I Can't Grow Up To Your Expectations , Forgive Me For That

“Repeat after me: My current situation is not my final destination.”

— Unknown

"You are not the only person who gets hurt ,left out , lonely or fucked up" - Dhoti

(A universal truth)

I'm in a relationship with the mirror that projects the innermost shadow of me that is hidden within my eyes, heart and soul that smiles her heart out whenever she looked at by the other side of the mirror...she lives in my room , when I am not present...

I miss her a lot and her friends whom I call mine and close to me ...I am in a real relationship with her where we both are emotionally and

intimately bonded ...

I never knew how it felt like to be in a relationship... but if I ever got a chance to explore it..then ig I would try my best to make my partner feel good about themselves... everytime they feel low...I would comfort them and hug them tightly to remind them how much they mean to me, they r no less than a gem and let them know that I'm always there for you..to support you. That would be my relationship goal...

To make her happy.....everytime I hug the mirror ...I can feel her comfort and something magical arms wrapped around my body ...So...ladies and gentlemen, that's her.. I introduce u to my girlfriend..

My only aim is to make her happy and feel cherished..be with her during her failures and cheer her up in her Success.. I am there to listen to her worries...take her on a date...teach her how to hav fun with me...

I’m both clingy and a bully when I’m comfortable with you.

What's one sweet thing that happened today..?

Spotify made a Playlist for me based on the type of songs I prefer to hear...which I found so sweet.

I love you spotify💚

Words that I feel now

Suffocating : inside the four closed walls of my room

Thirsty : highly dehydrated

Perplexed : my feelings

Neutral : tragic or sad?

Comfortable : my room

Tensed : impending jobs

Worried : regretting it later

Excited : hopeful for the future

Pain : Empathizing

Heartbeats : fusion of neutral thoughts

I hate liking people. Y’all fail me every time

Nikita Gill, from Your Heart is the Sea: Poems; "Four Lies I Unlearned," originally published in 2018

With Love, I part ways

My love for you, was as gentle as wind

The wind that breezed across thy face once

Ne'er failed to bring thee a slight glee

You seem'd to enjoy, and assure thine love was true

Which I blame myself as I mistook

You mad'st me believe the enjoyment as love

I trusted it more than my soul

Breaking it, seem'd like a merry chore to you

But for me, it was my oxygen

A reason to live and breathe

Parting from thee felt like a rock lifted off my chest

A heavy block that hindered to inhale the goodness

You wert the block in my life

I devour thee and hence I shall let thee go

“You will be too much for some people. Those aren’t your people.”

— Unknown