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Here's what weight gain looks like as the after picture

In four days, this picture will have been posted ten years ago. This was me as a 15 year old in high school. I had starved and abused my body to make it thinner. I hated myself. The only value I felt was my proximity to thinness. I was severely depressed and suicidal. I had endured abuse and trauma as a child, and that left me vulnerable to being taken advantage of by my "friend" on the right who abused and traumatized me further before throwing me away as soon as I told her "No."

I look even thinner in this picture, yet my face was still and always will be fat. My face was one of the biggest signs that my body I starved was meant to be fat from the beginning. The "friend" I mentioned in the other photo is cosplaying Nemo here. The 22 year old woman cosplaying Gill in this photo had an intimate relationship with me at this time when I was 15 years old. I was extremely vulnerable and grieving unbearable loss, and she used that to groom me. I look at these pictures and see a 15 year old girl who was suffering and only had her proximity to thinness to feel pride in. There was no happiness. So many points in my life I was close to developing a full on eating disorder because I had been told for two decades that my body was ugly, disgusting, and the physical equivalent of sin.

This is me ten years later at my brother's wedding. I gained back all of the weight I lost back then and am heavier than any past moment of my life. I still have mental disorders that make my life painful and difficult to live, but I am no longer suicidal. I no longer am fruitlessly chasing the thin body I was always told I was supposed to have. I have a healthier relationship with my body than I ever did in the past, and I'm making immense progress on my recovery. I don't starve myself anymore. I don't exercise for two hours a day on high levels that are dangerous for me. I intuitively eat and know that diet culture and fatphobia are wrong. I am closer to fully recovering than I've ever been.

This is what a glow up looks like.

(Fat fetishists, porn blogs, and thinspo blogs: Do not reblog this post or I will destroy you.)

Yes, there is a bouncy castle and a ball pit!

Insane to me that the UK government is slowly trying to legislate trans people out of existence and I have not seen a single person talk about it

Reblog if you genuinely support asexuals

It terrifies me that there’s so much raging passion in the lgbt+ community that insist on marginalizing asexuals and implying that asexuals don’t deserve to have safe spaces. There’s still so much acephobia so I just wanna know which blogs are genuinely supportive and a safe space for asexuals

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gracefully hops onto the Barbie trend and falls on my face <3

hey netizens! i'm not sure how many people are aware, but youtube's been slowly rolling out a new anti-adblock policy that can't be bypassed with the usual software like uBlock Origin and Pi-Hole out of the gate

BUT, if you're a uBlock Origin user (or use an adblocker with a similar cosmetics modifier), you can add these commands in the uBlock dashboard (under My Filters) to get rid of it!

youtube.com##+js(set, yt.config_.openPopupConfig.supportedPopups.adBlockMessageViewModel, false) youtube.com##+js(set, Object.prototype.adBlocksFound, 0) youtube.com##+js(set, ytplayer.config.args.raw_player_response.adPlacements, []) youtube.com##+js(set, Object.prototype.hasAllowedInstreamAd, true)

reblog to help keep the internet less annoying and to tell corporations that try shit like this to go fuck themselves <3

if you had to compile a "best moments" compilation of the bonefall rewrite, what would you want in there?

Hmm... Like a top 5? Sure, here's some favorite moments I think about a lot in no particular order;

Fallen Leaves sees her mother Squirrelpaw as a young woman after a hundred years of isolation, knowing that her wait is almost over

Bristlefrost lining up to body check Ashfur out of heaven, burning up as a shooting star

Speckletail buying just a little bit more time by driving a bulldozer into a ravine

The moment that clarity washes over Mistyfoot in the middle of another Clan argument when she looks up at Leopardstar, catching her fascinated gaze, Tigerstar amber, Dark Forest red, the setting sun turning the highstump into the silhouette of the bonehill below her. She realizes that Hawkfrost wasn't the cause of the fighting in RiverClan, he was a victim in his own way, and these ideas will not die unless they are killed.

Bramblestar gives Stupidhead a dishonor title so funny and bad that it backfires and everyone just laughs at him

r7

I hate it when you’re reading smut and you can’t figure out what position they’re in.