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why are we here? just to suffer? every 5 minutes i have to clean my glasses

“You read something which you thought only happened to you, and you discover that it happened 100 years ago to Dostoyevsky. This is a very great liberation for the suffering, struggling person, who always thinks that he is alone. This is why art is important. Art would not be important if life were not important, and life is important.”

— James Baldwin, Conversations with James Baldwin (via 5139321966)

I FORGOT SOME SORRY

Last series completed (book): I think it's actually AFTG, whoops

Currently working on: Feature piece for a magazine, in the interview process. And also AFTG fics, but in the daydreaming, tryna figure it out process

Tag game

rules: tag nine people you’d like to catch up with or get to know better

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@lyndiscealin, I am flattereddd

Rules: Tag 9 people you'd like to catch up with or know more about

Favourite colour: Deep ocean blue-green, the kind you see when you fly over the ocean

Currently reading: Scorpio Races (for like the 5th time cuz comfort) and The Anthropocene Reviewed (I'm not really one for John Green's YA novels but some of these ESSAYS BRUH)

Last song: I played? I don't even know, I have music on all the time. Currently listening to Flower by Raaginder, the most beautiful violin piece I have EVER come across

Last movie: Imitation Game (I like rewatching it lmao); last film I've seen for the first time was Neeya (Tamil film from the 70s)

Last TV show: The Office (again, I do be rewatching)

Tea or Coffee: In the morning, coffee; in the evening, tea

Tags: @miyukikazuya, @sargentcow

Tag game

rules: tag nine people you’d like to catch up with or get to know better

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i don't wanna love myself like "buy this feel good". i wanna love myself like i made a sandwich for later because i knew i'd be too busy. i wanna love myself like hang on take a breath do you actually like this. i wanna love myself like okay we're gonna set a reminder to get up and brush our teeth. i wanna love myself like - it's okay to say no, it's okay to take that nap, it's okay to go home.

i don't wanna feel sexy like tv. i don't wanna feel sexy like little black dress. i wanna feel sexy like high note during karaoke. like just got done writing 14 pages of poetry. like let me show you this scarf i've been knitting. i wanna feel sexy like hand on the back of the headrest while you parallel park. like did i tell you about that time i saved a baby bird. like don't tell her but i've been sneaking money into her purse.

i don't wanna feel pretty like expensive. like high fashion. like paid to be here. i wanna feel pretty like a bird in a puddle. i wanna feel pretty like streak of dyed hair. i wanna feel pretty like calligraphy, like new leaves, like a skinned knee bleed, like a dog running at full speed. i wanna feel pretty like lying next to you. i wanna feel pretty like the new album just dropped, i wanna feel pretty like a shower, i wanna feel pretty like a stone wall all covered in moss.

i keep saying body neutrality. that feels negative - no bad things, no good things, just body. but i mean - my body is neutral like a flower is neutral like an oil slick is neutral like a day is neutral, too. my body is neutral so a kiss can feel like lightning so a dance can feel like a hula hoop so a walk to get coffee can feel like - god, i'm so happy to just be around you.

my body is a site. not the source of the joy, just where i can find it. i don't wanna love like - finally got my body tight/forced myself through a diet/whatever trend is the current hype. i wanna love myself like - i go to this river and i find gold every time i shift around inside it. i wanna love myself like - i feel sexy because it's sexy to be alive, and laughing. i wanna love myself like - bitch, i could have died, and i didn't, and if that isn't the prettiest almost in the whole world, than i don't know what is.

AFTG SUMMER EXCHANGE 2021

This is my gift for @prettybrownbitch 💞

I wanted to combine all your prompts together, but i wrote this and... I thought it sat well on its own. The good news is that writing this finally jumpstarted my other andreil fics so you're welcome to pretend that whatever andreil i ever share from now on is dedicated to you!

The summary:

Andrew thought coming off drugs will get rid of all side-effects, so why is Neil still here?

AKA the scene where Neil picks up the cigarette from the ground and smokes it, but from Andrew’s POV

AFTG Summer Exchange 2021

I FINISHED. I'm so nearly late, I am so sorry. Life, ya feel?

Anyway, this is for @lyndiscealin, your prompts were hella cute but I ended up running with the sticky notes one. I hope you enjoy this!

It's called monster (under my bed) by @scribbleb-red, READ IT, IT'S SO GOOD. ALL THEIR WORK ACTUALLY HELLA PHENOMENAL.

I must also tell y'all that other people did gorgeous artwork here and it's by @reinventlinda

Anyway, that is all.

One of the commissions 🌌

I want to learn more about drawing light, it’s so interesting

Y'all know that fic about demon Neil and Andrew meeting as kids and then later realizing they're in love. This. Someone inform the author of that fic, this is so fitting BRUH

One of the commissions 🌌

I want to learn more about drawing light, it’s so interesting

Happy summer exchange season! This is for @autumnalpalmetto, who asked for Andrew friendship with the rest of the Foxes/Andreil for the @aftgexchange event.

I hope you enjoy!

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At first, Andrew suspected it was just a bad day. A heaviness in his head, a fog that made him pay less attention to practice than normal. He brushed both Neil’s concern and Kevin’s anger off in equal measure, just wanting to get back to his room and sleep for the rest of the day.

Neil didn’t comment when he burrowed beneath his blankets and didn’t talk for the rest of the night. The junkie eventually left him to sleep and watched games with Kevin in his room, but Andrew could feel his eyes on him as he walked away. At the moment, he was too tired to muster up the energy to feel bad about pushing him away. Neil could handle Andrew’s moods.

His bad day theory was proven wrong when he woke up with a throbbing headache. He sits up, only to find the world was tilting a little bit. Groaning, he lays back down. “Fuck.”

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I'm writing an article

I'll be writing a piece for Thaen X that discusses safe spaces, or rather the lack thereof, concerning sex and sexuality in South Asian families and the consequences of this. You are under no obligation to answer any questions you don't wish to; if you do, please provide as much detail as possible. Any responses received will be kept entirely confidentially, of course.

https://forms.gle/jUvSCejnj62iadGa9

aftg au but Tilda gave Andrew to his father who is the head of another mob family part four (parts 1 - 2 - 3)

It wasn't difficult to convince Neil to sign in with the foxes, Andrew just had to say exy five times and Neil said you got me there. Andrew called his father and told him about Nathaniel

you see, Andrew's father wanted to take down the Moryimas and he wasn't nearly strong enough, but if Andrew played his cards right he could use Neil to make a deal with the Harfords because when Mary and Nathaniel went to Andrew's father, he wasn't powerful enough to even think about it. But now??? if they talk, they could eat the Moryimas in a fancy plate. just the second branch actually, but still fancy plate and golden spoon. Diamond knife maybe.

however, it was dangerous. Andrew's father didn't send his son as a spy inside the Nest because Andrew would end up dead or kidnapped and it would be for nothing. Having Kevin and Neil with him will not get Andrew killed as easily but it would bring attention and danger to Andrew anyway

not that Andrew's father is weak, actually he is so powerful that i cant even say his name. Is not me without creativity for a name, noo, is the mob families and the FBI threatening me

When Neil arrived, Andrew, Aaron, Nicky and Kevin were waiting for him at the airport. Kevin didn't trust Andrew with the new kid because maybe just maybe when Andrew said he convinced Neil to join the team, he also said "i hate him, he's stupid. Gonna end up dead"

he does hate Neil (Neil didn't like the name Nathaniel so Andrew was using Neil and Abram to call him), because the junkie insisted on asking Andrew to admit that he likes exy. how dare him

Andrew was surprised when Neil said hi to him and not to Aaron, both of them were wearing black and had similar hair cut but Neil just stare at them and found Andrew.

andrew: whats this warm felling inside my heart

aaron: new kid has eyes, good for them

they talked in the car and Neil crushed Nicky's dream saying that he doesn't swing.

andrew: why im sad??

Andrew did not told Nicky that the rabbit was all around the world and probably knew germany so Nicky gossiped about Neil being so so handsome until Andrew glared at him

Later, when they were at Wymack's he promised that he was safe, that Wymack wasn't a bad men.

His fake brown eyes were bright like the sun when he saw the court (Andrew wanted to punch him then carefully cup his face and take off that fake brown so he could see the strong blue after so many years)

the days passed with Kevin training with them and Andrew and Neil telling each other truths, Andrew made a deal with Neil, if Neil stayed, Andrew would protect him, Neil is keeping Kevin's interest anyway. Nicky loved Neil and Aaron ignored Neil

When the upperclassmen arrived and the coach said the Ravens changed districts Andrew guessed that Kevin already knew because he wasn't panicking, so Andrew made Kevin understand that it wasn't okay hide important things from people who want to protect you, Kevin!

what Andrew didn't understood was why Neil wasn't running? like he is owned by the Ravens, Andrew's father said so, why Riko coming closer wouldn't be a reason for Neil to go in rabbit mode?

did he trusted Andrew's protection that much? Oh, no, the warm felling again Andrew will ignore it. Fellings aren't real if you ignore them enough.

but no, Neil didn't knew that he is owned by the Moryimas, they were in the roof when Andrew told him and Neil stopped breathing and looked ready to run. Andrew hold him by his neck and said "We have a deal, rabbit, do your part and I will protect you", then they smoked in silence for a long time

Dan and Matt were quick in adopting Neil and saying that they were sorry about the monsters

Neil had to bite his tongue until he felt the blood so he wouldn't defend Andrew.

Neil learned to like Matt and Dan eventually, they were nice and when Neil said stop calling them monster or die by my hands! they stopped.

Andrew told Neil about Renee, not her secrets, just enough to not startle the rabbit

even so, the rabbit was startled. she had something dark, but she was trying to be better, she was sweet and nice. Neil could see she and Andrew dating like Matt said

(when Neil asked about it, Andrew's ears went pink and he glared at Neil for solid five minutes then said "ask Renee", when Neil did, Renee told him Andrew is gay)

Allison and Seth. Neil hated them. They just wouldn't stop calling Andrew a monster, it was so annoying that Andrew had to hold Neil to stop him from punching Seth and gutting Allison

after Neil screamed at Seth "who the fuck do you think you are to judge people? say shit about Andrew's lot but they are your team, respect them or you are too perfect for that? You, drugged out of you mind? What's wrong with you? Are you jealous of Kevin because if you are, just get better than him! You have potential but you throw it away, you throw everything away, you can't even hold your relationship for more than 3 days! Wake up, Gordon, stop hiding behind your hate" things got better

slowly the foxes would learn team work but not at time for their first game, they lost but it wasn't so ugly, it was better than usual, better enough that they had an interview

my current obsession is Matt hightailing it out of the dorm before The Shower Scene. He said ON GOD Neil I will not cockblock you bro. He said Andrew sir I am not looking, I am respectful. He saw the sexual tension and homeboy RAN I’m-

I mean he definitely got the nicest one 😌

The way that exclusionists treat ace and aro people often reminds me of how the average person would treat me when I started being open as non-binary. I’ve said it once and I’ll say it a thousand times, we are not enemies. Our experiences do not oppose each other, they are intertwined. If you’re ace, if you’re aromantic, if you’re any variation thereupon; your home is here. You belong here, too. You are beautiful, and powerful; and you don’t have to explain yourself to anyone. You are a valued part of this community.

“You did what you did, I felt what I felt, and it is what it is.”

— Unknown

I know many of you follow me because I post about cartoons.

Maybe, that is why you have blogs. And maybe in those blogs you only share about those series. But, please, I ask you to share news about Colombia. To share about what is happening to the people of Colombia.

Even if your blog is not about that. Even, and specially if you are not from Colombia/ Latinoamerica. Please.

PEOPLE IN COLOMBIA ARE BEING MURDERED. ELDERS. MINORS. STUDENTS. People like you and me.

This needs to be known. By everyone. By all the world. Share the news. Post about it. Please, help Colombia.

-This world is home to all of us. And what happens here is everyone's business.

Hi I wanna participate

1. Avatar Kyoshi (ATLA)

2. Toph Beifong (ATLA)

3. Amren (ACOTAR)

4. Renee Walker (AFTG)

5. Bee (i dunno her last name cuz i'm a heathen) (AFTG)

6. Aelin Galathynius (TOG)

7. Puck Connolly (Scorpio Races)

8. Hermione Granger (HP)

9. Annabeth Chase (PJO)

10. Sally Jackson (PJO)

Special shout outs to: Lydia Martin (teen wolf), Molly Weasley, Hazel (PJO), Manon (TOG), and a lotta other bad bitches that I can't think of right now

I don't really know people yet but:

@greenconverses (hi Jess, you don't know me at all but I've loved you and your blog since I was like 14)

@sargentcow

@dante-the-witch

Not 10 but these are the peoples whose urls I know off the top of my head

TAG GAME

LIST YOUR 10 FAVORITE FEMALE CHARACTERS FROM 10 DIFFERENT FANDOMS THEN TAG 10 PEOPLE

I was tagged by the lovely @kymbersmith-90 except number 1 the rest are in no particular order!

Emma Swan from Once Upon a Time.

Claire Fraser from Outlander.

Feyre Archeron from ACOTAR.

Elain Archeron from ACOTAR.

Nesta Archeron from ACOTAR.

Aelin Ashryver Galathynius from TOG.

Lysandra from TOG.

Arya Stark from GOT.

Audrey Rose Wadsworth from SJTR.

Lexie Grey from Grey’s Anatomy

Special mentions: Manon and Elide from TOG, Queen Anne and Constance from The Musketeers, Brianna Fraser from Outlander, Olivia Dunham from Fringe, Katherine Beckett from Castle, Dianna Bishop from ADOW, Lydia Martin from TW, Molly Dawes from Our Girl.

Tagging this beautiful people (I’m tagging more as I answer more lol): @silver-flames @suelky @azriiel @chthonicgardens @hacawijo @juusworld5728 @feyrearcherons @insulindsay @queenringer @ladylochan @silverlinedeyes @rhyssescups @izzyhavilliard @psychee92 @leiaamidala

Oh this makes me so genuinely happy (T.T)

Blessed_Nest

okay people who have been fighting to unwhitewash the clones, now is your time to help māori!!

What’s happening

- 182.41 hectares of our ancestral land in Wairarapa has come up for sale.

- This whenua backs onto our maunga Tararua, our awa, Waiohine and is near our whānau urupā, Te Uru o Tāneroa.

- The tender price is between $1.2-1.5 million.

- Our whānau are trying to raise money to meet the tender price.

- Our iwi has not settled, so we have no collective financial base.

- Our whānau want to buy back our whenua and establish papakāinga and sustainable business to bring our people home to Wairarapa.

If the tender is unsuccessful they will keep all donations for the next bit of land that comes up

Givealittle

#LandBack Help us buy back our ancestral land in Wairarapa

#LandBack. We have a once in a lifetime opportunity to buy it back and help recreate a hub for our Ngāti Kahukuraawhitia people.

(information has been copied from @/amscraig on twitter, who is a member of the iwi attempting to reclaim their land)

it is so disappointing that this is the only option to reclaim illegally stolen land for the iwi, but the government wont work towards settlement with many iwi so we have no other choice

if you have any money avaliable to donate please do, anything would be appreciated!

aftg hc of the day: whenever neil has to leave for a game (before he and andrew are on the same pro team), andrew will sneak behind him and take shirts and toiletries and anything he can get his hands on out of neils bag. neil has his deodorant sticking out of a side pocket? nope, now it's on the kitchen counter. pants on the bed next to his bag? not anymore, they're on the top of the cat tower (sir appreciated that one, they were still warm out of the dryer). neil lowkey thinks he's going crazy until he sees andrew neatly rehanging his shirts in the exact order they were in before he folded every single one of them.

Sometimes, for me, living is tryna fish my soul out of whatever dark wormhole of my overthinking brain it disappeared into.

reblog if you wear glasses. too many mutuals don't know they have glasses wearers in their midsts

I’ve done it for Good Omens, I’ve done it for Sherlock, now here’s one for RTD era DW characters

Everyone friend group should include:

A bimbo

A mean bisexual

An even meaner lesbian

A she/they

A he/they

A token straight that’s on thin ice

An astrology bitch with who has everyone’s birth charts memorized

A short king

IM CRYING THIS IS SO FUNNY

coming home from the failed siege at the burial mounds and ur son is looking at u weird bc you’ve always sworn that the yiling laozu was a ruthless savage beast who snapped ur arms and legs personally and y’all just spent the last 6 hours watching a charismatic twink in the presidents underwear do group conflict resolution

Absolute unit x tiny unit

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Baby bear catching snowflakes 

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Listen, MDZS/untamed/all-the-other-ones-I-dont-know-them-all is sad. Like it hurts my feelings sad. Such fucking angst, right.

But sometimes I think about Wen Ning and i get extra sad cuz he's so PURE AND NICE. And he's also the Ghost General and I dont even know man, just the idea of that happening, the forced shedding of innocence and shit, breaks my heart. This also goes for Lan Xichen. Hurt my feelings bitch, goddammit

if anyone needs me i'll be frothing at the mouth thinking about the origin of language and interspecies communication. happy wednesday.