Not To Complain About Trivial Human Matters But Like. I'm Just A Creature.. I Wasn't Created To Worry

cmyk angel

Yeah so I've been wondering whether or not I'm conceptkin for about a year now, it's been bothering me but I kind of brushed it off, yet now I'm 98% sure I'm conceptkin. I just have to figure out what concept I am exactly, because there's so many that come to mind, but it's all a bit of a blur 😭😭

My nature as an angel has always been abstract, but I just feel that there is way more to that. I am an angel, I am a being of light, but I'm also a concept that's very related to my angehood... or maybe my angelhood is related to that concept???

let's fly through the stars together

Taking off my backpack after school (and letting my wings free after a 20 minute walk) feels like taking off my bra and letting my vessel's boobs breathe

Update: it appears that my responsibilities also have wings because they're forcing me to face them tomorrow

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⤷ live footage of me flying away from my responsibilities

Asks and reblogs help a lot, imo. We share questions, information and experiences in a very different way since tiktok is a video based app while tumblr is more versatile.. and I guess it is more accepting? Or rather, it's common for a community here to receive less hate than it would on tiktok, where people can't resist the urge to hate on a video instead of scrolling. Not only is it more difficult to control the content that appears on your fyp, but tiktok users are also incapable of blocking a hashtag or ignoring the content they dislike so they won't see it anymore.

Generally speaking, alterhuman tiktok videos won't be taken seriously by anyone outside the alterhuman community. And when a non-human makes a video about the topic, 80% of the comments will be from people who think horribly of us. I guess that tumblr is full of scary people whereas tiktok is full of immature idiots. Everything has its flaws, lol

Not going to lie, I feel like the alterhuman/therian community on here is a lot more community based than it is on TikTok. I feel like TikTok, it's a lot more individualistic and individual based, which is fine and dandy but in here, I feel like we are more community based.

I honestly prefer the community centered vibes that Tumblr has over the individualistic vibes that TikTok gives. It makes me feel less alone and it also makes me feel like I don't have to perform my alterhumanity to people to prove myself.

Songs that make me forget about the mortal body I'm living in

(AKA, songs on my favorite angelkin playlist <3)

1. Runaway - Aurora

2. Goodbye to a World - Porter Robinson

3. Birds Of a Feather - Billie Eilish

4. Light - Sleeping At Last

5. Look After You - The Fray

6. Lovesick - Laufey

7. Duvet - Bôa

8. K. - Cigarettes After Sex

9. Ocean Eyes - Billie Eilish

10. Dernière Danse - Indila

11. Abbey - Mitski

12. The Scientist - Coldplay

13. Edith Wiskers - Home

14. Remember my Name - Mitski

15. I Will - Mitski

16. One - Sleeping At Last

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Maybe I have chronic pain because I'm meant to fly, not walk or use my muscles too much 🧐🧐 think about it. I'm a being of light and I'm literally supposed to float. What if this body is just too heavy

how do you know you’re angelkin, i mean before I didn’t acknowledge kin but I definitely saw myself as something more divine but I didn’t acknowledged because I was scared to be wrong, too cocky or just plain disrespectful then one day I saw someone talking about being a demonkin and looked up realizing angelkin existed too!

Do I just label myself as one now? Could I be your 🐏🕊️anon? Too (*´v｀)

I hope this wasnt sent too long ago, i dunno if my asks are working properly but YES YOU CAN BE MY ANON 🫶🏻 you can skip the parts of this that you think aren't useful to you, I just tend to use too many words when explaining myself 😭 and this is a topic that's very dear to me, especially the part about feeling like your identity's disrespectful.

Anyways - I think I found out in the cliché way, if you can call it that. Feeling like I wasn't human (ever since I was a kid), feeling like I was supposed to fly and getting frustrated that I couldn't. Also getting very mad at myself for being scared of heights, because it simply felt wrong.

How I found out:

I used to identify as a winged therian (i went from a butterfly to a dove and more), because my first shifts mainly consisted of vague phantom wings and a weird feeling that my body was lighter and floating. The thing is, I became aware of my divinity when I almost vividly remembered the gods I served. It felt like they were calling out to me because I was ready to awaken, and I did not reject their signs, because I always knew deep down that I was protected by higher beings - and that, even when I thought I was an animal, it always felt mystical and holy. An immortal owl, a butterfly who could fly a little too high for it to be realistic, a dove meant to spread peace and protect creatures. Do you see what I mean?

-> This is definitely very personal. I also understand that it can be of little help to questioning angels who don't worship any gods; however, as some in the community have said, you ARE a certain creature as long as you can say, for sure, that you identify as it. If you can look at yourself in the mirror and say you're an angel, that's enough. You dont have to rush to discover all the details about your memories, your past or your home.

About not acknowledging a kintype because it feels morally wrong:

Yeah, it took me a while to get rid of that mindset. But personally, for me, the problem was the religious settings in which I grew up in; they weren't strict, but even so, the way I had to approach Christianity wasn't healthy. So even if I strayed from it with little guilt, it made me feel like I wasn't allowed to have beliefs of my own. I felt a connection with gods that nobody around me worshipped, gods that had their own rules, their own followers and servants; I realized no one could tell me that my beliefs were wrong. They were not, because only I knew how they worked, and I wasn't going to give them up. You, too, are allowed to label yourself as an angel according to your beliefs and definitions of an angel. Things have changed; some modern sources view angels as spiritual guides and beings of all kind, not just servants of a god.

And if you're worried about being "cocky"... well. That basically implies that you're worried about how others might perceive you, but you know that your identity isn't about claiming superiority, right? If you know you don't want to appear cocky, it's clear that you don't mean to be. You can't control how people interpret your intentions, but you shouldn't let that keep you from accepting yourself as you are.

Being angelkin can be controversial. But that's because some people are close-minded, and that's not our fault.