I Have So Many Rants I Wish To Post Write

everyone i know is homophobic 🪫

telling your friends you ship kyman is like coming out as gay to your parents

Every day, the situation in Gaza gets worse. Every minute, a child dies. There is no treatment, no hospitals, no schools, and not even homes to live in. Gaza is no longer livable.

There is no food, no clean water. The situation is catastrophic and beyond what words can describe. Think deeply about these heartbreaking words. My family and I are living in this hell, waiting for the border to open so we can escape as soon as possible. But we don’t have enough money to flee.

Please, help me do something. Donate here, I beg you.

@b0tster @punkitt-is-here

i’m super tired so i’ll probably come back to this but, i’ve always wanted to see kyman fics that didn’t neglect stan and kyle’s friendships. they’re best friends, and their friendship isn’t clashing with kyle and erics relationship, i think if the fic does it right, it could enrich it. okay goodnight

nonchalant i swear until you bring up cannibalism as a metaphor for love

Second semester hitting me so hard I have to resort to delusions to lock in.

her insta lives are kinda like a podcast, but i agree

i figured she’ll have to be a bit more “mainstream” to get featured on a podcast

but a podcast hosted by her? where she just talks about anything? i’d PAY for that

would kill for an ayesha podcast

got me feeling emotional oml

i find it so funny how transfem kenny & butters hc are so common when

this is happened multiple times with new outfits each time LOL

obviously no hate to transfem kenny or butters hcs, i love them dearly

but.. can we please see some transfem eric hc love soon?

i genuinely would love to see a transfem eric and how that would affect his character and the people around him, how his perspective would change, how it would stay the same, how would he realize, what would he do when he did? do you think he’d ask mr garrison? what outlandish plot would he scheme up to confront who he is? ect ect

lil gender (ig?) dysphoria vent ^__^

worst part about being unlabeled (mainly because labels are uncomfortable to you) for me is that my feelings towards gender identity are fluid—so much so that i used to be genderfluid and pronounfluid but all the labels were confusing.

I felt like I was constantly boxing my identity instead of living it to the fullest. (if that makes sense?)

The thing is—when you say you’re “unlabeled” (in which i sometimes feel dysphoric for labeling the term and other times not)

people usually opt for all gender neutral terminology, and I have nothing against gender neutral terms, like I said my feelings are fluid which in itself is so annoying.

because like?? one moment i’m like “this is it, I’m actually just [label] i’ve finally figured myself out” and then my feelings change.

i genuinely have NO CLUE why i’m like this, and it’s frustrating, i do stay with genderfluid crowds when i’m having these issues but even then I don’t want to label myself—especially when my feelings change and it makes me feel dysphoric.

but back to what i was saying, i have nothing against gender neutral terms, and also like i said I sometimes prefer them. but sometimes when it’s ONLY and STRICTLY gender neutral terms i feel dysphoric because sometimes i don’t feel gender neutral.

but i feel uncomfortable hounding anyone about my gender identity (and it’s shifts (and because i mainly have a white cishet christian conservative community and i’d rather not be publicly outed and shamed)) so i just sit through the dysphoria.

i just hate not knowing, i hate it fluctuating and i hate not having a solid feeling about my gender. i look at other lgbtq people in the community who seem like they have it all figured out—hell i look at other genderfluid people who also look like they have it all figured out too—but i don’t.

there’s not much i can do, and i know people will say (as they always have) that it’s a phase—which is like

1) life is all a bunch of phases

2) what do i do when my phases constantly change and have been changing most of my life?

i don’t expect to be accommodated 24/7 about this—trust me it’d be nice but i understand there are people in need who’s priorities are higher in which i want them to be accommodated first before anyone else.

i just dream of the day i have a small close knit group of other people who not only relate but are able to help validate me through my identity.

this might also be a relevant time to wonder if i may have autism or adhd. not saying that i have either

(although i’ve been getting close to self diagnosed and i’ve been wanting a screening for awhile)

or that having either is in any way inherent connected to my feelings in general—but i have a hunch,, suspicion,, dare i say hope? to maybe explain it all to me?

sorry if i don’t make sense this is just me rambling :>