Everyday Is A New Try 🙏

Derler ki, okyanusa kavuşmadan önce nehir korkudan tir tir titrermiş. Arkasına dönüp bugüne kadar geçtiği onca yola bakmış. Dağların tepesinden, en rüzgarlı vadilerinden, seyahat ettiği tüm köylere ve ormanlara kadar.

Ve karşısındaki okyanus o kadar kocaman, eni sonu belli olmayan, uçsuz bucaksız bir şeymiş ki içinde kaybolmaktan korkuyormuş. Çünkü onun içine dalmak sonsuza kadar yok olmak gibi geliyormuş.

Ama gidilecek başka yol yokmuş, nehir geri dönemezmiş. Kimse geri dönemez akışta. Varoluşta geriye dönmek diye bir şey yoktur. Ve nehir okyanusa akma riskini almaya karar vermiş. Çünkü başka türlü korkusunu yenemeyeceğini anlamış.

O anda görmüş ki, okyanusa karışmak diye bir şey yok. Okyanus olmak var.

~ Halil Cibran

**A silent encounter in Ximen's living heart**

The day was long and tiredness had me firmly in its grip. In my hotel room, I didn't feel like going out again - but something inexplicable finally drew me into the evening streets of Ximen. The area pulsated with life: colourful lights, laughing people, the muffled sound of the city. But in the midst of this hustle and bustle, I came across an oasis of calm - a temple hidden modestly between the modern facades.

The red lanterns cast a warm light on the carved wooden gates and the scent of incense hung in the air. I paused for a moment in front of the altar with the *Mother of Heaven* (天上聖母), mesmerised by the peaceful atmosphere. Here, between the whispering prayers and the golden statues, the hustle and bustle of the city seemed like a distant memory.

I lifted the camera and captured a few details: the ornate lettering, the *"Southern Show of the Guanyin Bodhisattva "* (南燕视世音菩薩), the simple elegance of the *Huade Dehua Temple* (华治德化堂). Each picture told of a world that took its time - a contrast to the restless hustle and bustle outside.

As I left the temple, I felt light, as if this chance encounter had reminded me of something important: that there are always places of calm in the midst of chaos, if you are only prepared to see them. The evening ended with a smile - and the certainty that it had been exactly the right moment to leave the room after all.

YAZMAK PAYLAŞMAKTAN BIKTIK.

HABERLERİ İZLİYORUM ŞU AN...!!!

Yine şiddet yine istismar ve senede bir gün kadınlar günü öylemi.

Kadınlara mutluluğu verdiğiniz hergün onların günüdür.

Haklarını koruyun yeter...!!!!

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Me, too❤️🌸🌿

Emotional Border Letter - Derya's promise to herself

You don't need to understand anymore.

It's not for you to weigh, measure, question the feelings I'm experiencing.

I opened up to you, I wanted you to hear my voice.

But every time you tried to pull me into your story.

By ignoring my story.

Now I am silent. But this is not a defeat.

This silence is not an escape.

It's a limit.

It's my right to protect myself.

It's my right to choose my inner peace.

This is my determination to stand on my own side from now on.

Keep everything that is rightfully yours.

I will no longer carry burdens that are not mine.

I let go of guilt, obligation, shame.

Because I want to walk only with my essence.

I owe only my own heart.

And now I pay that debt:

I forgive, love and protect myself.

This is my inner farewell letter.

Not to you, but to myself, whom I have silenced in the past.

I exist now.

And that's how I'm okay.

-Derya

I can't express myself like I want because of fear. I want to loose this fear and I will.

"I choose not to respond to these messages.

Because it's a way for me to keep my soul.

Not responding is not disrespectful,

an expression of my self-respect.

The guilt is not mine.

The burden I carry no longer belongs to me.

I want to heal, not fight.

And that's why I hear myself most where I am silent."

That's the only right thing, even if it hurts. Better to be alone than in fake relationships

My Mom once told me that she walked into a room where a couple of friends were discussing her, they didn’t know she was there. She shook her head, smiled and walked away. 🕊

My Mom also told me that she had a friend who talked bad about her, she never knew that Mom found out, Mom never mentioned it. She smiled and walked away from this friendship. 🕊

She told me she had family who chose to shift her out of their life because she stood up for herself for a change. And because she stopped crossing oceans for them when they would not even help her cross a bridge. She smiled, shook her head and walked away. 🕊

So I asked her how she could just walk away from people that betrayed her while pretending to be her friends or family? 🕊

She answered that every time she came to a crossroad like that, she had to decide who will be going forward on her journey with her. This showed her who she cannot take along with her. 🕊

So she explained to me that you should never get mad at a person who betrays you, even in the name of friendship or family. Just gracefully bow out and enjoy your journey with all the new people God puts in their place. 🕊

I choose not to respond to these messages.

Not responding is not disrespectful, an expression of my self-respect.

The guilt is not mine.

The burden I carry no longer belongs to me.

I want to heal, not fight.

And that's why I hear myself most where I am silent

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