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A little something

No one's ever going to see or care about this but I just wanted to put it out there since I'm not exactly in a position to say these things anywhere else in my life.

Right now, in Los Angeles, it is 1:18 am on 1 July, 2019. Pride Month, a time of glowing victory for the LGBTQ+ community and their (Our? Am I even allowed to say that?) allies, has come to an end. After everything that's "gone down" this month (and oh boi did stuff go down) it feels like something has passed me by, a tidal wave of happiness and freedom that I was too afraid to grasp a hold of and ride. And because of my cowardice, I remain trapped in what many would call a self-made prison.

But this isn't just about me wallowing in my pitiful regrets and attempting to express my emotions through a mediocre literary passage (what am I even writing lmao). While this past month and year have indeed been an additional cell wall of sorts to the prison of my own making, they have also shone light through the dark, hopeless bars, and it is those slivers of light from this Pride Month that I want to take a moment (maybe a little longer than a moment lets be honest lolz) to acknowledge and thank with all of my heart.

To begin: thank you Los Angeles and San Francisco Pride for showing me what great happiness can come from being truly and authentically free. Although I was not there in person, I lived vicariously in these festivals through Twitter posts and screaming calls from friends covered in rainbows and glory. Pride festivals such as these have always seemed like such amazing, magical events, and I hope that someday I will be able to be at one in person when I am happy and free.

Next (and maybe most importantly): Daniel Howell, quite possibly one of the bravest little video-making, cringe-inducing, genuine, kind (is his own quirky little way), and authentic YouTube beans that I've ever had the fortune of stumbling across.

Thank you. You (this feels weird ehee) said that you hoped that your coming out "story" (it's a story that never really ends, I think) would help people, and I think that it's quite clear that you've succeeded there. It was so incredibly amazing and trusting of you to just - open yourself up to the world like you did. The stories you told and the long journey that you laid out in the open broke my heart with the pain of its relatability (that's probs not a word lmao) and then mended it with your words of hope and (frankly hilarious) encouragement. I wish to be half as brave as you are. There's quite a lot I could keep on talking about (oops I'm sorry!) but I'll stop here. Just,, thank you for giving me and so many others the courage to exist (and to live).

Finally (and also super importantly): to the quiff-sporting, translucent-skinned other YouTube bean, Phil Lester. The amount of times I laughed during your coming out video is atrocious and now I have abs (can confirm). Your light and very low-key approach to such an important part of your life was rather inspiring and uplifting. It was similar to a reminder not to take life or anything too seriously, because I have time and a future to look forward to that I just need to live in and not just survive in. Thank you so much for that little piece of light, I'll continue to look forward to the future.

My gratitude to a pair of tall British boys who I've never even met is frankly alarming but its out there and I'm eternally thankful for their kind words that have helped me get through quite a lot. Be safe, do good things, and remember: the future is clear. It's pretty queer.

May all of your futures be hopeful. ❤

New Fav. I really need to start to get a better style. Sadly I’m broke as hell. 

Maybe I should kill myself.

Awolnation (via unkaputtbarxo)

Batfamily damn good ao3 tags pt.2

This is part two of my list of ao3 tags about the Batfamily that I think should be used more. As always, semi-serious list.

Canon tags:

• Demon Damian Wayne (makes the nickname "demon brat" accurate, I love it >>>>) • Selectively Mute Cassandra Cain (I'm really fond of it and would like to see more.) • Tim Drake Being Smart But Dumb (one of the best canon tags about Tim) • Jason Todd Has a Crime Alley | Park Row Accent (I'm weak for accents) • Bruce Wayne Faces Consequences (There are many fanfics for Jason but few for Bruce dealing with the consequences of his actions/choices. But, hey! There is the tag) • Author Duke Thomas (I like all the Batkids hobby tags but Duke's is so underused :( ) • Autistic Bruce Wayne (I like all the neurodivergence tags but this one in particular because Bruce is on the autism spectrum even in canon) • Hacker Barbara Gordon (the number of stories with this tag is less than the number of fingers on one hand. Let's fix that, NOW) • Dick Grayson Can't Cook (I just like to make fun of Dick) • Jason Todd Loves Jane Austen (I said it: I love batkids hobby tags) • Cheerleader Dick Grayson (I just love that this tag hesitates (reminder: boys can be cheerleaders too))

Fanon/not yet canon:

• Tim Drake Writes Fanfiction (If you don't want this to be a canonical tag, you're not a chaos lover enough) • Jason names his guns after Austen characters (I BEG YOU TO MAKE THIS A TAG) • Cassandra Cain Has Eldest Daughter Syndrome (Dick has this tag but I think it fits Cass well too) • Insecure Barbara Gordon (let's give the girl permission to feel emotions) • Damian Wayne Runs Away (The potential >>>>)

WHYYYYYYYYYYY

okay, so the other day I wanted to look up Dan Howell and Phil Lester’s astrology charts, right? So I found out when and where they were born and came up with this…

Phil: Aquarius sun, Aquarius moon, Gemini rising, Aquarius mercury, Sagittarius Venus, Aries mars 

Dan: Gemini sun, Gemini moon, Gemini rising, Gemini mercury (jfc Dan has a lot of Gemini in his chart), Leo Venus, and Leo mars 

DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS 

IT MEANS THAT DAN AND PHIL ARE PERFECTLY COMPATIBLE TOGETHER AND NOTHING IN THEIR CHART IS HOLDING THEM BACK AND WTF THIS ISN’T SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN AND do you even realize what the odds of something like this happening??????

Proving a point to my boyfriend.

PLEASE REBLOG if you (male or female) believe it is perfectly okay and natural for a guy of any age to cry

Reblog if you already fucked up in 2019