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Take it day by day. It took years for them to screw you up, take time with your healing. Love yourself through the process. Give yourself grace! These are things I repeat to myself yet, even so still have those days that just seem like “Didn’t I just heal from this?” “Why am I resorting back?!” BUT it doesn’t always mean that! It’s ok to have a bad day. I have to accept that this is a process and some days triggers will just be harder to deflect. Some days our traumas come to taunt us, but I won’t stop the fight. I won’t keep allowing this battle in my mind keep me from healing and moving foreward. I will not hold on to shame and guilt for allowing myself to feel. It’s ok to feel. It’s ok not to be perfect. It’s ok to heal. It’s ok to be happy. And it’s ok NOT to be on the days that you just aren’t feeling your best. Stop beating yourself up!

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“I now intend to create a connection with my throat chakra. May I be in touch with my will to live and may I speak my truth in this world authentically, creatively, and easily. I release all fear that keeps me from listening to my inner voice. I ask to be supportive in all forms of personal expression, so I may communicate my needs effortlessly, and trust that I will be heard. And so it is.”

Today I made a promise. To keep my emotions in check. To watch what I say before I say it. To stop cursing like a sailor. Man that’s a lot to ask from me. BUT when my lack of skills of navigating through my emotions effects the ones I love, then it’s a must. It’s a lot to admit when I’m wrong because I NEVER EVER want to be the reason for someone’s pain. I know all of us are a villain in someone’s story, but as for my family. I will always strive to be the hero. Hey even Hero’s make mistakes I guess. Egos get in the way. Emotions are high. Shi-Stuff Happens. Most importantly I made a promise to STOP absorbing everyone’s feelings. Love them. Care for them. But you can’t save EVERYONE. What I will do is save myself and be the best version of myself to be able to help others and not leave myself on Empty. If I’m empty I can’t give as freely. My resources are limited. So instead of wasting my energy on anger and getting super riled up, I will focus on healing myself to heal others. 🙏🏼 It sounds so easy! But yea...here goes.

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Written: 1•30•19

Soul Connected

I was looking for me But I found you While soul searching I found truth That everything was in my head I was so used to past abuse Little did I know How my soul searching Would bring me to you I searched for my soul But my soul searched for yours Soul searching opened so many doors It’s like we vibe better We know we can weather any storm Sex was always amazing But now it’s more than our flesh Our souls make love Why should they get second best So many walls broken through I’m so glad my soul found you In the process of it all We learned the true meaning of This union Has nothing to do with rings, Vows, papers, or the fate of Divorce loomin’

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