this is not effective.
only posts that succeed get attention, and are then reblogged by other people.
This creates the appearance of an unbroken chain of people succeeding.
In other words: this is a form of selection bias, specifically survivorship bias.
So many decisions all the time.
Like a hydra, each head popping out two more
and each of those heads doubling up again
like it wasn't decision-anxiety-inducing enough at the start.
And that's all very well and good if you didn't force me to interact
but nooooooooo I have to actually choose the singular right one
or at least one of the few close enough to the right one
which, of course, is none, since the only "close enough" is on the dot.
You know what? Take it away from me.
You're the smartass here. You know which one is correct.
Why don't you do it? Take my autonomy away from me, pilot my life?
Anyways you clearly know how your hydra works. Won't that help mine?
But no, you have to hide the whole concept of the hydra away from me
Making it my fault whenever you hit the wrong head like a fucking idiot
So that when I am first introduced to it I am met with a thousand heads
and little clueless me is told "yeah that's your fucking problem I quit."
And with each wrong, clueless swing I make
the number of heads only ticks higher
Fair lady, your grace
astounds me. Your beauty is
simply unparalleled. Oh, what I would give
to be one of your faces, each beautiful,
each with their own touch -
immaculate, pouting, smiling, caring, sharp, soft, all perfect.
But I'm sure you don't need me to tell you that.
Instead, I am stuck in this
muck of a body. My ugliness is
quite gastly. I suppose it is nature.
To be a Man, this vulgar, disfigured-at-conception
shambling mound of meat, fucking years of effort
just for the body to be fit and healthy, much less attractive,
and even less so the face.
And don't get me started on the person.
Oh, yes, I suppose partly inherited, but I'm sure mostly inherent -
the rage, violence, crassness, brash impusiveness,
the chaos and unbefitting nature of it all.
Why, I can't even love myself like this -
What kind of asshat would I be to ask for love from you?
But I digress. See, this is what I mean -
Even now I overpower, I crush and push and talk
as if I am the only real person in the world, a spoiled brat -
whining about how bad he has it
to people who've had much worse.
Forget me. I've been
too much of a burden on you. I'm sorry.
Even now your kindness and generosity shine through
my darkest clouds, my deepest woes,
and I'm sorry I waste your blessings like this.
Thank you for your time. I know, I know -
I cannot be one of your faces. I am what I am:
a greedy little shit of a Man who is only after your looks
and even if I had it, it would be fake, a cheap imitation
of your boundless perfection. But thank you for
at least considering it. Oh, and before you go -
I love you. You're beautiful.
I am a Good Person.
I must not get angry.
I must not fight people.
I must not shout.
I must not be angry.
I must not be sad.
I must not talk about my paltry issues.
I must not talk about what I want.
I must not be inconsiderate.
I must not be insensitive.
I must not appear threatening.
I must not allow my face to be percieved.
I must not speak to people.
I must not draw the attention of others.
I must not be extraordinary.
I must not be unique.
I must not appear unhappy.
I must not appear different.
I must not see myself as unhappy.
I must not see myself as happy.
I must not seek freedom.
I must not prioritize myself.
I must not hestitate to help others at the cost of myself.
I must not unshackle myself from the chains of my own design.
I must not escape these chains which hold myself back from both Heaven and Hell alike.
I am a Good Person.
Hey, dad. You've given me a lot over the years. You've given me everything I have. You've pushed me to everything I did well.
You've also given me a lot of rage. You've given me a lot to hate about. You've given me a lot of trauma.
There's a lot that I want to say here but I can't. Because that would be stupid. Of course it would.
And so I'm stuck now with this mass of boiling rage and hatred and all of it
This fucking stupid idiotic terrible legacy you've passed down
Just hate hate hate nothing but hate just hate
Rage against everyone and everything
But don't actually say it out loud
Just keep it all tucked away
Like a shelf with
ten thousand
big bottles
of rage
tucked
safely
away
.
A tree falls
Nobody around to hear
It makes a sound.
But it doesn’t matter.
I tell a joke
Not particularly good
People around
Nobody listening.
I laugh with myself.
I laugh at myself.
What a funny joke!
Both are funny jokes!
Is this how
God feels, in his kingdom
Of everything
High up above, alone
if I'm going to do anything I'm going to make sure I can't be forced to go back.
It's great to go from poor to rich, but it's hell to go from rich to poor.
To taste the fruits of victory and then be dragged by the foot right back down to hell?
No thank you! I would rather not eat at all than eat exactly once.
Anyways I am already at rock bottom and have been for years. What more is new?
Oh, do not get me wrong, haha! I'm not saying I have no hope for the future or whatnot.
I'm just being very careful. "Risk-avoidant?" Yes, that sounds like a good term.
I will reach for the grapes only when I have stacked up enough chairs and boxes to reach for it easily.
When I jump, I'm going to grab the whole goddamn vine, not just one or two measly grapes.
I'm a greedy little motherfucker, isn't that right? I ask for little, I want for little, but what I do want for, I wait for the right time and grab hold of it forever.
Anyways the future is only real if you grasp it and hold on tight, and I'm not going to jump and risk a broken leg for nothing.
God will weep
for the souls of the damned
and the sins of the holy
when I shove my fist through his chest
God will weep
for the poor and suffering
and the mistakes of the greats
when I kick his corpse off the cliff
God will weep
for the sins he has committed
and the suffering of the good
when I shove my foot through his skull
God will weep
for the wrongs he has done to me
and the defects he made me with
when I throw his ashes into the wastewater collection plant
God will weep
because when I find his house
and break in the door
he fucking better cry.
The light at the end of the tunnel
Is hidden by a door in-between.
The senses that fall into the funnel
must be processed and filtered before seen.
The fox sees the grapes and cries "sour!"
The faint light peeks through, and the man denies.
But when time passes, hour by hour,
the fox must jump up, and the man must realize.
A sliver of light peeks through the door's crack
for it has been pulled slightly ajar
by the ones who walked off the well-worn track
and realized, inside, who they really are.
The man fears the door, for it is new to him
If he is wrong about the light, there is only evil in sight
This is a dangerous matter - it cannot be decided on a whim.
But he must keep looking, and he must see the light.
He must crack the door further open,
pushing the holy sepulchre's sealing stone aside
for the trailblazers have advised; the Oracles have spoken:
There is only joy waiting for her on the other side.
Oh, how tempting that mistress is,
to be shut away and not a bother to nobody,
To make absolutely no-one the sadder
by reciting the same pains that ailed them.
Oh, how tempting that emptiness is,
to be quiet and subdued and unnoticed,
To make absolutely nothing go worse than it already has
by moving again to the great god of failure.
Oh, how tempting that nothingness is,
to be perfect and nonexistent and unbothered,
To make absolutely everything nothing, and nothing everything
by emptying the whole world of its contents.
Oh, how tempting that silence is,
to destroy my self in mine own vainglory.
Lies, lies, lies, all the way down.
Do you ever really stop and think about who you're even talking about?
Do you ever think who gains off cheating you? Who wants you to stay stupid?
Do you ever think about what it means to vote?
You are deciding the fate of a society. You choose feast or famine.
So why, really, do you choose the man who has lied to you time and time again?
Why do you want the man who has shot you and left you for dead?
What the actual fuck is going on inside your head?
Do words even matter to you anymore? Do kindness and empathy mean nothing?
Are you just another sock-puppet of that moneybag in a suit?
Do you not see the bigger picture? The bots, the trolls, the media diversions?
Do you ever even think about what your vote really means?
A rapist, a felon, impeached twice, started an insurgency.
Do you even hear yourself? Do you even look at the man you're touting?
Black guy, have you seen the racism he perpetuates? Woman, have you seen the sexism he himself partakes in? Immigrants, have you seen what he wants to do to you?
Do any of you - any of you - really think about what it means to vote for this man?