Nirvana performing at ManRay Nightclub, Cambridge, MA, US 🇺🇸
April 18, 1990
I feel like I'm losing my spark a little bit. I'm not as happy, fun, or exciting as I used to be, or as life used to be. I'm slowly getting it back, but I'm not sure. I'm mostly around people who are older than me, who aren't as weird as I am. I think I'm just overly masking, and it's taking a bad toll on me. I care too much about what people think, rather than what just makes me happy.
I'm not around people who encourage my real side to come out anymore. Ever since last year happened, I've changed so much. I've shut myself off from the world. I know recognition is the first step to change, but I wish it would happen faster...
I fall in love with men too that look like this too easily 💔
Chris Cornell photographed on the A&M Records Backlot in December 1989
Credit to Robert Matheu/Camera Press
I told my boyfriend of 2 years I wanted to be with him forever. He's always said he wants to marry me and was so sure. I asked him tonight if he wants to be with me forever... And he hesitated... Then said "maybe"
I haven't cried that hard in so long. I've been crying for 3 hours. Idk how to feel. We've been together through really hard times, and he was the only constant. I can't imagine my life without him. It's only been 2 years, but we're so close.
I felt my stomach lock, my throat swell, and my heart dim. I couldn't breathe. My heart broke. The one person I could count on, isn't so sure anymore. We were talking about moving in and having kids and what our wedding would be like.
He said nothing. I'm scared. I don't want him to leave. We're gonna work on our relationship because we both love each other so much. It's just on uneasy ground now :(
This is THE shipping dynamic and you can’t change my mind
Adit Priscilla by Pieter Hugo for Harper’s Bazaar US March 2022