I Feel Like There Is Some Hidden Secretive Grudge Towards Me That's Never Gonna Change.

Well the question is "why are you sad when you get home??"

People say, stop thinking about things that pains you. It's your time at home with your parents, enjoy , have fun, spend time with them.

Well I am sorry , I tried but I can't. I ain't that person even after several trials. I am not trying anymore .

I am home. In my space where I can breathe , I can talk without people judging me. I am alone with my vulnerable self. I am sad, trying to feel my pain.

I am feeling things deeply. If I am going through something that is uncomfortable or painful or hard, I am allowing myself to dive into those emotions or allow myself to numb them. I don't wanna kill my pain through television or spending time with friends or Instagram. I chose not to protect myself from pain because it demands to be felt . Pain demands to be felt . Coz I feel it will show up in other ways if I do not deal with it now.

“True friendship is when two friends can walk in opposite directions, yet remain side by side.”

— Josh Grayson, Sia

I AM 😊

You lost your daughter only because of your lack of understanding!

I can take care of myself

For tht I need to die first

Nd then reborn and recreate

If you want to predict where you will end up in life all you have to do it to follow the curve of tiny gains or tiny losses and see how your daily choices will compound 10 or 20 years down the line.

Are you spending less than you on each month are you making it into the gym each with are you reading books and learning something new.

Each day tiny battles like these other one's that will define your future self.

#atomichabits

"You are not the only person who gets hurt ,left out , lonely or fucked up" - Dhoti

(A universal truth)

I am longing for a tight hug, to heal the pain in my heart.

“Out of your vulnerabilities will come your strength.”

— Sigmund Freud

Don’t regret what’s happened. If it’s in the past, let it go. Don’t even remember it. Protect yourself from.. your own thoughts   ✻.ღ.*.Rumi.*.ღ.✻   ƬĤΛИҠ Y♡Ʊ F♡Ŕ ßƐĪИƓ