-Illustratum Paradoxon
Today I made a promise. To keep my emotions in check. To watch what I say before I say it. To stop cursing like a sailor. Man that’s a lot to ask from me. BUT when my lack of skills of navigating through my emotions effects the ones I love, then it’s a must. It’s a lot to admit when I’m wrong because I NEVER EVER want to be the reason for someone’s pain. I know all of us are a villain in someone’s story, but as for my family. I will always strive to be the hero. Hey even Hero’s make mistakes I guess. Egos get in the way. Emotions are high. Shi-Stuff Happens. Most importantly I made a promise to STOP absorbing everyone’s feelings. Love them. Care for them. But you can’t save EVERYONE. What I will do is save myself and be the best version of myself to be able to help others and not leave myself on Empty. If I’m empty I can’t give as freely. My resources are limited. So instead of wasting my energy on anger and getting super riled up, I will focus on healing myself to heal others. 🙏🏼 It sounds so easy! But yea...here goes.
-Illustratum Paradoxon
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Same. 😔
Here comes the days of hell...
(aka the peak of my PMDD)
Feelings include:
And the result is:
Conflict and tears. Me arguing with my family and me crying a lot.
I really f*cking hate this crap.
-Illustratum Paradoxon
Written: 6•29•19
Maaaan I’m tired of being left on read There’s so much shit left unsaid I’m tired of forcing relationships It’s like my time ain’t worth shit. Let me not be tired no more Let me be stronger then before. Let me remind you of who I am. Wasted energy trying to show you me mannnn. I’ve become so transparent for you to see But yet it’s like you see right through me. So here goes let me remind you what you’re working with. Let me remind you right quick, have several seats Take your pick. I’m a Bronx native, Yonkers raised Bori-Italia pero I only rep the tribe I was only sent to earth to connect & Vibe Momma-daughter “divorce” Foster care system But despite of it all I would never diss em. It made me who I am A woman who refuses to fall. I most definitely strive to do my all. I got a heart of gold & would do most for many But I stay picky with who I keep near I rather stay a loner Then look for plenty Of fakes, lies and snakes. Mistakes. They rather show you love at wakes. People don’t understand there’s lives at stake. That’s why I don’t have time for fakes.
-Illustratum Paradoxon
Wake up!
The cabal is playing all their cards rn. Not just with twisting the protests to fit their agenda, controlling the public perception via social/mainstream media and fueling division. This is information warfare all assests are being deployed.
But what a coincidence that Anonymous comes back and now is attacking the Q information movement along with a very timely coordinated Epstein Doc on Netflix. Both very conveniently being “limited hangouts” A limited hangout is the deliberate revelation of some information to try to confuse and/or prevent discovery of other information. The Epstein doc is an extremely watered down “PG” version, hidding the true connections and true players to the Human Trafficking/Pedophilia/Satanic Ritual Cult. If you want the unfiltered truth of that it’s been on the Qanon boards for years.
Absolutely love this!!! Via: @moonomens
#moon #inspiration #newmoon #fullmoon #moonphases https://www.instagram.com/p/CMXpE_hHASq/?igshid=l6h9x1kusayq
the scariest thing of having your brain blocking out bits of traumatic memories is that you’re always afraid people won’t believe you because you don’t remember enough
Duncan George
Ain’t that the truth.
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