I Think So Much Of Life Is Just Finding Out There Are A Thousand Different Ways To Lose Things.

the queen is dead

i saw the book moby dick and my first thought was “moby dick. more like move ure dick im gay”

if you haven’t, i hope you fall in love with life again. i hope you wake up with a happy sigh, hope you feel like doing things you enjoy, hope you are surrounded by people who make you feel safe, hope you smile at yourself in the mirror.

world? i am so happy as of late. The things that bothered me so much just aren’t. The fuck ups and things i hated are so far away. The fear i had! It’s distant!

I can sit here and observe this peaceful ocean, this lovely field of calm

Healing is worth the struggle :D

wilbur's doing really well :D

i am so consumed

fern clover and birch can not pull me from my place in the thick of the bog

although they do try.

i lay prone, unprotected and powerless to stop sinking.

to each little blue flower who dots around my eyes and corners of my mouth,

i whisper, “bring me back to life

help me breath in air once again

help me wake up,

please.”

everyone should be jealous of me.

i have found starlight and he likes holding me.

i feel tonight as a being wrapped in old memories.

They are cloying and drip with slick and cold silver strings. A web of fear to enclose my little heart.

In this darkening void, i knew where the edge was. I still willingly walked out onto thin air.

I could understand that I, myself, am a being of lack and disgust

I know what makes a void like me too heavy for any surface to support

Yet how stupid am I to be surprised when i fell.

I have been caught in such a web again,

my fingers sliding off it’s wet surface,

deeper and deeper i slip away from the surface.

I can do nothing but grasp at empty air.

I wonder when the dark will claim me again.

man to b like @biggest-gaudiest-patronuses

what a dream

just a thought.

im putting it in a box though.

my mind is moving on to other things

I’m done with the dwelling.

it was good for a time. but now i gotta go on