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I sit here with my past besides me as if it’s another living being that I must feed and nurture, but the more I feed my past the darker my future becomes. The past swallows me whole into a sea of darkness and once again I’m lost. I’ve lost hope rising from the ashes. Rising from the dead. I wish my past had someone else to cater to them. I wish I could sit alone in silence without the whispers of failures in my ear constantly reminding me of the monster that I once was.
Illustratum Paradoxon
*This is what healing looks like, it’s raw and it hurts like hell*
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LMFAOOO why am I like this?
Meirl
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My fav villain 🖤
Yep and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
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“My kindness gets mistaken for weakness, and my bluntness labels me an asshole.”
Illustratum Paradoxon
Sometimes my empathy turns to apathy.
At times my rage is hard to contain.
Why must I feel so intensely.
When I’m sad my world is crumbling.
When I’m mad you’ll feel my wrath.
I’m loving and kind.
I’m mean and moody.
I’m tired guys.
Emotionally.
Mentally.
Physically.
Tired.
