I Really Wish Just SOME Writers On Tv Right Now Had The Like, Really Intrinsic, Focused Understanding

why is it the moment i start talking about lord of the rings ( a series i am not involved in fandom wise ) it starts popping up everywhere ... recommended on youtube, fandom stuff on twitter, gifs on tumblr. these movies are calling out to me i guess. and i haven't even thought about it in years. the call will be answered soon tho dw. i just don't wanna watch them alone because let's be real, this is an experience best shared with someone else lol.

but yeah i still remember when i was little my cousin watched one of these movies with me, he had them all on dvd and i was soooo jealous. i used to be terrified of gollum he was literally so scary to me ( still is ? ) and just ... the worst lol. but! basically these movies were very very important to my childhood, i grew up on them and watched them with my dad all the time, literally rivals harry potter for me in terms of best movie series ever. i did watch all of the hobbit movies like last year which obvs aren't as good but i always like martin freeman so ... yk. also smaug stays slaying i love that dragon. will never forget watching all those movies in theatres for my bday lol, one girl cried cause of the giant spiders scene. like girl shut up.

also the fact that the extended versions of lotr are like. nearly 4 hours long each ( with return of the king being 4 AND A HALF?! ) is insane to me. sorry i'm sticking to the theatrical releases...

anyway lotr ramble? never thought i'd see the day but here we are. just kinda forgot how much i adore these movies so!

The X-Files  | 1x03 “Squeeze”  (1993)  

i want to roleplay every character ever. i look at fox mulder and i'm like yeah, you'd be too fun ( i played him for a whole year wrote like 300k words but i want to revive him again... ) or i see someone like will graham with his cannibalism trauma and i just want to write the shit out of him ( he's so difficult for no reason ) and then there's me now trying my hand at coriolanus snow.... good luck to me

foaming at the mouth over patrick jane. actually i will never be normal about this character, he's become my new mulder, my new ethan .... truly the last time i felt this way watching a tv show was in 2017 !!! when i watched the x-files for the first time!! i've gotten attached to patrick so quickly it's insane. he won me over in .2 seconds, there is nothing unlikeable about this man i fear. through all his flaws and all his mistakes he STILL manages to be endearing. god i love him.

You going to shoot me?! I’m not going to shoot you! I don’t want to shoot you!

i do not want to see these umbrella academy fans try to compare the feeling of that ending to lost’s ending …. do not piss me off pls

✿ I S L A N D ✿ H U S B A N D S ✿

still thinking about marius and taylor …. the innate hopelessness of a relationship that was always doomed to fail… the way their dynamic could’ve been saved had marius just admitted what he did, but like the stubborn and distrustful asshole he is, he kept that info to himself! and look what happened! taylor honest to god tried to rectify things and was even willing to give marius a chance, was willing to forgive him, but marius continued to lie. i think it’s really interesting because it’s not something that marius would ever be used to…? like, this is a guy who lies to everyone and rarely reaps the consequences of doing so, even with his brother—who also lies straight to his face, multiple times throughout the show. marius doesn’t particularly care if people lie to him and isn’t accustomed to being around people who need him to admit he lied in order to forgive him. either the deed is forgiven/brushed off without another word (such as with marius and eddie), or the relationship is ruined because of the lie. i don’t think there’s ever been any in-between, wherein marius could save a relationship by admitting his wrongdoings. so when taylor offers that as an option, of course marius doesn’t take it! he isn’t used to that, and he’s a skeptic at heart. plus he kinda sorta despises taylor. why should he beg for forgiveness? but what i think he doesn’t realize is that you can’t escape from family, certainly not this one, and when those sorts of relationships are ruined, it ripples through everything and creates lots and LOTS of consequences. and unfortunately, having taylor as an enemy is not a good time!