One Day This Will Kill Me And I Can't Wait For That Day To Come.

I’m starting to listen to myself more; it’s pretty cool up there in my head.

-AJ

“She hated her life, not because it was bad, but because when you hate your brain and your body, it’s hard to enjoy the rest.”

— Euphoria (2019)

wish my brain was into kinky stuff like producing serotonin and dopamine

“I don’t know how to talk about the rabbit hole without accidentally inviting you to follow me down it.”

— Blythe Baird - “Relapse"  (via buttonpoetry)

grunge

Trauma Bonding is when you’re so heavily attached to a toxic person, that you are willing to maintain a relationship, even at the expense of yourself for the few and far between highs.

Your brain gets highly addicted to the habitual ups and downs of oxytocin, dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin, that even when the relationship ends, you will seek and crave the person or become obsessive or seek similar people, in order to get your fix. It’s the rewiring of the neurological pathways of love, turning against itself.

The loss of the love, makes you crave them more. You’re dependent in the same way a heroin addict is 🤔🤓😈

“The breaking of a wave cannot explain the whole sea.”

— Vladimir Nabokov, The Real Life of Sebastian Knight

“Be, don’t try to become.”

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This shit isn't for the weak minded 🗣️💯