Yeah... Ive Come To The Point Where Every Media Seems Useless... All The Things I Read Are Either Discontinued

When the person you talk to about your problems is actually one of your problems 🙃

Hunger Games didn’t really eat holes in my brain the way that it did for some other people but god the opening lines. The opening lines. Katniss wakes up in bed and immediately, instinctively reaches beside her, only to find the bed empty and cold. Before we even know her name – before we know literally anything about her or this world or her place in that world – we know that she loves someone. We know that she is reaching for where Prim should be, sleeping safe and warm beside her, but Prim is not there. She is not there, and her half of the bed is cold and empty. People talk about characters being “doomed by the narrative” when most of the time the character was literally just a well-foreshadowed death, but Prim WAS doomed by the narrative. It’s the very first thing we learned. It’s the most key, integral, important piece of information we’re given about everything that is about to happen: Every single choice Katniss makes is to protect her little sister, and it isn’t enough. In the end, Prim still dies. Prim was dead before the story even started. Katniss, reaching. Prim’s side of the bed was cold and empty. There is no version of this story where Prim could have been saved. Katniss, reaching. The very first thing she does in the series. She wakes, and she reaches, but Prim is already gone. THAT is how you do Doomed By The Narrative. Edit: Also it is key that there was literally nothing Katniss could have done differently. If she had not acted to save Prim, Prim would not have survived the Hunger Games. But by acting to save Prim, Katniss accidentally kicked off an entire rebellion and ultimately massively increased the amount of danger Prim was actually in. The key is that this is irrelevant. If Katniss had done literally anything differently, Prim still would have died. If Katniss had faltered or changed course at any point, Prim still would have died. There was never a point where Katniss could have changed Prim’s fate. There’s no version of this story where Prim lives to see the end of it. She’s dead before the story begins. That’s doomed by the narrative.

Bluebirds at Virginia Creeper berries, early morning 2015.

This is pain on another level. Trying to recover from this takes a long while since its unlearning the pain and relearning that it was them all along and not you the whole time!

ily: i love you ilysm: i love you so much yapyabyltswtwoyntsiytayadkys: you’re a painter. you're a baker. you like to sleep with the windows open. you never take sugar in your tea. and you always double-knot your shoelaces.

Whuh oh, the Kataangers have arrived.

I don't know how I'll ever go on knowing I hurt the feelings of strangers who expect me to kowtow to a male fantasy, anti-feminist canon ship that chewed up and spit out my favorite character's entire personality just to make her into a trophy for a child.

Atrocities committed to Russian Indigenous.

forest faerie dress, literally.