Ugh It Is, You Know I Live My Lif Elike This Right Now, I Would Like To Be A Teacher, But I Dont Wanna

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Six weeks ago I was evicted from my childhood home by my mother’s bankruptcy trustee. The eviction was very much against my mom’s will. My mom has had a number of health issues necessitating her being in an assisted care facility. At the time I was saving for an apartment. I never had quite enough to pay the deposit and first month’s rent. Since I’ve had to blow through all of it. I periodically have to contribute money to mom as she isn’t able to work. I have to pay her phone cell bills so we can talk. I often am too poor to get to the suburban neighborhood of the facility.

I book airbnbs for 4-7 days as I can afford. Without airbnbs I’d have nowhere to go. I don’t have family that would help. People I’ve known 18 years won’t even acknowledge a birthday text or a handpainted present.

A week ago my e-mail was hacked. The hacker used their control of my email to change all my passwords and steal all of the money I had for food, transportation, and shelter. I did get it sorted but still have not received any of my regular distributions from Etsy. I haven’t had one in well over 10 days because of that disgusting hacker. I have to get a new airbnb as my current booking is up tomorrow.

In addition to being hacked my mom had a breathing crisis. Being 5'11 112lbs, still recovering from viral pneumonia and crazy high pollen counts are a bad combination. I had to go be with her. She’s back at the rehab facility now with a prescription for an immunosuppressant.

I’m in a really desperate situation. I’ve set up a 40% off sale on etsy for purchases $50+. The sale coincides with Mother’s Day.

https://www.etsy.com/shop/KateHavekostFineArt

However it takes time for money to clear through etsy and then my bank. So for tumblr followers only I’m having another sale. I receive money via PayPal and Venmo instantly so

Sales can be paid via

paypal.me/KateHavekost

or

Venmo

Kate-Havekost

“Me too…I love you…”

Like a firework in water.

Wait, I just realized english is not just a language for us to understand each other, but THERE are people using it unironically 

no one who speaks english as their first language is valid and that is the tea for today

Moving out

I seeall this stuff from my childhood. So many things where I realize, everything I did from my 8yrs old self, was coping.

I had a shitty childhood, but really

With 8 I cut the eyes from old pictures out.

With 9 I drew black over my father in every picture I own of him.

With 10 I wrote in a diary telling it how I hate everyone and everything.

With 12 I got letters from my bullies telling me how worthless I am, I spit in them.

And with 15 I wrote a letter how I will kill myself.

I found this now, cuz I now move out I just realize how bad I actually was. I never fully understood why everyone is so impressed and stunned bymy behavior and casuality about all of this. Until now.

And now I’m sitting here, almost crying, realizing how fucking messed up I was. I am. How fucking good I am at coping and ignoring. How fucking stupid I was thinking I wont get better.

God, I cant fully comprehend the fact that the little girl, destroying her possessions out if anger, trying to kill herself, always mad and angry at the world. The little girl who was insuch a bad spot, was me. Is me idk.

Im still so fucking mad. Still so fucking vulnerable, I never realize how vulnerable, because I well, just keep going, keep living.

Is it a good coping mechanism, stubbornness or just ignorance? Idk all I know is I’ve got better.

My depression and anxiety will never go fully away again. But I’ve got control and freedom.

my quality of life has improved tenfold ever since i was introduced to breezewiki, a site that exists solely to remove the bloat from fandom.com wikis. no more ads, quizzes, random autoplaying videos, popups, recommended pages from other sites, or discord server member lists. just the wiki. these things are finally readable again

I realise my parents don’t actually understand my twisted Gen Z sense of nihilistic humour like I’m currently coughing my lungs up and I have four shows to peform in the next week and two full dress rehearsals so I said ‘I could just chug an entire bottle of cough syrup before each show and hope for the best’ and then my mum said she was gonna take the bottle out of my room because she genuinely thought I was going to do it like no mother if I was going to chug an entire bottle of anything it would be bleach

Inactive Twitter accounts will be deleted

So like I understand the need to free up usernames that were taken and then never used again, but what about accounts of people who died ?

Its unclear if the criteria for an inactive account’s deletion is both “No log in for years AND zero tweets made by the account as a whole,aka empty accounts”

It could very well be “No login for years and zero tweets made during this inactivity”

Which would sucks cuz theres a lot of cool stuff made from accounts who are inactive, and again, all that some families have left from their deceased loved ones is an inactive twitter account.

Back in 2019,this concern was brought up, and Twitter said they wouldnt delete accounts to free up names without making it possible to memorialize accounts of a deceased person first.

Now, Under Elon, i dont know if it will be made.

So if you know an inactive account you really loved.. make sure to save its tweets into the wayback machine, take screenshots, etc.

Just in case.

Also they dont even specify how many years. We’re left in total darkness regarding questions we have.

Also im encouraging you to please REBLOG as to further warn people.

Also hey maybe if enough people Ask Elon about not deleting inactive accounts who do have content in them maybe hell only delete accounts who are empty ??

when will people use the anon function to send passionate, homosexual anonymous love letters