“You Will Be Too Much For Some People. Those Aren’t Your People.”

‎" For your peace of mind, do not try to understand everything. "

He said, "I know that you do not speak these words by way of protest and discourtesy. So, seek refuge in Me, and fear lest your togetherness be scattered. You should know that I am perfect in power. My power has no defect. In your very clothing and veil, I will gather you together and I will give you familiarity and togetherness with each other.” (703-4)

That's what I wanna hear..

I can always come to her

But never cry leaning on her shoulder

Because we don't do that

We don't show emotions mutually

I'll never do that

Because I can control

Anxiety! Is worse than depression

I think this is because anxiety doesn’t just affect your mood, it affects your physical body, especially your nervous system. When my anxiety gets severe, I can barely breathe. My breath is short. My whole body is tense, especially my chest and shoulders. My forehead feels like it is going to explode. My body sort of quits working. I can’t talk, I can’t think, I can’t process anything, I can’t even move. I don’t expect “normal” people to understand, but when I am THAT bad, I feel like I am going to die. My body is in panic mode and although I know there is no fire, my body doesn’t care. It sounds the alarms anyway. I don’t know how else to explain this to other people, but I seriously can’t function during those times. People always say things like “why didn’t you answer the phone or reply to my text?” The real answer is because I was literally checked out.

Everyone gets anxiety at times. In my opinion, what most people describe as anxiety is just stress. Chronic anxiety is like stress x 10000%.

I generally go into depression after weeks of high anxiety. It’s difficult to focus or get things done when I have anxiety. And as you can imagine, it is VERY exhausting walking around 24/7 feeling like that. Add to that insomnia. In my experience, depression is not really sadness. I either feel nothing at all or I feel a deep sense of shame for feeling nothing at all. I care a lot, then I care about nothing at all, then my body is like WTF get your shit together you worthless piece of shit! It’s a cycle. I think that I become numb because my body is worn out from trying to feel everything at once when I was in the anxiety phase. I feel nothing because the pleasure/pain response is turned off. I become a zombie. I think feeling nothing, although not ideal, is easier than feeling everything at once.

I need time

“Don’t wait for things to get easier, simpler, better. Life will always be complicated. Learn to be happy right now. Otherwise, you’ll run out of time.”

— Unknown

Study me as much as you like, you will never know me, for I differ a hundred ways from what you see me to be. Put yourself behind my eyes, and see me as I see myself, For I have chose to dwell in a place you cannot see. ✻.ღ.*.Rumi.*.ღ.✻ ƬĤΛИҠ Y♡Ʊ F♡Ŕ ßƐĪИƓ Rumi in his eloquent words suggests us that our ‘true self’ can never be seen. Our true nature is not meant for our physical eyes, it can only be felt / seen through the eyes of the inner heart. Each human being is such an unique mystery! Because of that uniqueness Rumi says that only to see and understand someone truly we have to put ourselves behind the eyes of ‘the one’. Entering into the highly esoteric human field of 'the one’ is what enables us to mysteriously become 'you’, to become 'the friend’, to become a true lover. Its a timeless secret.

“Don’t allow someone to treat you poorly just because you love them.”

— Unknown

“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.”

— Albert Einstein

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