Love Letters Via Email 💓

I don’t understand why everyone is so afraid of adult conversations. You don’t like me ? Tell me. You don’t wanna talk to me? Don’t ignore me. You’re mad at me ? Let me know . I’m wrong ? let’s talk. We don’t agree? Share ur viewpoints. It’s really not that hard.

I don't think it's God's job to stop the bad .

He's there to give us the strength to get through it.

TAKE ME HOME

“Just being there for someone can sometimes bring hope when all seems hopeless.”

— Dave G. Llewellyn

As cringey as it fucking sounds, i wish I could erase everyone’s memories of me, no one would know me

“True friendship is when two friends can walk in opposite directions, yet remain side by side.”

— Josh Grayson, Sia

Anxiety! Is worse than depression

I think this is because anxiety doesn’t just affect your mood, it affects your physical body, especially your nervous system. When my anxiety gets severe, I can barely breathe. My breath is short. My whole body is tense, especially my chest and shoulders. My forehead feels like it is going to explode. My body sort of quits working. I can’t talk, I can’t think, I can’t process anything, I can’t even move. I don’t expect “normal” people to understand, but when I am THAT bad, I feel like I am going to die. My body is in panic mode and although I know there is no fire, my body doesn’t care. It sounds the alarms anyway. I don’t know how else to explain this to other people, but I seriously can’t function during those times. People always say things like “why didn’t you answer the phone or reply to my text?” The real answer is because I was literally checked out.

Everyone gets anxiety at times. In my opinion, what most people describe as anxiety is just stress. Chronic anxiety is like stress x 10000%.

I generally go into depression after weeks of high anxiety. It’s difficult to focus or get things done when I have anxiety. And as you can imagine, it is VERY exhausting walking around 24/7 feeling like that. Add to that insomnia. In my experience, depression is not really sadness. I either feel nothing at all or I feel a deep sense of shame for feeling nothing at all. I care a lot, then I care about nothing at all, then my body is like WTF get your shit together you worthless piece of shit! It’s a cycle. I think that I become numb because my body is worn out from trying to feel everything at once when I was in the anxiety phase. I feel nothing because the pleasure/pain response is turned off. I become a zombie. I think feeling nothing, although not ideal, is easier than feeling everything at once.

The moment I set foot in my home ,there is a smooth switch in my mood. Instead of seeing me happy, you can find a dull face sitting in the corner of my dark room.

I try to isolate myself from people not knowing why. I give myself space and time to deal with some suppressed feelings that I had locked up in my mind with chains so that it doesn't bother me. I am somedays confused about my personality. I believe I'm a person who can not hide my true emotions. You can see my numb face if I'm sad, or you can see me excited and thrilled and talkative if I'm happy. I am open, and there's nothing to hide. I'm extremely bad at smiling when I am broken inside. People say women are good at hiding emotions. Well, I'm not one of those women.

“you are still learning. you are still changing. you are still growing. breathe. you will find your way.”

— Unknown