already february but it’s also only february

whats up what's up, my school IT admin has gone a bit mad with power and blocked social media, films, games etc from any device linked to our school system which means this blog has taken quite a blow as the only legit means of watching I have are film4 and BBCIPlayer so I can't just do whatever I like now. nevertheless i thought I'd let you know that this blog has not been abandoned at all and I've just taken some time away from social media to try and get back on track with school - however I aim on posting my remaining drafts and uploading my Jan recap next week!!

ps - if you know any other legit movie websites then let me know

see you soon!

Aminaurrrr

another important thing to remember is 1) u can pick up any hobby at any point in ur life and get outstandingly good at it & 2) the project u've been working on & aren't pleased w the current outcome so far will not be your last. u will draw/crochet/paint/sculpt/write another piece, and another, and you will have many chances to be fully content w your craft. so you should cherish the joy of making art instead of worrying ab the results & think ab how lovely it is that we're all vessels for artistry and we can share the divine act of creation!!!!!

hi its 30 mins past midnight, I'll be sure to post the rest of the updates and recaps soon! I've been occupied with ppe revision and I'm getting really humbled rn over crying over a guy I haven't even dated or spoken to for that long so yay ig, I'll see you all next week

Trying to identify someone's time zone by the hours that they're active on Tumblr is commiting the logical fallacy of assuming that anyone on here has a regular sleep schedule

september struggles

Sat 30th Sep - 22:06 what's up! it's the start of a new (and for me, final) academic year.

this month has been so much and so little at the same time? if that even makes sense. i'm slowly learning to use an actual camera. so far i've borrowed two different models from my youth foundation, the canon eos m50 and the canon 200d with a 50mm kit lense. I found the m50 really fun to use and i picked up on how to use it really quickly! i had more difficulty with the 200D, or more specifically the ability to zoom in and out? i looked up tutorials on youtube but i couldn't find anything. anyways it was really zoomed in which i didn't really like seeing as i'm learning to use cameras for the sake of making a film portfolio, so i found i liked the other camera more as it felt more flexible. on the more school-focused side of things, i had a ton of trouble on my media coursework, which i found incredibly hard to start on - the aim was to make a film magazine which i haven't done a lot for yet - my teacher said my initial drafts feel more like a fashion or editorial magazine than anything else i had aimed to catch up for sociology entirely, but i only managed to do one of 4 sections.

i think the first month back to school is always the hardest, it weirds me out thinking this is my last first month back ever. growing up feels weird. until next time! Amina p.s - times flown by so fast, its weird looking back and editing this in my drafts, i'm somehow posting on new years eve but its better late than never!

hey hey hey its been a long while, I'm very aware I missed out my September and October recaps but I'll be sure to post those alongside my November recap soon, this have been very all over the place but I hope to get back on track soon

feeling like him lately

do you heavily relate to darlington’s extreme longing for anything magical and extraordinary or are you normal

Shut the hell up …

what up!! do you ever randomly have memories of complete strangers pop into your head?! I recall this one lady with blond hair and glasses and her ginger curly haired son from the line in poundland when I was younger. I don't remember what they said but I think I was anxious about being left in the line alone while mum popped off to get something she'd forgotten? she was so kind. I still remember her face so vividly.

i considered completely scrapping 7 days 7 movies after the first post completely flopped, but i figured that since i haven't really cared about notes on any of my other series of posts i should really do something with the brief drafts? so, give me some time to catch up on my current work and i'll be sure to post the rest of the series all at once!?!?!

this is one of many, many, many notifs. first corn accs now bots oml tumblr give me a break pls

an adjourned august abridgement

when it comes to alliteration thesaurus.com is an angel.

i realise this post is incredibly late, it's simply slipped my mind. to be completely honest, not alot went down during august, i visited bradford to reunite with my lovely younger cousins! i went shopping in cannon mills, which i'd like to think is the bengali/pakistani equivalent of a farmers market, and went shopping, and went shopping, did i mention shopping?

we did facemasks, enjoyed a vibrant funfair! went to the park to push around my cousins on the swings, visited my grandmas old house with my favourite cousin, visited my cousins new house, lots and lots of arguments between cousins and being told off and lectured for making the younger ones cry and visited other cousins (take a shot for every time i said the word cousin(s) ) in terms of schoolwork, not a whole lot occurred but towards the end of the month, (as in the 31st of august, the day of the deadline) i entered for the Immerse Essay Competition! in the film studies category! that was an experience in and of itself and after the results are announced (which to be honest, i'm not very hopeful for) i'll be sure to post about the competition in detail along with my essay! that's all for now! until next time! Amina