In Dis Post I Cri

What does it mean that the war is over?

It's not over yet. I'm sorry, I made a mistake.

I meant...

What does it mean that the ceasefire has been lifted?

What nonsense!

My heart is still tired, really what is this!?

More tired than before

Nothing has changed and I don't feel that there is any noticeable progress or change.

My life is at a standstill

Nothing is good so far..

No comfort, no stability, no sense of security.

I always have a feeling of suffocation in my chest

Faintness from everything

I don't know if I'm just beginning to enter a state of depression or if it is pessimism about everything around me.

I don't really know how I feel about this matter, honestly.

All I know is that nothing there was comforting me except nature.

The sky is blue like a pure dream, with clouds swaying above it like pieces of cotton escaping from the pillows of dreams.

The land stretches green, adorned with pink trees as if it were a painting drawn by the brush of an artist who loves spring colors

The gentle breezes of the air.

And the sea playing with its waves as if it were whispering its eternal desire to stay and leave together.

I almost forgot myself whenever I contemplated the details of the entire universe as if it were playing a complete symphony of beauty.

Suddenly everything became gray

Yes, we were poured into blackness after we had colors.

I think they took that away too.

They took away everything

I started trying as much as possible to avoid the piles of rubble and ignore the gray color that surrounds me from every side and everywhere but..

To no avail.

I started feeling extremely sad whenever I saw the burned trees uprooted from their roots.

Whenever my eyes fell on their huge roots that split the ground and floated above its surface, I felt that something inside me was being uprooted, as if I was the one whose roots were being exposed, exposed to the cruelty of time. The pain in my chest intensifies, and sadness grows heavier on my soul, as if those trees reflect the cracks and wounds inside me.

The sea that I always loved sitting in front of for hours, that friend that I always escape to, I'm tired of it

You know,

Even the sea and I are at odds now.

The fresh air that I bet there is no air like this in the whole world,

They polluted it

They put poison in it

I no longer feel its gentle breezes penetrating my lungs as before.

It became filled with the smell of gunpowder.

All that remains is the far, far away

And it is my only sky

Although it has paled a lot, that's okay.

That's why I started running away with my eyes far from here..

I abandoned the trees

I left my inhalation and exhalation

And I quarreled with the sea

Only looking up

Only the sky..

Only the sky.

I'm really tired💔

Instantaneous writings, I called it..

"If only they hadn't done all this"

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random 4town headcanons:

tae young and robaire LOVE bubble tea and every friday at 5:30 pm after practice, they go out on what they call “bubble tea dates.”once aaron t said he wanted to try and went with them. he took one sip and choked on one of the bubbles, spitting it out onto robaires face. aaron t never joined them on their “dates” again, saying “i cant stand the feeling of balls in my mouth.” not that robaire or tae mind, they like when its just the two of them anyways.

the aarons are never really seen apart. aaron t follows aaron z everywhere. aaron z says that he doesn’t like it but wherever aaron t goes he’ll follow him as well. the two of them share everything. if z cant find anything he knows t took it. they’ll even drink from the same straw, which tae thinks is a showing of their strong friendship, jessie just thinks its gross.

tae young has a wall full of fanart and letters hes gotten over the years from fans. once the wall didn’t have anymore space, he put the rest in a special box he decorated with glitter and stickers.

jessie is about 19- early 20s. his kids were unexpected and kind of an accident. when the mother of his kids got pregnant with twins in their last year of high school, he didn’t abandon her. he made sure that both of them could raise those kids together. the mother of the kids and jessie are not in a relationship currently but they are very very close and consider each other best friends. they both love their kids and try their best to give them the happiest life possible.

aaron t definitely had a job as a pizza delivery boy before he joined the band. he actually loved that job with his whole heart and soul. he would constantly tell his mother that he wants to be a pizza delivery boy for the rest of his life and she told him he could be whatever he wanted, but in her head she honestly really hoped he’d be something else.

aaron z is the heaviest sleeper of the group, making him the most difficult to wake up. it’s usually a pain but, aaron t found a bright side to it. when aaron z works too hard he might pass out on the couch giving the boys the opportunity to draw and mark up his face. while robaire and aaron t draw stupid things all over his face, jessie takes out his paint set and paints pretty things on his arms and legs. tae brings over his nail set and paints z’s nails all different colors, humming quietly to himself while robaire and t giggle like idiots about the penis they drew on z’s forehead.

when aaron z finally wakes up he goes to the kitchen to find the boys looking at him and trying not to laugh. he groans and realizes what they did. “are you serious? again? really?” and the boys start to double over laughing as aaron rolls his eyes and walks to the bathroom to clean off his face and body. the only thing that he likes to keep its tae’s nail polish, even if all the bright colors don’t really match his style.

when aaron z screams from being frightened it sounds like an ambulance is driving by but got into an intense car crash so the siren is barely working.

robaire has an odd obsession with collecting socks. he has every kind of pair you can think off: pizza socks, cat socks, exclusive jessie 4town socks, wine socks, basically any kind of socks you can think of. he constantly tries to get the members into it but the only person who’s remotely into it is tae young.

tae young is the best at video games and beats his members at every video game imaginable.

once tae young told the stupidest joke and the only person that laughed was aaron z: tae: “whats the best time to go to the dentist!?” jessie: “dude please stop looking up ‘worlds funniest dad jokes’ theyre not fun-” tae: “tooth hurt-y!!!” aaron z: *hysterical laughing* arron t: (who’s been trying to make him laugh for weeks) *jumps up from his seat* “ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!? THATS WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH-” aaron z: *keeps laughing as he holds on to robaire for support* “i-i cant BREATHEE”

now tae young tells his stupid dad jokes to aaron z to make him laugh, and it works every time, which the rest of the team just can’t understand.

I was gonna ignore this cos I thought its the same teaser again but apparently it’s a masterpiece.

Best storyline TRAILER 😭 can’t wait for Friday

I joined all the promos scenes from the next episode

I have a request. Can you do the one where Jesse pierced tae’s ears.

yes, i can! i hope you enjoy it!

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(headcanon from this post ^)

4⭐️Town One-Shot: Wanna Be Cool?

(this takes place after they first debuted, so this means this was way before 2002. this also means that some characters act a bit differently or some characters' relationships are least developed than they are in the future.)

summary: tae young isn’t as confident in himself as he is now. back when 4*Town first made their debut, it was clear that tae young was ‘different’. not wanting to be the odd one out of the group, he decides to ask his housemate, jesse, to pierce his ears in an attempt to appear more ‘cool’. unfortunately, jesse didn’t realize how hard it would be to carry out this favor.

"jesse!"

the sudden sound of his door slamming open and the shout of his name caused jesse to leap out of his chair. he cautiously turned around to find tae young standing at his door, almost knocking the painting he was working on down.

jesse smiled at tae, a little perplexed as to why he had just barged into his room as if on a mission "hey tae...? what's wrong? do you need something..?"

tae young narrowed his eyes and took in a breath, puffing out his chest. it was like he was trying to make himself look confident. "i want...i-i want..."

tae young then let out a huge sigh and his shoulders dropped, suddenly losing his strong demeanor. he dropped his head and turned it to the left as a shaky finger pointed to his ear.

"....i want you to pierce my ears..." he mumbled out.

jesse raised an eyebrow. "that's it?" he asked. tae young nodded shyly. “yeah…i wasn’t allowed to get my ears pierced when i was younger…s-so why not do it now…”

jesse didn't understand why tae was acting this way over wanting to get a piercing. he was quivering like someone had a rifle to his head.

"well alright," jesse gave tae a warm smile, gesturing for tae young to take a seat on his bed "come here tae, sit down." jesse started to rummage through his arts and crafts supplies, trying to find a needle. as he was digging through one of his art drawers, he heard tae young taking mildly obnoxious deep breaths.

he turned his head slightly to see the poor boy inhaling as much as he could through his mouth as if he was trying to eat the air. jesse paused what he was doing and fulling turned around to look at tae young.

"okay, kid what the hell is going on? do you actually want to get your ears pierced or....?"

tae young nodded hastily, biting his bottom lip nervously.

"so then why are you acting like i'm about to murder you?" jesse asked as he crossed his arms, giving tae a playful smile, trying to ease his nerves "plus, it's not like you to be this quiet."

tae young started to play at his fingers, before looking up at jesse.

"i'm terrified of needles..."

"that's it????"

"you don't get it! im terrified of needles. even the t-thought-" tae young hugged, himself shivering, before shaking his head, " but i need to do this! i gotta get my ears pierced."

"....why?"

"because all you guys have your ears pierced! and it looks really cool! and i wanna look cool like that!" tae young rambled, picking at the nail polish on his fingernails. “everyone keeps calling me the ‘girl’ in this group…or that im not ‘cool’ enough to be here or whatever….and i wanna be cool enough to stay with you guys..” tae young softly mumbled out the last part.

jesse looked at tae incredulously, “wait so this is why you want to get your ears pierced? you-” jesse struggled to hold back a laugh.

“y-you think it'll make you cooler??? t-thats-” jesse couldn’t take it anymore before he started to cry out with laughter.

tae youngs face turned completely red.

“hey! there’s no need to laugh! i came here because i trusted you-”

jesse cut the tiny blonde off, his laughter calming down.

“tae.” jesse walked over and put a hand on taes shoulder, softly giggling. “thats a ridiculous. first off, you’re like the coolest guy i’ve ever met.”

“no, im too girly-”

“tae just because you like nail polish or other traditionally feminine things doesn’t make you uncool. in fact, it makes you even cooler then the rest of us.”

“stop trying to make me feel better-”

“im not, man! im being honest!” jesse took a seat on his bed next to tae. “being yourself is the coolest you can be.”

jesse looked down at tae and laughed at his unimpressed expression.

“okay, yeah, i know it sounds sappy but it's really true! if you have the courage to be yourself no matter what other people think, that's what makes you cool. doing things because you want to make other people see you in a better light, isn’t cool. a stupid piercing isn't gonna make you cooler, it's all about attitude.”

even though it still sounded kinda corny to tae young, he started to understand what jesse was saying.

you’re cool when you don’t care about what other people think of you. it's cool to show the world the most of yourself and not give a fuck about other people's opinions.

"you're cool, when you're you, as stupidly cheesy as that sounds" jesse smiled while tae young mildly cringed.

tae young nodded slowly “okay..i understand what you mean…but i still want my ears pierced.”

“tae,” jesse signed disappointedly, thinking tae really didn’t understand his point, “i just told you, you don’t need to get your ears pierc-”

“i know i don’t need to, but i want to! i actually do! and for myself this time not to impress anyone!!”

jesse raised his eyebrow, not convinced.

it was silent for a while until tae young let out a huff and mumbled, “….i do a lot of arts and crafts…and sometimes i make jewelry…and yesterday i made tiny dove earrings….and i want to wear them so....”

jesse noticed for a while now that tae young was very comfortable around the boys, but he didn’t seem to like sharing anything about himself. its like he was afraid they would judge him. the boys didn’t want to pressure him so they never pushed him to share much about himself. since they really don’t know much about tae or his interest, for jesse, this is probably one of the best moments of his life. tae young trusts him enough to tell him something so special (at least jesse thinks its special). now he was the first out of the boys to know something so important.

jesse was quiet before a huge smile broke out on his face. maybe this seemed like it wasn't a big deal to an outside viewer, but for him, this made his day- no, his week!

he gave tae young a big hug, confusing the younger, before swiftly jumping up and going back to looking for a needle in one of his art drawers.

he was more determined to find the needle now, wanting to help his friend (and see him in those earrings). he started to throw things out of his art supply drawers and rummaged around his things hastily.

after some time of tae young awkwardly watching his friend scurry around his bedroom, making a bit of a mess, he heard a loud cry of victory.

"HA! I FOUND ONE!" jesse smiled as he held a tiny little needle in his hand. "okay tae lets get-" jesse turned around to find the boy shaking just from the needle in his eyesight.

jesse paused, “….dude…if you’re THIS scared from looking at the needle, i don’t know if i can properly pierce your ears…”

tae young waved his hands frantically, “NO! NO!” he body continued to shake “i can do it!! just….just let me prepare myself…”

jesse watched in silence as tae young started to take hug breaths in and out. this went on for about a minute until tae young finally said “okay hurry up and do it!”

jesse lowly snickered at the way tae young was tightly squeezing his eyes shut. however the minute jesse lightly touched tae youngs ear with his finger, tae started screeching.

“AHHHHHHHHHHGSCDNJDGSGAHHHHHHHHHHGVHHHHHHHHHHHHHHSGAHHHHHH-”

jesse jumped back at the sudden noise, stumbling over a sketchbook he’d thrown on the floor earlier. he looked up from the floor to see tae holding his ear and screaming like a madman.

“DUDE WHAT THE FUCK-”

“IT HURTS-”

“HOW!?!?! I DIDN’T EVEN TOUCH YOU WITH THE NEEDLE!!!”

at that tae young shoulders dropped as he took his hand off his ear, clearly more relaxed than he was a second ago.

“oh? that wasn’t the needle? hahah sorry!” tae young giggled at jesse as jesse looked back at him incredulously.

“….ah fuck-” jesse just stared at tae young before he realized he’d let the needle slip out of his hand. he began looking for it before his door was being slammed open for the second time this morning.

“WHAT'S WRONG?? IS EVERYONE OKAY??? I HEARD YELLING-”

aaron z was seen standing at the door, obviously worried one of his members was hurt or in danger. he looked at the scene in front of him and his initial worried expression changed back to his usual bored one.

jesse was on the floor crawling around on his knees, patting at the ground, and squinting like he was trying to find something small. z thought he looked stupid, and laughed at him inside his head, but didn’t bother to change the expression on his face. tae young was seated on his bed looking up at aaron z and smiling sweetly.

“good morning, z! how did you sleep?”

z ignored his question, “why was there yelling coming from this room. it sounds like someone's being murdered in here.”

“haha i was just being silly no need to worry-” tae young began nervously before jesse cut him off still crawling on the floor.

“he wants me to pierce his ears but he’s afraid of needles. all i did was touch his ear with my finger and he started screaming.”

aaron z snickered, yet his stoic expression stated the same. he looked over at tae young, who looked embarrassed. z started to feel a bit of pity for tae young so he sat beside him on the bed and held out his hand.

"if you're really that scared....you can hold my hand." aaron z said, looking away from tae young.

tae young was silent for a minute, staring at aaron z's hand before a toothy grin spread over his face as he grabbed it.

"thank you aaron." tae young gave z's hand a tiny squeeze as they stared into each other's eyes.

aaron z felt his heart leap out of his chest, the minute tae smiled at him. honestly, aaron z doesn't know why he feels this way around tae young. he doesn't even know when the change happened, he guesses it started to develop from living with him for a while. truly, he thinks maybe he's afraid of the tiny blonde, but in an odd way, he kinda likes the feeling. just looking at him would make his heart cartwheel in his ribcage, which he's sure is not normal.

it kinda felt like he was gonna die from how fast his heart was racing. wait, is his hand too sweaty?? oh god, can tae feel the sweat on his hand? is he making a weird face right now? aaron had never been this panicked at just helping a friend out before. they seemed to be in their own world before jesse jumped up from the floor with a tiny needle in his hand.

"YES! alright, i got it!" jesse walked over to tae young slowly.

"okay dude, just close your eyes..."

tae young began to press his eyes shut as he squeezed aaron's hand.

z eyes shot open from the amount of strength tae put into holding his hand. aaron z looked up at jesse with the most painful expression on his face.

"holy shit! he's killing my hand!!" aaron mouthed silently

jesse shrugged in response before mouthing back, "you did tell him to hold your hand..."

jesse placed the tip of the needle at tae youngs ear.

"okay tae, i'm gonna push the needle in your ear as fast as i can on the count of three-"

"no, four!!" tae hastily interrupted jesse

"um...yeah...sure, whatever, okay on the count of four. ready?"

tae young kept his eyes shut while he continued to cut off the blood circulation from going to aaron's hand. aaron literally thought his hand was going to pop off and hit the floor at this point, but he wasn't going to take his hand back. he'd rather his hand get chopped off than watch tae suffer without any comfort.

"one...

two....

three....

four!"

robaire had never sprinted out of bed so fast in his life. he was in the middle of peaceful sleep, dreaming about making out with jesse, (and no, he will NOT explain further) when all of a sudden jesse screams in his face. he immediately woke up to the same sound except he realized it was tae young. his heart rate sped up at the thought of his poor bandmate in trouble. he leaped out of bed, sliding on his slippers at the foot of his bed and falling on his ass. he ignored the stinging pain on his buttcheeks and scrambled to his feet before running down the hallway following the hysterical screams.

as robaire continued to sprint down the hall he saw a door open up, and before he could slow himself down he ran right into arron t. they slammed into each other before toppling to the ground groaning.

"...what the hell..." aaron t choked out, holding his head in pain. it was clear he had just woken up due to all the noise.

robaire clambered to his feet quickly helping aaron t up, "oh sorry!! so so sorry man!-"

robaire was cut off by another blood-curdling scream down the hall.

robaire and aaron t shot each other an uneasy look before running down the hall following the yelling.

for the third time today, jesse's door was rammed open with so much pressure that his door nob fell off its hinges.

"OH, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!!!"

robaire and aaron t watched as jesse threw his hands up in frustration, pushing both boys out of the way to take a look at his poor door. the boys looked over to find tae young on the floor in a little ball, holding his ears and crying. they watched as aaron z awkwardly patted his back, trying to get him to stop whining.

"jesse?!" robaire turned back to jesse, who was sitting on the floor studying his broken door nob, "what the hell is going on here?!"

jesse didn't even bother to look up from what he was doing before sighing, "i pierced tae youngs ears." he mumbled tiredly.

at that aaron t went from drowsy to wide awake. he ran to tae young and pushed aaron z out of the way. aaron z was ready to protest until he remembered how tired he was at the moment.

"DUDE!" aaron t grabbed at tae youngs hands trying to see his new piercings. "COME ON LEMME SEE!"

robaire walked over and pulled aaron t back, "stop it t. his ears are probably still sensitive."

tae young slowly looked up as the boys gathered around to see his ears. his eyes were glazed with tears as he removed his hands from his ears.

"WOW- OH DUDE I LOVE IT!!!! YOU LOOK SO COOL!!!"

"it fits you nicely tae."

"yup, i did a good job."

"....it looks great but why does tae young look like he's in a lot of pain? his ears look kinda tender." robaire wondered out loud while he took a closer look at tae's ears.

he frowned immediately when he saw how red the youngest ears were.

"jesse? wheres the ice?"

"huh? what ice?"

"....um...the ice you used to numb tae youngs ear??"

"people do that?"

"YOU DON'T?!!?"

"nah, i pierced my ears myself when i was 8. i don't remember much, but i remember just using a needle."

".....holy shit..." robaire turned to aaron z "WHY DIDNT YOU TELL HIM TO GET ICE TO NUMB HIS EAR?"

aaron z just shrugged and began to help tae young wipe his tears.

"OH MY GOD- DID YOU AT LEAST DISINFECT THE EAR BEFORE YOU-"

"disinfect??"

"yes?? did you disinfect the ear before you put in the needle."

jesse looked around the room, avoiding the eyes of his leader

"uhhh, no..."

robaire groaned and grabbed tae young, taking him to the bathroom to clean his ears so they wouldn't get infected.

"YOU'RE WELCOME!" jesse yelled out after the two of them left while robaire mumbled, "i can't believe that guy has two kids...."

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