Its Already Been 2 Months Of Being 16 What

Hayao Miyazaki

do you heavily relate to darlington’s extreme longing for anything magical and extraordinary or are you normal

i know i talked about buying the tweed jacket in the end but i didn’t have enough money so i bought a puma hoodie instead lmao

broke academia things

curling up in the corner of a public library and pretending you live there 

taking pictures of the ruins of your local cathedral because you need those aesthetic pictures for your blog

staring longingly at the tweed jacket you’ll never afford in the shop window

wearing the same red turtleneck (the only one you happen to own) in every outfit you can in a hundred different ways

staring longingly at the tweed jacket in the shop window

impulsively buying the tweed jacket and putting yourself in financial debt for the sake of aesthetic (totally worth it) 

i really dislike it when people don’t understand perfectionism.

like, it isn’t always “person who has tons of motivation and spends a ton of time making this thing *just* right”

wayyyyyy more often than not it’s:

”I know that if I try to make this thing, it won’t be perfect, so I simply won’t try.”

which definitely sounds bad, right? but when you realize that it doesn’t just apply to voluntarily making art, then you realize how perfectionism is not at all a good thing in any context. 

“i know that if I try to work on this assignment right now, it won’t be good enough, so i’ll wait until the last possible moment so that I have something forcing me to do it.”

”i know that I should start going to the gym, but I won’t see any improvement right away, so I just won’t.”

”i know that i should brush my teeth tonight, but that won’t be good enough to undo the fact that i haven’t brushed them 4 days in a row, so I just won’t.”

perfectionism isn’t the uncontrollable impulse to make things “just right”. (although it can occasionally manifest as this.)

perfectionism is the absolute, psychological inability to accept the concepts of “good enough” and “better than nothing”. even when you spell it out for yourself in a long text post like this.

conann>>>>>>

guess whos back

whats up!!

i'm officially a university student and a year has passed, i'll catch you guys up soon, right now i'm sat in the library trying to organise my life on notion.

i hope to get back into movie content and diary posting, currently im studying media, film and television production with a foundation year. i'd like to think this blog had a part in that.

i'll see you all very very soon :) - Amina

Isn’t it funny how humanity seems to have a knack for turning anything into art? Clothes became fashion, buildings became architecture, plants became gardens, the list goes on.

The way humans romaniticize and find beauty in everything is adorable.

there's 50 people following this blog! and reading my rambles about life and dumb things i say. that's so cute lol

daniel. fucking. arlington.