Low-key Tempted To Write A Full Breakdown Of Fyodor's Mental Health / State... But Some Key Points I

Hello; good morning, evening or night!

I am that anon who said you seemed interesting; I decided to make an account for my ooc blog since my account was roleplay focused haha. Hope you have been well!

ahhh i see !1!1!!11! thank you very much 4 your ask hehe it really did brighten my day i’ve been doing fine and dandy !!!!!! a little tired but i’m powering through 🙂‍↕️

And now I am actually am working on ocs focused on dark retellings of fairytales because everyone is enabling me...I can tell I am going to get invested.

I might go and remake some of my playlists...

And my intro post has gotten updated and my tags are done with. Now I am wondering how I shall introduce my children (by this I mean my ocs..)

I thought perhaps moodboards for each of them? Or maybe even introductory posts with summaries of their personalities and the stories of their characters..? hmm..

No problem! You both give off the same energy 😭 I should try to type him...

You are Pure Vanilla Cookie on my brain. Just. He is you.

YOURE SO KIND 2 ME ☹️☹️💜💜💜

I hate being so anxious and such an overthinker.

Happy Belated Birthday!!🎊 It was the 27th so I'm like a day late :^

Thank you :) my apologies for the late reply, I have been a bit busy lately.

My introduction.

Welcome here; I go by Avalon ( or Avie, any nicknames are fine as long as they are previously discussed with me ) . This is simply a place for me to post my thoughts and maybe ramble a little, occasionally I might share my thoughts and analysis of certain characters or even talk about my original characters and share some bits of my writing if I feel tempted enough.

You are more likely than not going to be welcome here as long as you behave respectfully and keep in mind my boundaries and read the “before you interact” post I have linked below as I would like to avoid any uncomfortable situations or discussions as I do not have the energy ( or time, quite frankly ) to deal with anything.

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—Fyodor Dostoevsky

𝐆𝐨𝐠𝐨𝐥 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐡𝐢𝐦 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐞𝐞 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧

Nikolai had put so much effort into creating his monstrous façade. All the jesting, laughing, toying with the pain of others. He tried so hard to look like a “monstrous person with nothing inside”. But in the end he didn't want to be remembered as such.

Gogol still wanted to let the world know that he wasn't a monster. During his makeshift penance to Atsushi he tried to humanize himself by telling about the guilt and remorse he felt. Nikolai even confessed to the Agency that he admired the justice they fought for. He said: the light they emitted drawn him in.

Nikolai couldn't allow himself to be viewed as just another criminal. He wanted to be remembered. He wanted to make people care.

For that, Gogol gauged out his soul and presented it to the audience.

He wanted to be seen, even at the very last moment.