I'm afraid that I will never commit suicide and will suffer for the rest of my days.
this white guy in our neighborhood's HOA is trying to dissolve it because nearly all the members are indian including the president. but our neighborhood's 90% all indians so ... is it not accurate
bpd culture is 'they didn't reply for 5 hours so i won't reply for 5 hours either' and then messaging back instantly as soon as they msg you!
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i shouldve lied about my age on here
no nevermind i love her she took off my glasses when i fell asleep on the couch and put another blanket on me
i need to hug my mother and cry into her neck because i miss the warm embrace of her womb and this bed is too cold for me; i just wish she held me. i just want her to care for me forever, no matter how bitter and painful loving me is
i just wish my brain was the same as everyone else's i feel like i have to work thrice as hard to be a normal person who does normal things
its actually okay that you let go first because i wouldnt have moved on otherwise
and in between all the cooking and dishwashing, i let myself take a breath but i just get reminded of how empty i feel inside and nothing is okay for a while
i don't know what to do with myself anymore
nadia waheed, "after rego," 2022, oil on canvas