25 Posts! Ik This Is Really Boring But Ive Been On Tumblr For Like 3 Days Now So...

yeah. especially her.

YALL THOUGHT I WAS TAKING A BREAK FROM POSTING ABOUT HER?? NAH I CAN BE DEPRESSED AND IN LOVE AT THE SAME TIME BITCH

Girls.

this is how i feel about "girl". ik its just a word ppl use like dude and bro and stuff i just really dont like it in relation to me. yeah you can say "girl is gender neutral" but it isn't to me. call other people girl, idgaf! but dont call me girl.

imagine if someone just like started addressing you as Dipshit, like youre just talking about your day & they say "no way Dipshit, that's crazy." and then maybe you say to them that you would prefer not to be addressed as Dipshit & their response is "well in my major metropolitan area 'Dipshit' is not considered an insult. im not saying i think youre stupid when i call you Dipshit, i call my mom dipshit all the time" so you say Thats cool but please dont call Me that. and then they just repeat that it's something they say daily, they call all of their best friends & lovers dipshits & are called dipshit in return. "my grandma calls me dipshit at the dinner table, it doesnt mean anything." so you say Yes i understand that your friends & grandma arent bothered by being called Dipshit but *i* am, & i would prefer if you didnt address me as that. and they say "it's literally not possible for me to stop calling you dipshit, and it's not reasonable for you to ask me to, dipshit." anyway this post is about nothing in particular

blah blah blah (intro to me)

hi. im a generic depressed trans emo teen so i figured id start by trauma dumping.

my diagnoses are OCD, generalized depressive disorder, major depressive disorder, social anxiety disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, ADHD and dermatillomania (skin picking).

ive been hospitalized twice for suicidal ideation and self harm, and i was bullied pretty bad in middle school (i mean who wasnt).

im a freshman and i usually use they/he, but today i'm feeling neopronouns so i'm gonna go ey/em/eirs.

im AFAB but dont use that against me. my deadname is actually really pretty so im gonna share it (but also dont use that against me). my deadname is Wylie (why-lee) and its cute as fuck.

i would say that i'm an artist, i paint a lot. maybe someday i'll put one of my paintings up here but for now... no. i also do a fair amount of poetry (like any good emo)

i think thats a good intro to me as a person... so bye!

scraped my knee

was going for a super cute femme look so i decided to wear some platform heels, long story short, my campus is not only very large, but also in the middle of the woods, and i fell. in front of multiple people. my knee is bleeding and my parents told me not to wear them because i would fall.

shes driving me crazy

"being single is boring af bro"

SO DATE ME

YOU KNOW I LIKE YOU

omg i was basically in love with this guy he had amazing hair, like down to his ass, perfectly clean, beautifully brown/caramel and then i found out his name was KYLE.

girls with short hair & guys with long hair >>>>>>>>>>>>>>

dreams

had a dream i went on a date with her (at the grocery store? it was really nice tho) and i said that i hadn't ever played a specific video game and a guy walking past us went WHAT and then his dog jumped on me and was so cute and cuddly. then she went on to explain the game for 20 minutes while i was cuddling a cute fluffy golden retriever and at some point the dog switched to her and i was just stroking her hair and she was sitting in my lap and then she kissed me on the cheek.

then i woke up.

nice dream, not nice waking up

god i just want to kiss her so bad

i want her to kiss me on the way out of our shared apartment in berkley before she grabs her coffee and keys and walks out the door to her job at the uc berkeley oceanography institute. then at her lunch break, she texts me a photo of the lunch i packed her and a selfie of her doing kissy lips and saying "thank you for the lunch, my love" and i'll send her a selfie back and say "of course! love you! can't wait for our date tonight, you booked the dog sitter, right?" and she'll say "oh shit i forgot" and i'll say "babe im just kidding, the downstairs neighbors said they'd watch luna, remember?" and she'd send back the sighing emoji and then say "i gotta run, see you tonight!" with a red heart emoji

catch by chloe moriondo. very good lesbian pining/yearning song.

Okay, forget the dialogue Sorry if you can hear the cat I don't fucking know

[Verse 1] You're in my head again I never wanted it like this Don't want to be your friend And I know how this ends But you keep pulling at my line I reel you in but lose you every time And I can't stop 'til you're mine

[Pre-Chorus] Floating, I wait 'til the end of the day And I know it's such a waste 'cause you

[Chorus] You're an idea, I don't need you But I want you so bad And I can't see you, but I need to And I want you so fast I can't relax, I can't move back I can't do anything if I don't catch you If I don't catch you

[Verse 2] You are destroying my psyche Now you're calling me nightly And yet, you do it politely somehow And I'm holding us closely But it feels so damn unlikely That this could end well for mе now End well for me now

[Pre-Chorus] Floating, I wait 'til the еnd of the day And I know it's such a waste 'cause you

[Chorus] You're an idea, I don't need you But I want you so bad And I can't see you, but I need to And I want you so fast I can't relax, I can't move back I can't do anything if I don't catch you If I don't catch you You're an idea, I don't need you But I want you so bad And I can't see you, but I need to And I want you so fast I can't relax, I can't move back I can't do anything if I don't catch you If I don't catch you

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