I Don't Care How 'cringe' Or 'mary Sue' You Think Your Oc Is. I Think Your Oc Is Cool And I Think You

One of my favorite things is when a character does or says something nice and they’re like “don’t tell anyone about this, I have a reputation” it’s so funny they’re literally like I’m okay with being nice but I draw the line at other people knowing that I’m nice

so embarrassing to get obsessed with your own oc but it doesn't fuel you creatively or motivate you at all you just sort of sit there. like yeah I've been thinking a lot about blorbo from my mind. no images of them exist in the world and they have maybe 3 personality traits so far. I would rather die than attempt to write about them. I've spent the last 48 hours rotating them in my brain though

once you realize you can make playlists for your ocs and stories there’s no going back. music will never be the same. you can’t listen to those songs the same way again. once again ocs literally ruin your entire life

Oh god I just realized how badly I need to update my pages

( This post is starting to get some attention, so I'd appreciate it if you'd follow my art blog @katlyntheartist )

Thinking about characters changing their names.. characters changing their names to run from the past or to reclaim their selfhood or to deny something. Characters who don't remember their names. Characters who can't forget. Etc. And yes of course because they're transgender

i loooooove giving my ocs perpetrator trauma. you hurt people, used and abused and destroyed them, and you will never wash out that stain. you will grow resentful of forgiveness because you refuse to forgive yourself. they don't know what you did like you do. you wear that knowledge like armor, like a sick badge of shameful pride. you can't cut off the hand that struck out and throw it away. you can't pull out your teeth and become something kinder, something more vulnerable.

I've been gradually getting braver with reaching out to people after a very long period of keeping to myself and a very small number of people and I just want to thank everyone I've talked to for being SO cool. 🫶

I'm always going to lament not having the energy to keep up with more but I'm really happy for the things I do get to be a part of. There's so much creativity in the RPC and I enjoy getting to see it even when I don't have much more than scrolling and tapping hearts in me.