—Fyodor Dostoevsky

New theme dropped!

And my intro post has gotten updated and my tags are done with. Now I am wondering how I shall introduce my children (by this I mean my ocs..)

I thought perhaps moodboards for each of them? Or maybe even introductory posts with summaries of their personalities and the stories of their characters..? hmm..

Low-key tempted to write a full breakdown of Fyodor's mental health / state... but some key points I noticed :

savior / martyr complex.

dehumanization of self; he perceives himself as something fully inhuman.

black and white thinking; unable to reconcile with ambiguity and this also causes him to have an extreme “us vs them” mentality, classic almost cult leader behavior and mindset.

( possible ) depression and anhedonia.

frequent disassociation.

does not allow people to particularly get close to him, self-isolates and keeps his relationships with others transactional.

clear-cut sadism that he rationalizes.

I do and I really understand that! I find it hard to hold back when something gets me extremely inspired — like BSD got me. ^^ I actually was having difficulty to create anything or feel much invested in creating until I got into it.

I often feel like an unhinged scientist and researcher while looking into things to add more depth onto my original characters.. it is absolutely very fun; though! I love sharing my thoughts and the things I am working on and wrote. I am curious to hear more about them! I adore Alice in Wonderland retellings and adaptations.

Thank youuu ^^ once I come up with ideas; I am going to share.

Oh? You have OCs miss Martyr? 👀

i do !!!11!1!!1 i have many actually some of them aren’t as fleshed out but i think about them daily one might say it’s a secret interest of mine ;)

one of my world’s is somewhat based off wonderland from the book “alice’s adventures in wonderland” read by the mc but it is warped by her own mind due to trauma responses & defensive mechanisms ^_^ she’s around eight and her name is rue barlowe and she’s like filthy rich from the US but she has TONSSS of trauma. i feel bad how much i’ve been putting this poor child through she’s my daughter if i knew how to take care of one (*´∇｀*)💧i also have many ocs based off actual people from the book but they are based by her experiences and how she portrays them so they are pretty creepy but it’s like found family and then something comes along to ruin that and she learns a lot from it in the end so it’s in turn like a really dark retelling of a fairytale!!!..,,,

another world that is more recent is my persona’s world set in different historical timelines and all revolve around my sona martyr. the typical god that is above all life and you cannot visualize them because it is incomprehensible to the human mind. this isn’t fully fleshed out either but these characters are tricked and deceived from their lives and manipulated because it needs them for a revolution against their will to disable purgatory and the systematic oppression of heaven and hell. very flawed but the characters are very fun to figure out and discover it’s like a little journey hehe

My introduction.

Welcome here; I go by Avalon ( or Avie, any nicknames are fine as long as they are previously discussed with me ) . This is simply a place for me to post my thoughts and maybe ramble a little, occasionally I might share my thoughts and analysis of certain characters or even talk about my original characters and share some bits of my writing if I feel tempted enough.

You are more likely than not going to be welcome here as long as you behave respectfully and keep in mind my boundaries and read the “before you interact” post I have linked below as I would like to avoid any uncomfortable situations or discussions as I do not have the energy ( or time, quite frankly ) to deal with anything.

Before you interact.

Tagging system.

Theme layout by @chuupaws .

Tagging System.

🧵. follow the path of silver thread.

for organization- related posts ; expect very few here though it is mostly for the sake of organization.

💌. letter sent; letter received.

replying to asks from people.

🎭. whispers passed between hands.

answering to tag games.

🌫️. echoes lost in mist.

reblogging other people's posts.

🥀. pressed flowers and forgotten letters.

my general thoughts and my own personal musings; or posts of me going through my day.

🧵. woven threads of fate.

interactions with mutuals; those with which I am the closest to are going to receive their own tags.

🧵. a spun tale from whispered dreams.

OC thoughts; some of the ones I talk about the most might receive their own personalized tags + tags for their ships.

🎻. a melody played in the dark.

some of my Fyodor thoughts; perhaps other characters from other media may receive their own personalized tags depending on how often I think about them.

🎨. strokes of color upon quiet dreams.

posts of my art ; or works in progress that I am working on.

🧩. piecing together fractured reflections.

posts related to analysis and theories that I came up with for the media I care for and consume (bungou stray dogs; honkai star rail and other things).

🖋️. thoughts spun into quiet reveries.

my own personal writing and works in progress :).

🗃️ . pieces for a painted story.

essentially making sure that I can find resources ( from dividers to layouts and so on ) if needed; please feel free to block this tag as it is not really that relevant.

🧵. guiding thread for wandering minds.

aesthetic moodboards I actually made or found that I enjoyed; mostly kept here under this tag for inspiration in case I need some for writing or anything really.

again & again

I regret to inform you I’m #knkdz trash.

Not a witch; just your friendly neighborhood wizard. 😉

Ever since we had that talk about MBTI; I kinda am thinking and — I fear you might be an INFP..? I can explain more if you are interested!

...I'm so scared because you're right. I did the quiz and I AM an INFP. You are literally correct. HELLO?????

I read the thingie but I want to hear your thoughts, pls do explain

forgot i had tumblr sorry