Is It Bad That I Hate Attention Whores?

Some of a large set of pictures I took- Don't quite know if I'll get hit wih my own copywrite for this but wharves lol

Enjoy!

Think I want to do that for my house

(via Beelog)

beginning of my bio for a show

i would like to believe that I could be angry, that I could loath them just as much if not more then they me. I'm alone here, where there shouldn't be lines drawn and where eyes should be blind to colors and the judgement that tollows would be treated as something for the masses. Yet here I'm tormented by bias, by someones hope that I'd live as low as their expectations. Where open words and physical abuse once sufficed now rules and limitations seek to break my will. They make it out to be a sport, a game of me. Yet it only makes it easier for me to win. I can eat alone, live alone, and learn alone just fine my dear. They would not be able to get me out, that I'm sure of. My entire time at the acadmeny I was shunned, though my father had been a military man, and a leader at that just by the fact alone that I was colored made me less then any other cadet. We knew the same things, I would think that we had shared the same qualitications of enrollment, even the same education. It was still meaningless to them all. I was required to (Insert task here)

AN ACCURATE 2013 HOROSCOPE  This is the real deal. Try ignoring it, and the first thing you’ll notice is having a horrible day starting tomorrow morning … and it only gets worse from there.  ARIES - The Aggressive (March 21 to April 19) Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny… Excellent kisser. EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, and family is very important to an Aries. Aries are known for being generous and giving. Addictive. Loud. Always has the need to be ‘Right’. Aries will argue to prove their point for hours and hours. Aries are some of the most wonderful people in the world. 16 years of bad luck if you do not forward. TAURUS - The Tramp (April 20 to May 20)  Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight. Fight for what they want. Can be annoying at times, but for the love of attention. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. They can be self-centred and if they want something they will do anything to get it. They love to sleep and can be lazy. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not forward. GEMINI - The Twin (May 21 to June 20)  Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very good at confusing people. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Geminis will not take any crap from anyone. Geminis like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily. They are great at losing things and are forgetful. Geminis can be very sarcastic and childish at times and are very nosey. Trustworthy. Always happy. VERY Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.  CANCER - The Beauty (June 21 to July 22)  MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. A Cancer’s love is one of a kind… Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet in your life. Entirely creative person, most are artists and insane, respectfully speaking. They perfected sex and do it often. Extremely random. An ultimate freak. Extremely funny and is usually the life of the party. Most Cancers will take you under their wing and into their hearts where you will remain forever. Cancers make love with a passion beyond compare. Spontaneous. Not a fighter, but will kick your ass good if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to! 12 years of bad luck if you do not forward. LEO - The Lion (July 23 to August 22)  Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Usually happy but when unhappy tend to be grouchy and childish. A Leo’s problem becomes everyone’s problem. Most Leos are very predictable and tend to be monotonous. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Very predictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward. VIRGO - The One that Waits (August 23 to September 22)  Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. A pushover. Loves to gamble and take chances. Needs to have the last say in everything. They think they know everything and usually do. Respectful to others but you will quickly lose their respect if you do something untrustworthy towards them and never regain respect. They do not forgive and never forget. The one and only. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward. LIBRA - The Lame One (September 23 to October 22)  Nice to everyone they meet. Their love is one of a kind. Silly, funny and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However, not the kind of person you want to mess with… you might end up crying. Libras can cause as much havoc as they can prevent. Faithful friends to the end. Can hold a grudge for years. Libras are someone you want on your side. Usually great at sports and are extreme sports fanatics. Very creative. A hopeless romantic. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward. SCORPIO - The Addict (October 23 to November 21)  EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very good sense of humour. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if is disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad Luck if you do not forward. SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One (November 22 to December 21) Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offence forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones with all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward. CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover (December 22 to January 19)  Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Grouchy at times and annoying to some. Lazy and love to take it easy, but when they find a job or something they like to do they put their all into it. Proud, understanding and sweet. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to win against other signs in sports, especially Gemini’s. Likes to cook but would rather go out To eat at good restaurants. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not forward. AQUARIUS - Does It in the Water (January 20 to February 18) Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Tries hard. Will take on any project. Proud of themselves in whatever they do. Messy and unorganized. Procrastinators. Great lovers, when they’re not sleeping. Extreme thinkers. Loves their pets usually more than their family. Can be VERY irritating to others when they try to explain or tell a story. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a fighter, but will knock your lights out. 2 years of bad luck if you do not forward. PISCES - The Partner for Life (February 19 to March 20)  Caring and kind. Smart. Likes to be the centre of attention. Very organized. High appeal to opposite sex. Likes to have the last word. Good to find, but hard to keep. Passionate, wonderful lovers. Fun to be around. Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily. VERY caring. They always try to do the right thing and sometimes get the short end of the stick. They sometimes get used by others and get hurt because of their trusting. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good sense of humour!!! Thoughtful. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. Good friend to others but needs to be choosy on who they allow their friends to be. 5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

Openness

It was the first time in my life it seems, that I stopped acting, faking myself and really started looking in... I see how idealism clashes with cynicism, how anger fills my pours, and love creates my bones, I see how run downed I am, and how weeak I've become... I've opened up to men who are strangers about things I've hid deep inside, but they trust me with their own wrongs and thoughts and honor me the same way, I've told my whole class about an issue which has ruinned my life and about how hard it is for me to deal with my anger... Yet 9 mins over the time limit I was appaulded...

I"ve found my core and uprooted myself more then ever, and I'm reaching a changing point...

I'm starting to balance out, the battles are gettin g harder and no longer am I overcoming others and my environment, but now I must deal with myself...I'm finding out who truely loves me, who only used the love I've given, and in the ashes of the relationships I've held I find the clues to their undoing...

Make A Fucking Difference, Share A Life With Someone New

Sigh... Guns aren't the issue; people are... Why is it that people refuse to realize that. Removing guns would be the same as taking a bully's food, in the end if he wants to beat a kid up, the fact that you took his food doesn't inspire any sort of responsibility on his part. Thousands of weapons are brought into this country illegally and sold to people who do not have the population's interest at heart. Looking at our society and the future that'll come I personally wish to have the right to carry a weapon while I travel and while I'm at home. I have a family to protect, and my own life to look forward to, I don't want to be unable to defend my interest should some asshole attempt to take advantage of me because I can't own a weapon. If people really want to make a difference they all need to petition for the evaluation of and the push for better care and earlier response for individuals of all mental states.

The ignorance and the disrespect towards individuals and to people in general is a large factor in causing the negative social issues we see today. Even more so in a society with such a large gap constantly growing in how one can connect and bond with their peers. There are always a few people who can't be stopped and will do horrible things to others regardless of what limits you place on them. But what about everyone else in the world we so happily share? Personally I think it’s time we look inside and realize how backwards our society has become and how we constantly evade taking ownership for own flaws. Instead of understanding and realizing how our behaviors are interconnected to the stimuli in our environment , we instead tell others to hold it in, or that there are limits and conditions for certain outlets of expression.

Instead of truly helping each other and working to support one another we get this retarded circle jerk of response. We get a large amount of people, who like to give “positive reinforcement” which is nothing more but a pat on the back and someone telling you how right you are when you most likely aren’t. That is our society today, and it’s not a directly bad thing to have. Yet when you think about it don’t you realize how fake that is? It’s so just too easy to push away and leave people on the sidelines; we reject so many for nothing at all. We avoid people we don’t like for reasons so petty that we have to actually find ways to justify our feelings. We refuse the idea of giving people chances at becoming something closer, we refuse to not only accept but to understand and become involved with another’s flaws. We refuse and are afraid of being told we are the issue and would rather latch on to any statement that pushes blame upon others.

Hell, I guarantee that very few people will even read this all the way through, but for those of you who have, I must ask you one thing. Do you talk to the odd kid at school? Have you’ve gone out of your way to interact with the person who seems kind of lonely? Do you actually try to have a meaningful discussion with that person who just seems to talk and talk all the time? How about the person who annoys you? Do you stop to try and get along with the people who piss you off? Have you’ve tried to get to know the person you make fun of? If you do, have you’ve ever thought about not making fun of them? Do you stop to have a moment with someone you’ve never spoken with before, and not some empty and brief way that ultimately meaningless? Saying hi and asking how someone is doing isn’t a true conversation, it’s a lead into a conversation but it hardly brings anything worthwhile. How about bringing up those social issues, or other now “Taboo” topics nobody seems to want to focus on? Since when should someone hide their opinions and beliefs from people who they wish to befriend? How is it so hard to accept that people are different from each other and that these differences aren’t reason to disown them or harm them? We find ways to distance ourselves from others and push them away and even shame them, and yet we wonder why there are an ever increasing number of disconnected individuals who commit heinous actions upon the innocent. Spread the word and Make A Fucking Difference, Share A Life With Someone New.

This was a Social Moral Evaluation Rant, brought to you by Common Sense… Common Sense! Everyone needs it, but many don’t have enough of it.

I miss you sometimes, you little star fairy...

You see, last night was the first time I cried in a long while...

I don't know if it was the substance that rooted and altered my veins

The confliction of emotions deciding to control the reins

And though if you still cared, you'd hate what I've become

I cried last night, feeling this song flow in my blood

The highs are orgasmic, the downfalls last for weeks

All the while, this heart burns as I speak

Yes, I know

I know that I've crossed some lines

I'd never again shine bright enough for you

Either way, I figured you'd learn that in time

For the world won't need me, in time it'll turn

For I was only once the moon, a small orb trying to affect your world...

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I miss my friend, but I know they won't forgive me and thats okay... but that interpol hit me really hard last night... and maybe it was the other things affecting my system too but as the song played I kept remembering you... but hey your doing great andit makes me happy that I managed to cause that, just wish I could snark you a few more times, heaar you threaten to cut me, and maybe here you rant about your adventures somemore- made my days alot less lonely...

That was exactly what I was thinking! I figured one of these days when I decide to go hiking up in the hills by my college I'd go and hunt me up a good branch. The shield brancelet will be fun to make, but my biggest thrill is seeing how I'll put together the rings he wears. I wouldn't mind using my cat, but then again my cat tends to reguard my dog as an annoyance lol. If I can get my hands on a camera I'll totally post them up!

I was bored so I drew Harry, Mister, and Mouse in Adventure Time style. Sweatpants + cowboy boots= facepalm.

Just so much what to go with the win