I so want to be a girl mom
teacher: where do you see yourself after highschool?
trying to act older than you are but also wanting to stay young forever
FRFR
BRING BACK BRIGHT COLORS
BRING BACK FUNKY PATTERNS
BRING BACK BIG VOLUMINOUS HAIR
as a woman, i HATE
and i MISS
when we had actual style
Everytime I think about the way I feel,
I want to crying, throwing up, and screaming, I low-key want to kill myself but theres pros n cons to that.
I like the ocean
I like to take a small boat n go to the ocean in the middle of the night around 1am and go out in the water until I cant see land for miles
I like to sit on the boat with no phones just a few snacks, a few bottles of jager, and a couple of blunts
I swim in the water for about an hr the I get out n lay out on the boat
I drink a bottle and smoke a few blunts. . .
I think about what I didn't do but should've done, What I could do
Then I drink some more, eat some fruit. . .
I think about what I shouldn't do
And I smoke a few more blunts. . . then swim again. . .
I think about absolutely everything I ever done
And I drink a few more bottles, eat more fruit n a sandwich. . .
While I head back to shore n finish drinking n smoking whatever I have left, I think about everything I thought about doing N what I want to do
Just a lot of thinking.š
LITERALLY anytime I think abt the f-word my face starts 2 break out and I can't sleep
And it's #stressfull bc I have less than two years left 2 figure out what I'm going 2 do I'm in 11th grade this year
I could go to college at the university of texas
Or I could just work instead and get an apartment
But my dream is to own a farm and get married and have a child yk the traditional shit he works n pays the bills I handle the stuff at home but ik that would take time 2 get but if I found a man that could build we could be like Noah and Allie (w/o all the drama they had just the love and the him building me everything)
iām actually allergic to long-term planning