What They Do After Their Breakup With You

Do you listen to partner asmr like scaramouche x listener etc. Bc I listen to them every night and it's the best thing I ever did.

Here is my list of my favorites:

Scaramouche, venti, diluc, albedo, xiao and kazuha,

The venti and albedo do sound like in game (eng dub) and this is just a short list Bc I think half of these would be catboys 🥲

I'm ashamed to admit that I do, I've listened to all of the ones that you linked and subscribed to maybe 3 of the people there? I'm more fond of the ones by the jp voice actors but they are pretty short

like this of kazuha, and this one that sounds very similar to our scara, AND THIS SCARA ONE SHSHSJS, and xiao, AND ANOTHER SCARA ONE

also this scara one on youtube

there's more but these are my faves <3

Cyno timeline

Around Deshret's fall

Hermanubis founds the city of Tulaytullah alongside his tighnarian companions and establishes the Temple of Silence

The tradition of the Rite of Duels is initiated

Around Gurabad's time

The temple is attacked and Hermanubis divides himself into fragments of power that his subjects in the temple can use

The tighnarians emigrate to the forest

Before Rukkhadevata's death

The temple priests wear helmets that honor Hermanubis tighnarian origins

Rukkhadevata calls for Hermanubis priests (including Kasala) to guard seven temples in the desert infused with the power of dendro/life

Presumably, the Akademiya and the Temple of Silence begin collaboration

After Nahida's birth

400 years ago the temple and the Akademiya cut ties

The temple becomes recluse in the desert

The Akademiya keeps a fake branch for the Temple of Silence for appearances

Around two decades ago

Cyrus gets lost in the desert and is saved by the Temple of Silence

Cyrus joins in their research to find a host for Hermanubis ba fragments

Cyno is found to be a potential candidate and his parents sell him to the temple

Both Cyno and Sethos resonate with the ba fragments

The temple considers giving the two fragments to one of the children

Cyrus steals Cyno and takes him to the Akademiya

Unspecified time before the events of the game

Cyno grows up with fevers and pain but always feels the spirit supporting him

Lisa studies 2 years in the Akademiya and takes pictures of Cyno and Cyrus

Cyno joins the Akademiya in the Spantamad darshan

Cyno suffers discrimination in the city due to his origins and grows avoiding lies

Cyno joins the matra and partners up with Taj, who describes him at the time as someone who always pushed forward

While reading a book about the cardinal sins, Cyno stops to ruminate about the sin of divulging secrets without fear and gains a vision

Afterwards, he attends his ceremony to become General Mahamatra

Cyno hears about Tighnari and conducts a research, but finds him to be harmless and they become friends

4 years before the events of the game

Lisa sends a letter to the Akademiya to request Cyrus's help

Cyno goes to Mondstadt to seal the god Dottore put inside Collei

Cyno takes Collei to live with Tighnari in the forest

Pre-Sumeru chapter

A year prior Taj's son commits suicide and Taj retires to an administrative position

Cyno suspects the sages of malpractices when Azar denies him access to the details of their project

Cyno exiles himself to investigate and tells Tighnari not to contact him

Sumeru chapter

Cyno hears Alhaitham discussing a mission against a blond traveler with the sages and tracks him to Aaru Village, where he confronts Alhaitham with an ambush styled as an assassination (and his own personal touch, according to the scribe)

They're forced to remain civil, but Cyno no longer distrusts Alhaitham

Cyno mentions he hasn't been to the desert in years

Traveler tells Cyno that Lesser Lord Kusanali is real

An earthquake opens up the path inside the ruins of Kasala's grave, where the truth about the three god kings is revealed

Cyno pays respects to priest Kasala

After finding out the goal of the sages' secret project and the traveler's adventure in Sumeru, Cyno has a revelation about his purpose

Rahman's men become allies

Nahida is rescued and Cyno confronts Azar on her behalf

Cyno tells Azar that the Akasha can no longer predict his moves and that "people change"

Cyno regains his position as General Mahamatra

Aftermath of aq

Cyno oversees the project for education in Aaru Village alongside Setaria, who he works for as a bodyguard

Cyno sq 1 (unspecified time, possibly during the events of the aq)

The Court of Desolation is presented as an allegory for forbidden knowledge, as regardless of its authenticity people still give up their lives (figuratively and literally) for it, which justifies the role of the matra in the region so they can protect those who attempt the forbidden

Taj gives up his life to seal the Court under the sands

Cyno asks him to say hi to his son (but doesn't say goodbye in the original Chinese dialogue)

Cyno expresses his grief through the desire to plant flowers that can withstand the desert whether in Taj's grave, which is kept secret to the public

Alhaitham sq (aq aftermath)

During Alhaitham's time as acting Grand Sage, the Matra's authority is solidified within the Akademiya as an independent organism from the sages

Unspecified

Cyno poses as the model for King of Invokations novel

Cyno makes sure to give vacations to his subordinates

Windblume

Tighnari and Cyno accompany Collei on her trip to Mondstadt's Windblume festival

Dehya covers for Cyno in the Akademiya and Candace works as Setaria's bodyguard in Aaru Village

Cyno meets his favorite TCG artist, Albedo alias Calix, and commissions a dragon themed cardback

Collei and Tighnari are shown to despise his jokes (in a friendly manner)

After Dirge of Bilqis

Cyno begins investigating what happened to the Tanit tribe

Parade of Providence

Cyno participates in the competition representing the Spantamad darshan in order to win the special Genius Invokation special edition card

Cyno loses the competition but buys the card from the winner, Kaveh, who had no understanding of its value and offered to give it to him for free

Pre-Fontaine chapter

Charlotte writes a piece about Cyno in The Steambird

Cyno meets Kirara and works alongside her and the traveler to uncover the mystery of the card thief

Cyno's sq 2

The leader of the Temple and Silence and his adoptive grandson, Sethos, lure Cyrus into the temple

Cyno goes after him alone, but is joined by Tighnari and traveler later

The temple detain Cyrus and offer an exchange for Cyno's ba fragment, which Cyrus opposes

Tighnari reminds Cyno he earned his fragment

Tighnari proposes to find a resolution through the ancient Rite of Duels

Cyno fights Sethos and wins, Sethos gives up his fragment

Cyno appoints Sethos as the leader of the Temple of Silence, since his place is in the Akademiya

The Akademiya and the Temple of Silence begin cooperation again, as per the leader's plans

Cyno doesn't hold anything against Cyrus

levi ackerman // fic recommendations

note: remember to read the tags! + i do not own any of these works

you’re drunk and ridiculous (and he can’t trust you with anyone else)

gestures

no funny business

as the spark dies

wild card

dust, diamonds

dirty money

nobody's fault but mine

traditions

time

the wife

crush

percolate

petals inked in red

spite

one million to one

power trip

ghost

silent treatment

love hate me

as the world caves in

two faced

bad romance

garden of tulips

plans

and when i see you smile, the clouds will clear

ghostly greetings

safe haven

panacea

sayonara

“may i?”

his wounded heart beats for one

beneath the pages

respite on black waters

galaxies past

overwhelming

List of “angry confession” prompts

“Since when did you ever care about me?!” “Since fucking forever, you idiotic dunce!” 

“I can’t leave you alone for one second without you hurting yourself, can I?” “I mean, I’m fine so it’s okay—” “No, it’s not okay. Not when I feel like I’m going to go batshit fucking crazy, thinking you’ve hurt yourself.“

“Well, I’m sorry I fell in love with you, okay? But it happened and I can’t do shit about it.” “You… What?” 

“You think I wanted this to happen? You think I, of all people, wanted to fall in love with you?” 

“Trust me, I’m also trying to understand how in the shit this happened.” 

“…This is why I knew I shouldn’t have gotten close to you.”

“I’m going to need you to stop for one second because I just find it so incredibly rude that you think I’m not head over heels in love with your stupid, oblivious ass. Are you a brick? Because you’re dense as fuck.”

“Tell me how I’m supposed to un-love you, then. Tell me. Spare me.” 

“Yeah, well, if I could, I’d lose feelings for you. But it’s not that easy. It’s not that easy to just let go of someone you’ve held onto for so fucking long.” 

“What part of ‘I want you, and only you’ do you not understand?” 

☆ーMASTERLISTー☆

table of contents:

ーgenshin impactー

- genshin impact none au + misc. works

- genshin impact college au works

- genshin impact royalty au works

- genshin impact dendro au works (tba)

- genshin impact 4nemo au (tba)

note: beware of dark content below. many of these works can have triggering themes. please do not proceed further if there is something that might trigger you, or you do not like dark content. please do not proceed if you are a minor. if something is incorrectly tagged or you want me to add a trigger, please let me know immediately.

☆ content : contains or mentions dark concepts or content.

♡ content : contains yandere content, but no further dark content.

♧ content : normal content that does not contain dark nor yandere content. can still be notsfw however.

GENSHIN IMPACT M. LIST

GENSHIN IMPACT NONE AU M. LIST

ー FULL COMPLETED FICSー

☆ the better brother. | kaeya x reader

♡ cat caught your tongue | venti x reader

ー dubcon (fully consented (venti even asks to make sure) but can come off as dubious at first so just incase), public sex + penetration + fingering + jealousy + marking ft. anemo sigil mention + semi-vouyerist kaeya + overstimulation + orgasm denial + mean dom venti + cockwarming + dacryphilia. ft unaware of venti being barbatos reader. female reader. minors will be blocked on sight <3

ーCONCEPTSー

♡ yandere xiao and a yaksha!reader darling

♡ my thoughts on yandere lumine and aether

♡ ayato, ayaka and tohma with a servant reader + bonus thoughts

♡ yandere ayaka forcing you into an arranged marriage

♡ diluc and his poor maid reader

♡ yandere kazuha x reader x yandere beidou

♡ soft yandere scaramouche

ーTHIRSTSー

☆ like humans do | zhongli forced pregnancy

ー warnings: dubcon, forced pregnancy, creampie, implied jealousy, overuse of the phrase 'my love', bad 5am writing

♧ zhongli calling you 'little one'.

♧ malewife zhongli relieves your stress

ー warnings: fingering, penetration, breeding, slight overstimulation, slight cervix fucking (?)

♧ xiao with a pierced dick

ー warnings: pierced dick, light degradation, face fucking <3 gender neutral bc everyone deserves to get fucked by xiao! minors dni

♡ xiao and venti + their love of somnophilia

ーwarnings: dubcon (consented but dubious), somnophilia

♡ albedo and aether + their love of somnophilia

♧ venti as a dom / dom venti supremacy

ー warnings: marking + hinted at exhibitionist + teasing + overstim + somnophilia mention. just me blabbering around venti being a dom. gender neutral because everyone deserves a dom venti in their life. minors dni. [bonus]

ー extra: more in depth on the type of dom venti is

♧ being albedos catgirl

ー warnings: cat hybrid!reader, breeding, heat cycles, cockwarming, reader calls albedo master, mentions of experimentation, slight degradation, manipulation, extremely one-sided love, slight yandere albedo but not really?

♧ fox hybrid childe

ー warnings: hybrid!childe, breeding (readers gender-neutral though), short drabble bc I'm so in love with this man lol.

♡ bunny boy kaeya

ᡕᠵ᠊ᡃ່࡚ࠢ࠘ ⸝່ࠡࠣ᠊߯᠆ࠣ࠘ᡁࠣ࠘᠊᠊ࠢ࠘𐡏” ♡♡♡

GENSHIN IMPACT COLLEGE AU M. LIST

ーMAIN LINE STORY + HEADCANONSー

☆ GENSHIN IMPACT COLLEGE AU LIST

ー comprehensive list of the personality traits of the characters in the genshin impact college au, how they interact with eachother, and their correlation to you. CHARS. INCLUDED: Venti, Xiao, Zhongli, Kaeya, Diluc, Razor. part 2 + minor character list coming soon

☆ PART 2: KAZUHA, CHILDE (tba)

♡ GENSHIN IMPACT COLLEGE AU VOICELINES

ー voicelines of some of the characters of the genshin impact college au! a lot of these are vaguely yandere, but you can read some as normal. half of these characters have not been introduced yet, but will be introduced in part 2. CHARS. INCLUDED: VENTI, XIAO, ZHONGLI, NINGGUANG, CHILDE, ALBEDO, KLEE (PURELY PLATONIC)

♡ GENSHIN IMPACT: COLLEGE AU VOICELINES II

ー CHARS. INCLUDED: KAEYA, DILUC, KAZUHA, SCARAMOUCHE, CHONGYUN, SUCROSE, NINGGUANG II, XIAO II

ー YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH PROFESSOR ZHONGLI: talks about your relationship with your history professor, zhongli, and how he makes you feel. also briefly mentions professor nigguang.

ー YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH DILUC: talks about dilucs thoughts on you, how you both began bonding, and the heinous things he's willing to do to make sure you get on his side.

ー YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH KAEYA: talks about how your friends with benefits relationship started, as well as how the others react. half canonical.

[bonus: you'll always come crawling back to him]

ー WOULD XIAO AND VENTI EVER SHARE YOU?

ーFULL COMPLETED FICSー

☆ one beer | yandere venti x reader

ー 'it's just one beer,' your roommate said. 'it'll barely do anything to you, I promise. just one and I'll leave you alone.' your roommate has such a way of convincing you into just about anything. too bad you took his bait this time. [NONCON + DRUGGING + SOMNOPHILIA + PHOTO TAKING]

ー bonus: what if reader got pregnant? (venti verson) (xiao version)

☆ proper celebration/ beer and pride | y. venti x reader x y. xiao [pt. 2 to one beer]

ー you're finally done with your tough semester, all thanks to the help of your tutor, xiao. your roommate venti thinks this is more than cause for celebration.[NONCON, somnophilia, fingering, pussyjob, penetration, creampie, voyeurism, implied drugging, implied corruption kink (?), implied photography]

ー bonus: would reader ever know about the photo?

ー bonus 2: what if himmel (the unknown bard) was alive and comforted you in this au?

☆ watched from afar | yandere xiao x reader

ー xiao has been watching you for years. becoming your history tutor was perhaps the best thing that ever happened to him. however, he can't hold back years of pent up frustration and love for any longer. how convenient of you to have ordered food while you two studied. [noncon, somnophilia, mentions of drugging, nonconsentual photo-taking, creepy compscience xiao, stalking]

♡ to be just like you | xiao x reader

ー you want to be cool xiao, and what better way to do that is there than get pierced by the man himself? you're not aware just how much your warmth can melt his coldness. [cw: needles and a hint of blood (reader gets a piercing or two), unrequited (?) love, fluff turned angst because of course I made it fluff turned angst, slight obsessive tendencies (?)].

♡ musuem trip with zhongli + xiao

☆ call for help | professor zhongli + diluc and kaeya

ー between ventis clingy, unwanted touches, and xiaos borderline stalkerish activities, you attempt to go to someone for help and input on your situation, not knowing they're just as bad as the one's causing your distress in the first place. professor zhongli is mature, surely he'll have a solution, and kaeya and diluc are your good friends, surely they'll give you good input. right?

☆ teachers pet | professor zhongli x reader [drabble]

ー you'd do just about anything to raise your grades. [WARNINGS: notsfw, dubcon (you can decide, but it's framed as consented but manipulated), teacher student relationship/ age gap (readers 21 and zhonglis 28), abuse of power and manipulation, breeding but I pinky promise it's gender-neutral, humiliation. minors dni, just a short unedited drable].

☆ hentai enthusiast xiao [drabble]

ー creepy degenerate xiao just can't stop fantasizing about you. [WARNINGS: yandere creepy xiao, masturbation, use of vr and doujinshis to pretend to fuck the reader, fleshlight use, mentions of somnophilia and semi-implied non-con fantasies. xiao and reader don't actually have sex but it's mostly just his fantasies. reader is gender neutral].

☆ birthday sex

ー in which xiao celebrates your birthday without you (spiritual succesor of the hentai enthusiast xiao post). [WARNINGS: once again, creepy xiao agena time. proceed with caution. male masturbation, xiao's imagining having sex with you (no actual sex though), use of sex toy (fleshlight), mentions of stalking + cyberstalking, brief mention of dubiously consensual fantasies, unsoliciated nudes, yandere + dark content. readers gender neutral (parts are simply referred to as 'hole').]

hentai enthusiast albedo

ーCONCEPTSー

♡ readers relationship with venti

ー you'll never leave him, will you? you love him too much to be upset, no matter what he does.

♡ venti just can't help but get aroused near you.

♡ comp science xiao kidnapping you

♡ yandere comp!science xiao: what if you liked being kidnapped?

♡ xiao and his habits for when you shower

♡ xiao and venti sharing a darling / polyamory

ᡕᠵ᠊ᡃ່࡚ࠢ࠘ ⸝່ࠡࠣ᠊߯᠆ࠣ࠘ᡁࠣ࠘᠊᠊ࠢ࠘𐡏” ♡♡♡

GENSHIN IMPACT ROYALTY AU M. LIST

ーMAIN LINE STORY + HEADCANONSー

☆ GENSHIN IMPACT ROYALTY AU LIST ☆

ー the basic details of your suitors + important people in your life of the Genshin Impact Royalty AU, in which you are a noble forced to marry the now ex emperor of Liyue. you've realized that there's a lot of oddities within all the people around you, but you're just too busy to care. CHARS. INCLUDED: Diluc, Venti, Zhongli, Albedo, Sucrose, Xiao.

ー EXTRA NOTES: talks about readers illness, your connection to other characters, original suitors, just overall rambles and concepts not previously mentioned.

ー HOW DID CHILDE BECOME YOUR BUTLER?: talks about childes organization called the fatui, the reason he's your butler, your relationship with him, and his regrets. as well as this, the end notes discuss bigger concepts of the au as a whole.

ー VOICELINES ー

♧ reader bakes treats for the characters

ー CHARACTERS INCLUDED: VENTI, XIAO, ZHONGLI, CHILDE, DILUC, KAEYA, NOELLE, SUCROSE, KLEE (purely platonic), BEIDOU

ー FULL COMPLETED FICS ー

note: these fics are in the semi-order you're supposed to read them. there are a lot of gaps in between, as this is not a series but an au. you can decide which are canon and which are not!

☆ to (not) be wed. | yandere xiao x reader

ー you've never been great at being the noble you were expected to be, though that never really mattered until now, day until you're to be wed to an acclaimed 'emperor' of Liyue before he steps down his position, but it doesnt seem as though Xiao likes this situation at all. [implied noncon/ dubcon, implied jealousy, possessiveness, yandere tendencies, readers gender neutral]

☆ fragility. | yandere zhongli x reader

ー zhongli thinks it's silly of you for you to deny your fate, especially a day before your wedding. one day, you'll realize just how meant together you both truly are. he can wait until that day comes. this is my personal favorite fic I've written. short, simple and sweet, but gets the point across.

☆ mein klein mäuschen | yandere albedo x reader

ー your father's always been sick, that's well known, but what isn't known is that you've inherited the same illness, now fragile and weak and refusing to let those around you know so as to not suffer the underserved consequences, especially from your (erranged) husband zhongli. you've always trusted albedo, the man who provided your father with his medicine, so after receiving a letter from his assistant sucrose asking you on a date, you go to him for help to make sure your issues are in check. but little mouseys like you deserve to be in the hands of their rightful owner. albedo wants to remind you of that. [DARK CONTENT. noncon, drugging/ aprodisacs, use of needle, abuse of power/ betrayal of trust, creampie, jealousy, marking. AFAB reader but no pronouns used].

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We're all crying

a/n: hello dears! this is something i've been wanting to write for a long time now but never felt the courage to post. this piece is a little bit of a summary of the novel i have been writing. to make it the most enjoyable, i decided to write this as a reader-insert. i also want to apologize if the characters seem ooc. i haven't role-played for years and i have no confidence in my writing.

i hope you do enjoy this piece however. i really don't feel confident, please forgive me if it sucks. ;_; xo

pairing(s): touya todoroki x sibling!reader, implied!hawks x reader t/w: implied!incest, child abuse, neglect, death(?)

There was fire. A vortex of flames amidst the destruction that consumed anything and everything. 

In the heat haze, your gaze was directed ahead, lost. Even you couldn’t grasp the reality of the situation. Your mother held you in her arms as you stared with lifeless eyes. The lights in them have faded, and everything around you was muffled. You couldn’t understand a thing that the others were yelling about. They all sounded like crying. Yelling. A clash of red and blue hues, dancing beautifully before you. Without hearing anything, there was no urge to feel nervous. You lacked the ability to feel anything.

“You are so cool brother Touya!”

“Right? Wait until dad sees me!” Is that… brother Touya? 

“[Y/N] still doesn’t have one– mom why is she like that?”

“She is alright, Fuyumi. Some need longer than others,”

"Mom!! She’s biting me!!  Touya, do something!!”

Your mother would smile at your middle siblings, never trying to make you feel less than, or to make you feel abnormal.

Whenever your siblings would ask why you were “so weird”, Touya would always glare at them as if trying to hold something back. Sometimes, he would even start fights with them over you. Because you had difficulties developing any talent, you were an easy target for your father’s ignorance and hurtful remarks. Remarks, telling you were a waste, a useless spare. Perhaps that was the reason why Touya took it upon himself to protect you. You were second in line of your siblings, and thus being closer to your brother than the rest. But you would always stay the remaining. The unusable. And that role was just fine for you, next to Touya. Perhaps his love for you came from a place of you being “dependent” on him. When it was just the two of you, he shone the brightest in comparison to you.  And that gave him the feeling of responsibility, which fed his ego at exceeding. 

While you fuelled his desire in becoming stronger, you also brought him closer to his destruction. He claimed it was for the both of you, since he had to make up for your lack thereof, but you were just a child. 

You two were inseparable from the start. If Touya was to be eradicated, so would you. If Touya was banished, you would follow. And if your father were to forsake you, so would Touya do the same to your entire family. If it was for him, he would have always wanted to be by your side.

“Big brother…”

Your voice sounded quiet, hoarse. Your skin was burning. The many cuts and scratches mixed with the sweat that formed from the heat and the dirt, through which you were shoved in the quarrel. Weak both physically and mentally, you helplessly lay in the arms of your mother who was silently crying at whatever was unfolding in front of you all. Since your vision was but a blur, you could not grasp the seriousness of it.

You barely knew these people that surrounded you, and you felt like they had dragged you into their problems. 

You grew up with your father, and had moved to Hosu city two years ago where you helped him run a family bistro. During the first months of being opened, Shouto and his class paid a visit to the establishment and has been a regular ever since. It was due to his recent visits and getting close to you that your father felt urged to somehow make you reconsider your friendship with the boy. Denying that there was anything wrong with you two getting along, a fight was inevitable. 

The friction began to spread once it had planted its roots and what has felt like a family only had the bitter aftertaste of estrangement. Suddenly things made sense. The stiff way he would talk to you, or how he at times seemed “inattentive” was all due to his own shortcomings when it came to raising a child. Nevertheless he was always supportive, but never forceful. Eventually the time had come for you and him to go separate ways, leaving the bistro to you, and moving back to the countryside. You left things off on neutral terms, as strangers. 

While Shouto knew of the death of his oldest brother, it was a scrap of photograph that he found in the living room peeking out from a cupboard, that made him ask about his oldest sister. At first he thought it was Fuyumi before her hair had gotten those red highlights, but…  when Shouto mentioned the picture to his siblings, Natsuo couldn’t contain his impulse.

“You honestly think that one of them burned to death while the other one who he wanted gone just conveniently drowned?”

It wasn’t a topic anyone would discuss at all. Shouto did recall indeed. When he took a look into what once was Touya’s room, he saw the picture. 

It was of you and Touya. 

Always. 

“They are like twins…” 

Natsuo remarked in annoyance as he watched Touya hype you up. You two looked really alike. The eyes, the hair… and you both wanted to work hard to earn acknowledgement. As a child you always showed a fascination for theater. Singing, dancing and acting. It was one of the closest things to what you’d excel at. 

Enji would never look at you though. He would never come to any of your plays in kindergarten or elementary school. Perhaps it was easier for you to deal with the hatred of your father because of Touya, but it was never easy. If your tears flowed because of him, Touya would always get angry and try to persuade him by winning his acknowledgment. If he had shown your father that he was his best creation, maybe he would accept you as well, but…

A harsh grunt left Endeavor as his heel dug into the earth beneath him. He had to steady himself against Touya’s attacks without hurting his son. Worried was his expression as he looked back at you for a moment. Your muscles tensed as you wanted to lean away from your mother, but you had already lost quite an amount of blood. It must have been internal bleeding. 

Your vision cleared just enough to recognise his blue eyes and crimson hair. Just like that time he first came into the bistro.

“Welcome,” you sheepishly grinned at the man. Your smile was exactly like Touya’s. He tried to hide his gaze with a baseball hat, but given how he was over towering you, you could easily see up from below. He seemed very nervous, apologetic and awkward all at the same time. 

He tried to make small talk about the shop, the frequency of customers and… you. For some reason even you had become nervous, not being able to know why. 

The first time he ever visited you, he came with an envelope. He wouldn’t even know how to talk to you. As if because of a premonition however, you dreaded opening the letter for weeks. When the time did come, you found a handy sum of money. 

Enji had been bringing it each month to your guardian, and every time he welcomed a torrent of insults as a result. You were living by yourself now, so the recipient had become you. Even though you were very grateful and embarrassed to receive the financial aid, you never asked who he was and he never brought it up. He would always look ashamed and timid when staring down at you, and you tried your best to not stammer too much in order to make the situation easier for him. 

Shouto had tried to get you to meet Rei at the hospital, but you ended up turning back right at the door every single time telling him that you just couldn’t do it. You felt no need to get to know her and your other siblings. The thought of all the awkwardness put you off, and you struggled with it for a long time. Eventually you did come around (the awkwardness in-tact) and convinced yourself to at least put some effort into seeing your mother. From what Rei told Shouto, you had died along with Touya. She would cry relentlessly, expressing her guilt of not being able to do more for you. Although she was already in the hospital by that time, she thought she had betrayed you and Touya for not doing more.

Even though you “drowned”, there was never a body seen. 

To have the world know of a child of his to be Quirkless was a taint on his image he could never remove. It was unimaginable. He despised you. You were another obstacle in his goal to becoming the Number One. 

The opportunity came as a godsend when you fell from Sekoto Peak. 

To finally rid himself of this stain. 

When you came to at the hospital, you saw Enji standing at the edge of your bed, a doctor next to him. “You don’t recognize her, sir? You brought her here from… ‘Sekoto Peak’?”

“Yes.”

“You found her after the forest fire, surely there is a conjunction. I need to let the authorities know.”

“I only ever had a son. And he died in the fire.”

Enji replied, leaving there no room for discussion with the doctor. Since by that time he had some influence, it would be no difficulty at making arrangements to keep quiet over this. 

You could barely move due to the head trauma you have sustained, but hearing the death of your brother, your “twin”, you felt an immense weight crush you. There was nothing you could say to the harsh truth that came from your father’s mouth. When the doctor asked you to confirm if you knew Enji, all you could do was shake your head. Shock, disbelief and denial was written on your face. You could only look at your father, horrified.

You always knew. You never had amnesia. 

You just pretended

not to know

always looking

away

Rei handed you over to Fuyumi and Natsuo, reaching out to your brother in order to desperately cool him down. Her Ice Quirk was useless, no matter how she tried. All of them were calling out to Touya. Shouto. Dad. Mom. Fuyumi. Natsuo. Nothing could reach Touya.

You have given up on this family since Sekoto Peak. You failed to be able to establish a connection to them. You weren’t interested. You felt nothing for them. Or perhaps, that was just your stubbornness, your way of avoiding to deal with all the emotional effort you’d need to put in, if you were to become a part of the family again.

It was easier not to deal with things, than try to fight the inevitable. 

But they were still trying to save Touya. 

It was Touya.

If not being able to do it for Shouto’s sake… then you might become able to want to contribute in building the family up again for Touya.

But would he even hear your voice if you’d call out to him? Would it even make a difference…? After all, he was your most treasured—

“We’re going to stop Touya together.” The moment your mother declared it in your father’s hospital room, you looked at her in shock. You stood a few feet away from your family, but the drift felt bigger than ever. The only way to end something like this was through death. Touya would either be imprisoned or would die trying to destroy your father. Anyone knew this, however you couldn’t. You just couldn’t.

“I’m not going. You’ll kill him..."

You sounded upset, rightfully so. You didn’t know what it implied to “stop Touya”, but all the flags pointed into one direction, and if you were to lose him for sure this time, horrible as it sounds, your life would become meaningless just like after Sekoto Peak.

“[Y/N]—”

“Don’t call me that,” you reacted violently at your birth name when your mother tried to calm you. Your tone was low and definitely off-putting, but never actively aggressive.

You realized that the wounds still ran deep, and you couldn’t yet forgive any of them. When Natsuo tried to intervene, you laid him flat with words.

“Don’t try to act like we’re family. None of you ever did anything for him. You made him become like this, and now you want to kill him? You all are insane.”

“You aren’t listening, we never said that was our only option [Y/N]!”

Natsuo yelled back, making you clench your jaw and watch him with wide eyes. You were furious and hesitant if you should slap him across the face.  He didn’t know of it, but you heard Touya cry many nights to Natsuo and equally you also didn't know of how many times Natsuo fought for Touya's memory during your time away. None of you knew how the other felt about anything, and this divide came naturally from being separated.

Even if you were children, the childhood you all had to endure would have shown you to behave differently and try to support each other though, that is what you believed. That was the judgement you held over your two middle siblings. It was a very one-sided way of seeing everything, and you only realized this once you had calmed down.

“I’m not going...”

You spoke with a trembling voice and turned your gaze away from them, walking out of the room. Keigo tried to reach his hand out to you, but to no avail. He rushed after you, hastily tapping away on his device.

‘[Y/N]... I know you are angry. But it is now the most important to stay calm. If things work out, you all can smile next spring.’

Coming to a halt with tears in your eyes, you turned just a little to look back at him with a heartbroken expression.

‘It must be hell for you. But you need to stand up to him. If anyone, it should be you and your family to be with him.’

And even though the truth hurt, you could not stop from crying in Keigo’s arms. He enveloped you, a small, weak girl, denying the fact that there was no other way.

“Touya-nii, please!! Don’t take them away!! I don’t want to lose anyone else!”

Fuyumi and Natsuo both yelled at Touya, who had been long gone. He kept telling Enji to look at him. And now everyone was.

“Are you sure about this?” Keigo asked one last time before departing. You nodded your head with a confident air. Your expression left no room for doubt. You were going to your brother. “There is something I need to do.” He smiled at you with soft eyes and gently ruffled your hair. You looked at him a bit shy, but soon smiled at him. “Don’t forget that we’re going to the cinema over the weekend," Keigo joked with a wink for a small moment before fixing his gaze. He straightened himself and looked deep into your eyes.

"Come back safely. You're very dear to me." His voice whispered as his hand gently, just barely touched the frame of your face. Your face grew hot and you felt dizzy at the affection he showed you. It was like none other you have ever witnessed. Your eyes closed briefly, taking in everything for one last time. When you opened your eyes, you smiled endearingly for him, wishing for the same. He seemed relieved to you, but dread was written all over him in reality. With a heavy heart, he placed his lips onto your forehead and waved you goodbye before setting off for his own mission. You watched him with the same smile before also taking your step to catch up to Shouto and Enji.

To think that you were hopeful in such a situation without a good ending in sight…

“Put out… your flames… Touya!!”

The sound of your father’s voice had become clear. Your mother was crying, apologizing to him while she tried to keep cooling him off. Enji was prepared to take him high up to the skies in order to not make him kill all of you, but your mother stopped them.

She didn’t want any of you to die.

“Natsu-nii… Fu…yumi-chan…” Touya gurgled his words. It was painful seeing him in this state. He was completely burning up, as if there was nothing of him left. “Da…d… Mo… Mom…?”

He was… still there…

Your lifeless eyes regained their light, and you began to force yourself up. Fuyumi and Natsuo tried to hold you, to keep you from more harm but the fire that lit inside you was burning bright.

Even if your lives were to burn away, run until you turn to ash—

It might be your last chance.

Everyone froze when you stepped forward, as if making way for you to Touya. With your arms extended to him, his flame burned the skin of your left arm. He held onto you with his remaining arm, and while you silently cried due to the pain, what caused you to spill tears was when he called out to you.

“[Y/…N]?”

You started to cry. His pitiful form told you he would never be the same again. Perhaps this was goodbye... you didn't want to let go of him, but he wouldn't put out his flames. Your heart was broken. Losing him for good would kill you. You came here prepared for that, and yet... you couldn't stop being incredibly sad. He never once cried in front of you. He held it in for you. You apologized to him in your heart for not being able to do the same for him. Even now, you were crying.

“Yes… I came to get you, Touya-nii… let’s go home. Everyone is waiting for you... I’ll be with you… Touya…” “Don’t… cry…”

Hearing him speak to you like he always did when you were sad, you broke out in tears. You gave him a heartfelt nod, tears spilling from your eyes. You stared at each other for what felt like an eternity, before the flames engulfed you both, turning the blue into white.

In this white world where time has stopped, you awoke, a warm breeze blowing past you. The wind fluttered your hair against your cheeks. Your eyes softly gazed ahead, seeing Touya and your family. He was so happy. He finally was acknowledged by everyone. Everyone was looking at him. His endurance has paid off. Oh how happy you were for him... standing here, next to him, felt like all the bad had disappeared. He was grinning at your father, his eyes closed in content.

His eyes opened and he turned to look to you, his grin wide as always.  You grinned back just the same way. His hand brushed against yours, his fingers tracing your palm until he intertwined with yours. Touya held your hand, a soft blush on his cheeks while he kept smiling bashfully at you. 

The two of you smiled at each other until everything turned white. Slowly but surely "I like you a lot, [Y/N]." "I like you too, Touya-nii!" you two are happy someplace else

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