My Mom Says She’s Not A Hugger. But When I Put My Arms Around Her On A Gloomy Day Or After Bad News

if you're not obsessed with anything weird and niche please try harder. stop going outside for a while. consider getting weirder about the things you already like

there's 50 people following this blog! and reading my rambles about life and dumb things i say. that's so cute lol

a post about NCS at 00:05am

Monday 25 July 2022 i know when you use 24 hour time format you aren't supposed to specify am or pm but idk i can't say the time without it. it feels like there's something missing i am going on my residential trip for NCS in less than 8 and a half hours, and as a brown girl with strict parents that's exciting

i've scoured tiktok and i'm kinda scared ngl, why is it being described as love island?!?!?! that's like the worst thing you could say. (to any love island fanatics, i do apologise if this is insulting, i have in fact seen one clip of the show in which the islanders seriously discuss how lizard people in suits run the world and immediately noped out and never touched it again) anywaysss my friend kota said it was pretty cool, i'm kinda disappointed because she's not going to be there with me (we signed up with the intention of it being our last summer before we go to different colleges and likely never see eachother again) but oh well. i'm going to be forced to make new friends and do sports. i'm going to scour twitter and tumblr for posts about NCS and then go to sleep see you in five days! Amimi

2am, sweater weather, french, books, pastel flower patterned curtains, a moonless night, warm candlelight, artwork tacked onto walls, materials strewn across the floor, grey furry rugs, white furniture with silver hardware, 3 white walls and a single sage green, antique jewellery boxes from my grandma, memory box on my bedside table, rings and chokers, earrings and necklaces, nail files, jade rollers, makeup brushes, matte lipstick

my god. i dug through the jungle in my room and found reminders of all the trips and memories from the past and now i wanna scream and laugh and cry and smile all at the same fucking time and its overwhelming

it's 00:04 and i'm 17.

emotion is the hardest thing. you can know why you feel a certain way, what makes you feel that way, every detail inside and out but you can't actually put a stop to it. you'll just be going on with things and realise you don't feel that way anymore, for how long do things have to go on for until that realisation though. i'm stressing myself out by waiting.

Few of my favourite things from the fashion of dark academia

he watched howls moving castle and decided to make movie howl his new personality

Darlington, demon and gentleman of Lethe, canonically reads and enjoys Diana Wynne Jones books

of course i find out the black phone is finally on the istreaming website i normally use when i need to sleep so i can get up for ncs, i'm gonna oijfiojgoithjhion. this is my motivation to get through five days