Everytime I Look Myself In The Mirror..

Mantra.

“Out of your vulnerabilities will come your strength.”

— Sigmund Freud

“The sun watches what I do. But the moon knows all my secrets.”

— Unknown

“please don’t come closer unless you plan to stay”

— Unknown

I don't feel like I deserve love because I haven't done anything to earn it. I believe there must be a reason for someone to love you, and I don't see any reason for anyone to love me. Even if someone did, I would still feel like I don't deserve it. So, there's no point in being in love or in a relationship. I'm flawed, and I don't think anyone should be with someone as flawed as me. That's why I don't want to fall in love or be in a relationship right now.

STEPS*

Being alone sucks at first

Prepare your mind to live with it. It will take time, so be patient. Slowly slowly.. You will love it..

Then you won't care to be alone anymore

Thats when you get to be stronger.

Love is a matter of awareness and letting go of all trying

-Ien Chi

Can't stand people who go silent just because they're having a mood swing.

Absolutely immature and infuriating.

Questions to which I don't have answers

Why do I feel sad when I am alone?

Why do I think like everyone around me are staring when actually they aren't?

Why do I suddenly feel broken when I get to know i am gonna be alone?

Why do my mind and heart pity me in that situation?

Why do my heart and mind gets weak by then?

Why am I not happy when I am alone?

When am I gonna enjoy solitude like others ?

How can I overcome this feeling of nothingness during solitude?

Why is sitting alone in a room with people tough for me?

Why do I act weirdly when I am with me?

Why can't I feel the sorroundings, my body and mind?

Why do I bother about others ?