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You’ve allowed every other person in your life to USE you for their advantage. Why not let God use you for others advantage? Why not let God use you to bring Glory to him by helping others be used in the RIGHT way. Not USED AND ABUSED. Used and redeemed!Used and restored! Used and reusable for more use! Not broken. Not defective. Not abandoned. We are Gods treasure when the world says we are trash!

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Every. Single. Time.

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Do you ever become desensitized to your own trauma?? Like you’ve been dealing with it for so long that when you accidentally let it slip out in conversation and the persons like “um oh my god?” You’re like wow I forgot my life has been one unspeakable horror after another #noted

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Aka The Romantic Individualist 🖤

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Me introducing myself like hi I romanticise everything, overthink way too much, live 85% of my life in my head and still can’t believe I’m a Real Person

Amen!

Lawless abound Soon the beast will wage war against the saints

Then said he unto them, Nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: -Luke 21:10 ( Riots and BLM )

And great earthquakes shall be in divers places, and famines, and pestilences; and fearful sights and great signs shall there be from heaven. -Luke 21:11

But before all these, they shall lay their hands on you, and persecute you, delivering you up to the synagogues, and into prisons, being brought before kings and rulers for my name's sake. -Luke 21:12 ( right on God timing )

And it shall turn to you for a testimony. -Luke 21:13

Settle it therefore in your hearts, not to meditate before what ye shall answer: -Luke 21:14 ( be a stead fast resolved determined to finish your race strong not be shaken by what you see , hear or experience )

For I will give you a mouth and wisdom, which all your adversaries shall not be able to gainsay nor resist. -Luke 21:15 ( God will empower you through this do not be afraid )

And ye shall be betrayed both by parents, and brethren, and kinsfolks, and friends; and some of you shall they cause to be put to death. -Luke 21:16 ( again this will happen so learn to be wise but still preach the Gospel listen to the Holy Spirit instructions when to move when to speak )

And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake. -Luke 21:17 ( we see this now )

But there shall not an hair of your head perish. -Luke 21:18

In your patience possess ye your souls. -Luke 21:19 Amen

♌️ Rising

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#preach

Stoned thoughts| Part I

as you reflect on life: “The devil is a liar...Liar Liar pants on fire...omg! Now I understand the reference. It wasn’t just because it rhymed, but literally! The devil= Liar his pants are DEFINITELY on fire”

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Ok I’m done. 😂

Um. Do I laugh or cry? It’s accurate. 🤷🏻‍♀️ 😏

Therapist: I believe you said that your childhood experience was satisfactory?

Four: No, you misheard me, I said it was ‘sadness factory’.

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“Responsibility is not blame. Responsibility doesn’t mean that you did something “wrong”. It doesn’t mean that you caused something. It means that you can respond *in the present moment* to whatever is happening. It’s response-ability. It’s the ability to respond in the present moment. To say that we are wounded is one thing. To say that we are inevitably stuck that way because of what happened to us a long time ago is to abdicate responsibility, because it means “I’m simply a victim, and I can’t respond in any creative, powerful fashion, to what happened to me.”” -Gabor Maté

"If terrible things have happened to you, you are to have grown wiser. If the worst possible events have befallen you, you should be the wisest of the lot, but instead of going wise, most people become wounded. In a state of conscious response, it is possible to use any life situation, however ugly, as an opportunity for growth. But if you habitually think, I am the way I am because of someone else, you're using life situations merely as an opportunity for self-destruction or stagnation. The most horrific things in life, can be a source of nourishment if you accept, I am responsible for the way I am now. It is possible to transform the greatest adversity into a stepping stone for personal growth. If you take 100% responsibility for the way you are now, a brighter tomorrow is possible. But if you take no responsibility for the present, if you blame your parents, your friend, your husband, your girlfriend, your colleagues for the way you are, you have forsaken your future even before it comes." - Sadhguru