I Guess There’s Comfort In The Fact That No One Will Ever Hate Me As Much As I Hate Myself

oh, but for you? for you, i would kneel. for you, i would bleed. i would cut your name into me and show you that i belong to you. i would grovel at your feet. i would whine, beg, plead for you. i'd do anything for you, my darling.

I just wanna rot away and dissolve into nothing.

I hope you forgive me for ruining everything

Me on the inside

I am the most unlovable unlikable person in the world and don't say that's not true cause everyone who say that leaves me

don’t you want to torture me ? please , just carve into my skin and watch my blood leave a pool of warmth and love . brand your name into my flesh with an iron , leaving a permanent mark of ownership . hear my screams before shoving me head underwater , that’ll shut me up — won’t it ?

was i not good enough? will i ever be good enough?

I can't do this omg

Vent post

So I have a friend I'm calling A and I always listen to her talk about the boy she dating or the boy she likes and no matter what I stop what I'm doing to listen to her but today I wanted to tell her me and this girl I like had are first phone call cause it made me really happy and as I'm about to say something she opens her book an says give me a second and I got mad at her for it cause why would you do that and ignored her.well a little bit ago she asked if I was still mad at her and I didn't respond she asked me if I heard about her breakup that happened today (which was her fault cause she flirted with another guy) and I mumbled yea and she starts talking about the breakup so I tell her I don't care and she says why so I tell her I'm not gonna listen to your problem that YOU started when you won't listen to one thing I was gonna tell me and then she says I'll play a game with you if you stop being mad a me like no I don't want to play a fucking game with you. And the most annoying part is she told my friend M that she didn't know why I was mad at her when I HAD JUST SAID IT I swear I'm so fucking done

Hey guys sorry for my absence I took a tumblr break so I won't go crazy. Here's an update

I've been trying g to get better mentally but it's not really working I've made up with alot of people even tho I don't really want to I'm just tried of worrying about getting harassed all bay but my friend imma call A has been ignoring me for her boyfriend and won't stop be sexual to me and about me and I don't really know what to do I just miss my best friend with all my heart