Katypetty

“And as a child I never thought I’d have to drown myself in poison just to take the pain away.”

- ( @lostandtwisted )

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I don’t like all these feelings. I wish i could kill them with drugs BUT I can’t do that without killing myself in the process.

Except from my journal 6-11-19

“She hated her life, not because it was bad, but because when you hate your brain and your body, it’s hard to enjoy the rest.”

— Euphoria (2019)

but I never got the letter saying my drug addiction would keep me locked in hotel rooms & empty inside for months?

my mom didn't sign the permission slip

“I can write the saddest poem of all tonight. I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.”

—

Trauma Bonding is when you’re so heavily attached to a toxic person, that you are willing to maintain a relationship, even at the expense of yourself for the few and far between highs.

Your brain gets highly addicted to the habitual ups and downs of oxytocin, dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin, that even when the relationship ends, you will seek and crave the person or become obsessive or seek similar people, in order to get your fix. It’s the rewiring of the neurological pathways of love, turning against itself.

The loss of the love, makes you crave them more. You’re dependent in the same way a heroin addict is 🤔🤓😈